Boring Meals....

Today both lunch and dinner is rice and dishes. Sian.

Jamming was good! Our playing is an improvement from yesterday's! Gonna upload as many as possible on FB! But too bad FB upload so slow...

I've got nothing much to say today. Shall blog tmr night!!!LOL

"I'm trying to find the last part of me which is you."

I thought I saw a pussy cat!

Meow!

I'm seriously bored... O.O

Bored=Blog

This is an unnecessary post but I'm so bored. Nothing to do at all.

Spent the morning getting bass tabs for some songs, like All Time Low's Weightless and Simple Plan's Shut Up. Can't wait to try out those songs and expand my playlist! Can't wait to try out those songs.

Did some workout at home, and the weather is murder! It is so damn hot at home that I had to on the air-conditioner just to keep it cool. Tried watching The Big Bang Theory again, and I still don't find it funny. I gave up half way and went back to The Mentalist! Now that show rocks!But of course my all-time favourite is still How I Met Your Mother! :) Apart from the geeky (failed) jokes in BBT, another thing I don't like about the show is that each episode suddenly ends. And so far it has happened to all episodes. I'll be watching, assuming there's more to come to wrap up the geeks' current situation when suddenly...credits. It's like they just threw "anti-climax" in your face, leaving you wondering, "That's it?" At least HIMYM wraps up each episode, and I love the way how one small part in one episode can be relevant in another episode much further down in the series!

Looking back at my very old posts, I realized how much I've changed. Both in my blogging ways and in myself. I'm glad I change for the better, because the old posts are like crap! Looking back, I was the emo blogger who read manga and played games like crazy, plus the "Holy" me. Glad I left those nonsense behind. I've cut down a lot, but I still do the occasional reading of manga and playing of games (and maybe a bit of emo-ing :P)!Kind of like some stories of a lost boy. At least I found myself, kinda, and maybe found you...

So hungry. I want to eat a whole pizza!

Book in day. Bah :D

Monday night book out. Thanks a lot for not letting me take Monday off, you ****.

Haven't started reading through the 500+ qns for this Wednesday's test! Die!

ANNOUNCEMENT! CHEESEBURGERS VIDEOS ON MY FACEBOOK! If you want to check out our band's playing, just go find for my videos! :)

She laughs at my dreams,

But I dream about her laughter.

Strange as it seems,

She's the one I'm after.

Recorded

Today was a jamming day, and I headed down to CR's place at 11am. And his room was re-arranged! Like the new layout, at least computer is in air-con room now! So when jeff and kenny arrived we went to eat lunch at Marine Parade, at the same time let CR collect his new spectacles. But we had 1 hour to kill before the spectacles were done, so we went to play pool! I played one game then dozed off on the bench XD

Afternoon was jamming and plenty of recording, but the camera kept focusing on the shelf it was on instead of us...damn. And jeff made us listen to Tik Tok by some korean group. Yawnz... :P CR had to leave at 7, so jeff, kenny and I went to eat at swensens. Had a gr8 time talking a lot of nonsense!Ribbit! Finally headed to Mac for ice cream and apple pie before leaving.

hairylittlepig.blogspot.com...LOL

I'm so sleepy, hence this post is rather... rushed. Sorry everyone!

I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane.
So tell me how it should be.

Finally Friday

Finally! This week was kinda long, because of ATP and IPPT. But it was also an interesting week because I had fun chatting! :D

Today was slack. Which is good. We could use some slack. Especially the trainees.haha

I wish iModels would hurry up and give me my portfolio. So long already. And I don't like talking to the receptionist. Always PMS.haha

Jamming! Yeeeeeeeeeessssssssss!

Sometimes, no matter how right you do things, they are fated to just go wrong.lol

Just sleep,

Sleep it all away.

All the pain,

All the sorrow,

All the disappointment.

Because it's all in the past,

And tomorrow's a brand new day.

Xhausted!

Well, there was a small hope that IPPT was canceled today because of something related to the Medical Office, but too bad they had a solution and the IPPT was still on. So I did my usual, obtained a silver as usual, and wonder why I keep doing IPPT when I'll never get gold this year. Seriously make me tired for nothing. haha At least it is like a form of exercise today!

And the trainees did some really rigorous exercise after the IPPT. The worst part is, they got to bathe after IPPT, only to sweat again! WTF seriously. And still can give them only 20 mins for lunch... really amazes me. Those who treat people like scum are the scum themselves.

I've moved on, so should you.

Rest of the day was ... Agonizing, in a way. I was exhausted, tired, stressed out, and a nice headache to end it off.haha At least I got through the day w/o screwing up.haha

Went out for dinner with fellow bunkmate, and finally we talked like normal people instead of our usual crap. And the chicken rice was awesome! Surprised that she could guess it! :D

Can't wait for next tuesday :) Hope can claim my off pass ASAP

Can't wait to jam this saturday! We'll record more! Haha


It's the lil' things you do that make me smile

Rotting

Well, because I felt bad, I didn't have the mood to go for night's out. I just lied on my bed and do some reflecting, while wearing a cap. It helps to keep my hair down LOL

Tmr got IPPT. Last minute then tell me. How to get Silver tmr??? Not prepared dammit!haha




I need a break :)

Chamber of Sian-ness

This morning was damn hungry. Skipped yest dinner and lunch, so this morning my stomach was growling like mad!! If not for the ninja van, i probably would have fainted.lol Bought prata and soya bean milk. You know how people find the food wonderful if they were soooo hungry? Too bad the prata didn't have that effect. Ya, the prata is that....average.haha

Gonna be inside the chamber for them long, got around 3 details to cover. And the suit is so stuffy and thick! I'm gonna melt in my suit :S Hopefully the tear gas doesn't reach me. Don't feel like crying. Haha

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Ok chamber was ok, though now my shirt is soaked because the suit trapped all the heat. And the mask was so tight got a minor headache.haha

Damn how I make my blog private? Gotta do so before it's too late! Haha

this Saturday shall go yishun there at 7am to play safe. I can't rush there in 1hr!!haha







She's a mystery,
She's too much for me.
But I keep coming back for more,
She's just the girl I'm looking for.

Banging Till I Die

Range sucks!! My ears hurt from wearing those ear plugs for so long. And think I'm gonna fail it, all because of a stupid mistake by the control room...and the meals suck ttm so i starve on apples:S I failed the day shoot, and looks like it's gonna pour on the night one later. Plus,w/o you to chat with, currently it is FML TTM.

Wish we could talk because it sucks when I don't get to talk to you, but it would be selfish of me.haha "A man has to put her before himself."

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Well night shoot was better! 1 sms sure makes a difference! All I needed was the right motivation :)

Bye Sihua! See you in dunno how many months! Haha sorry can't send you off but 7pm is so early!haha


'Cause she's bittersweet,
She knocks me off of my feet.
And I can't help myself,
I don't want anyone else.

Seriously need to hit the gym again. My muscles are shrinking and disappearing!!!lol

Note to self: make this blog private ASAP!!!






They don't see what's so good about her.
But I see perfection :)

1st iPost!

You know how girls normally ask guys what they (the guys) like about them(the gals)?well,if she ever asked me,here is my list:

-I like your looks
-I like your smile
-I like the funny stuff you say
-I like how you make me laugh
-I like your taste in music
-I like the fact you are a freethinker
-I like your sweet character
-I like your taste in movies
-I like the fact that we have so many stuff to chat about
-I like how flawless you are to me
-I like how cheerful you always are
-I like your blog
-I (kinda) like the names you call me because it makes me laugh
-I like how you actually made me smile for the 1st time in a long long time.

To sum it up,you are simply,"Wow."


You're perfect in your on way,even if you think otherwise or think I'm crazy to think that way. Perfection isn't reality, it's perspective :)

2-Much-Chix

Today was another jamming day! But first kenny and I dragged CR out to eat lunch, and get our amplifiers. The guy asked me to try several bass amplifiers, which I could not really tell the difference between the sounds they make.haha Just wanted an affordable one. And my guitar stand broke...damn.

Turns out CR's relatives went to his place while we were at the guitar shop to collect some of his stuff, and Jeff was there. I heard that they mistook Jeff for CR!LOL Poor Jeffish. We played a bit, but I went to sleep because CR was teaching Jeff and Kenny chords. And I did this mind game on Jeff, because I had to gauge something. If the situation was not at how it is now, I'd say he could have succeeded, or at least taken smaller risks. lol Sorry if you felt mind-raped, but I paid back by letting you read it.haha I'll try to squeeze out something for you man.haha

We had chicken rice for dinner! Damn it was so filling, and we had a great time laughing away. That's what I love about friends. They never make you fail to laugh and help you forget about your worries of the outside world. Not saying I do have any worries right now.haha

In the middle of the night
When I'm in this dream
It's like
A million little stars
Spelling out your name

Visits

Yesterday we kicked off the day with visiting Miss Tan...well for me the day started with me going down to Parkway to duplicate those house keys I lost -_- After duplicating only 1 of the keys(the other was not available), which took less than 5 minutes, I was going to head down to Simei MRT station. So I called CR, hoping to go with him. I called so many times but he didn't pick up. Only later when I met him did I find out his dad drove him there. I sms-ed Sihua, asking her if want to go Simei together. But Edwin was giving her and Deren a ride there... so everyone got transport from Parkway area to Simei MRT, all leaving me at Parkway in the process. My luck really really sucks. So I cabbed there because I didn't want to be late, after hearing last year's incident.haha

I was wearing a long-sleeved shirt, so I chose to sit in the front of the cab, for the air-con. But I think the driver thought I was a friendly chap so he started talking to me about army and signing on. His brother is a lieutenant colonel! Wow. On the way there Jeff gave me a call, asking me where I was. I said I would be a bit late, and already informed Edwin about it. And he replied, "Why am I always the only one there?"

Turns out I was there on time, in order to accompany poor Jeffish.haha The rest finally came and we rotted at Starbucks for a while to wait for the remaining people. And it was then that I saw the VJC soccer captain that I tried to approach on Valentine's Day last year. I turned away from her and she simply walked past. Whether she saw me I never knew. I think she did. Anyway just seeing her brings back the reminder of probably the greatest failure in my love life ever, and the F-ed up sad feeling was stuck with me until evening...

We went to Miss Tan's house with CR and I posing in the lady glasses we bought from Cotton On, and her dog seemed more...quiet.haha She just sat on the couch, in front of the fan, watching TV. Smart dog. We ate KFC and pizza, though I didn't eat much mainly due to that depressed feeling from seeing her. Played cards and watched some korean channel on TV. The memory game was rather fun! But even at playing cards my luck was down... We tried to prepare Miss Tan's birthday cake in the kitchen to surprise her, but somebody said something that made her go to the kitchen, hence spoiling the surprise.haha And Lee Hyori is so gorgeous! Especially her face! But sure she may be so attractive, but I'm like Paul:

Paul:But...truth is...Robyn's better than the girl of my dreams.

You know why? 'Cause she's real.

Went Jeff's place after that, and watched 21 halfway. Can't remember why we stopped. And watched Silent Hill, which wasn't half as good as the game....wth. Jeff made us watch Big Bang Theory which we didn't really actually enjoy. I think for me it's because the kind of humor isn't what I like. You see, HIMYM uses humor from daily lives, something we can relate to. But for BBT, it mostly tries to make people laugh using the "geekiness" of the characters. For instance, they'd try to say some simple stuff, but use their complex geek vocabulary to say it out, which is suppose to be funny. Only some jokes are worth laughing, like when they spoke in low voices. So that's why I prefer HIMYM, and I'm sure some of the rest actually feel that way too. What up?

Jeff finally watched 500 Days of Summer! Watched with him, while CR died early. Kenny went to sleep halfway, and I died at the last part where a married Summer talks to Tom at his favourite spot.haha We then decided to go home because we were totally dead...haha

Tom: But... what if you meet someone and fall in love?

Summer: Love? You seriously believe in that stuff?

I do

Percy Jacked-son

Yesterday started with me going down to the pool for a swim. I regret doing pull-ups before jumping into the pool because my arms started to ache during my first couple of laps already. Eventually got back my momentum and swam swam swam. Glad nobody stopped me for wearing shorts in the pool.haha

Suppose to meet sihua yesterday to follow her and get the typewriter, but had to do my camera so couldn't make it. Sorry ttm... and wanted to buy it today but I got to duplicate my house keys because I LOST MINE. I'm so damn unlucky. First the first camera lost, then battery of second camera has problem, and now this. Is God making a fool out of my life?

Met the gang in the evening, and we bought tickets. First thing CR and I noticed of Jeffish was his fidora! And CR kept laughing when he saw it. I don't dare to wear mine because I don't think I could pull the look off. And there was this couple at the Cathay using the computer, and the guy kept touching his girlfriend's butt. When I told CR about it, all he said was,"Those two confirm do it a lot one."

So we bought the tickets and ate at Cafe Cartel. The chicken was so big! Or maybe I ate too many pineapple tarts before that. Either way I couldn't finish my chicken so I passed to CR who accepted it with open arms (or mouth). Sihua came and bought ice-cream w/ waffle, and after we were done we went to walk around. OMG I want a new guitar! The red colour was awesome! $500+, maybe I'll get it next month?haha Oh and CR and I bought some bimbo glasses to wear for fun today at Miss Tan's house.haha

Ok Percy Jackson... when the son of Hermes came out, I whispered to CR, "He's the bad guy. Too friendly." And true enough, I was right. The visual effects were cool, and I like the way the movie puts the Greek characters like Medusa and hydra into our present day context. But I found the last sparring scene between Percy and his girlfriend rather fake...

You know what's the worst kind of love story?

One where the guy waits for a girl,

Who never intended to come in the first place.

If this is a story of a wild goose chase,

Maybe I should stop chasing.

I'm not angry at you,

Just at myself.

I take it as silence means no.

Damn my Palringo. I don't receive msgs on msn sometimes if the iPod disconnects, which sucks. Sorry A =(

And all you trainees who read my blog, all these doesn't mean I'm emo. fyi. ROFL

You kept me there waiting,

But that I don't mind.

You kept me waiting for nothing,

that I mind.

Booked Out Faster Than I Booked In

Ok last nite I went back to camp thinking, it's just one more night in camp till book out, but then I found out we get to back out today!!! If I had champagne I'd have popped it and get drunk last night. But all I had was Ribena so I made myself a cup.

Today went to do this virtual shooting thing. Glad that it ended fast, because it meant slacking the rest of the day! Well, when we came back to camp, one of the trainee called me by my name, which irked me. I wanted to punish him for disrespect but I didn't, maybe because I was still tired. But Joel did not hold back. And then I realised maybe I was being too friendly to them. Maybe it's time to really treat them like how a 3rd sergeant will ,in other words be a Joel. Made them do stand by bed after that just to screw them a bit, and I may not just stop there. Maybe I'll continue for the next few weeks to come...

The CNY celebration was ...ok. Watched "Poker King", which had rather cool card games but typical storyline, and wanted to use my iPod Touch to go FB but it ran out of battery. So I had to watch it through. And after that was dinner, which I skipped because didn't feel like eating. Glad that the trainees could enjoy this friday off too! They definitely deserve it.

I don't know how I feel right now, except that I've got butterflies in my stomach.

Felt like puking on the bus ride home, think it's because I kept surfing the internet, hence putting a strain in my eyes.haha

Argh camera battery seems to have problem charging. Shall remedy it tomorrow. Speaking of remedy, I'm kind of sick of Little Boots' songs.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

Oh Snap!

Today I was at home all the way, getting movies and watching The Mentalist. I really enjoy that show because the way Patrick Jane solves cases is just jaw-dropping. If only it can be watched in my iPod then I'll watch the whole season in camp! And movies to watch: Up, Forgetting Sarah Marshall, Silent Hill, Julie & Julia. I saw the first 10 minutes of the movie "Up" and I'm already in love with the movie. Such a fine way of telling the old man's life without even the need to speak. Simply magnificent.

Bought my camera at Parkway today, due to family sponsor! Ok I'll start from the top. First I had to go M1 to pay for this month's bill for my MiFi. Cost $41 mainly because it's for 1 month plus. Imagine I got to do this every month...so troublesome! Or I'm just lazy. So after that I headed down to the barber to make my hair NS-approved...or kind of. Kept my fringe, which I think is still at an acceptable length.

Back to the camera. I've already decided to get myself a Sony one, because the Olympus one was not exactly, in my terms, "user-friendly". Taking photos required me to keep my hands as stiff as those of a statue, and the image filters were like a scam to me(because I never figured out how to use them). I bought my new one at around $320, with discount and a further discount since I'm paying by NETS. Looks sweet, similar to my old one, only nicer. And the pouch is an easier one to carry around, so Hooray!!! Can start snapping shots again this Saturday! Miss taking photos.haha

I'm pretty sure there's recall this Saturday. Fpos....

Shall expand my guitar playlist this weekend with Jet, Muse, Selena Gomez and Orianthi!

They may call me a fool,

For trying for someone like you.

I may fail,

But my heart shall prevail.

The time spent not talking to you,

Is spent thinking about you.

Life may be beautiful,

But love makes it even more so.

I know you've suffered

But I don't want you to hide

The (Not-So) Big Bang Theory

Well, finally got The Big Bang Theory from CR's com, which is courtesy of Jeff, which is courtesy of XX. And after reading Jeff's blog and FB status about how grand it would be, making HIMYM like pre-school stuff, I went to watch the first episode. Ok the jokes are quite funny, but I barely laughed. The jokes are probably not my type I guess, because when I watch HIMYM again and again it never fails to tickle my funny bone.haha So I found the Big bang Theory a bit of a disappointment because of the expections I had for it. I did like the part of one episode where Rajesh and the rest were playing Rock Band and he spots Penny. Classic!

Selena Gomez's music videos are really good! And Orianthi's According To You is getting addictive to the band! Told ya all that it was a good song!

Now about my day. This morning woke up with a blanket on me, which gave me a shock, and my left knee hurt a lot from the way I slept on the sofa. The pain stayed for quite a while and I had to massage it away. Ok I now know that kenny's cousin's name is Marcus, and he's rather "lovely". Gawd. So we skipped breakfast and went CR's place to drop our jamming equipment before heading to Parkway Parade mac's for lunch. It was Jokhie, kenny, Marcus and I, and thank God for jokhie because if he weren't there I'd have to entertain Marcus. And if I did, my fuse would blow and it would get ugly.

So after a rather full meal (thought the Double Cheeseburger didn't taste properly cooked), we headed to Swee Lee at Katong shopping centre, only to find it closed for CNY. And the walk back to CR's place was difficult because we were so sleepy and full. Kenny and I snoozed while Benjamin (the potential addition to the band), went to play around with his guitar. Ok I'll talk about him. Do I want him in the band? No. Not right now. I haven't seen him play, and I'm not keen of another guitarist. I'm still not convinced we need (or actually want) him in the band yet. As for his female vocals friend... we'll see how. We need vocals! Ours are always not around!

Tried to L4D online with Kenny just now, but my internet is F-ed up ttm. Pisses me off that I have to use this cheapo thing just to save money. But what's the point if it's useless?

Shall start saving for camera, and shall buy one at the upcoming IT fair! Anyone want to tag along with me?haha Miss having a camera...this time I'll get Sony or some other brand. I'm not so keen of Olympus after using my camera for some time...

Gonna watch Forgetting Sarah Marshall, since BBT is kind of uninteresting to me at the moment. I'll give it another shot tomorrow.

"To die by your side is such a heavenly way to die."

WakingUp

I think I slept for 4 hours. And my internal alram kind of made me wake up and now I can't sleep. Who needs coffee?haha

Last night mostly got to talk crap with Kenny, CR and Samu, plus Kenny's cousin who I still ain't sure of his name. Also, was counting the number of music videos I downloaded yesterday afternoon and I realised that it was 60 over! Was expecting around 30+... and now my throat is so dry from the air-con that I wonder if I'll go to the movies tonight.

Hmmm not sure what I'll be doing from now till time to go CR's place. Feel like skipping breakfast. Anyway we're suppose to meet CR's friend who is said to be interested in joining our band. he backed out at the last minute the last jamming session, and that doesn't give me a good first impression.haha


I love how she makes me feel.
Like anything's possible.
Like, I don't know...like life is worth it.

Not Sleeping!

Today was, routine, like every CNY. Well, one fun thing was eating lunch at a coffee shop nearby with my cousins. Ate char siew rice and hokkien mee, and taught my primary 5 cousin about chio bu.haha

Went to my other cousin's place, to see people gambling like crazy. Played a bit of Wii but didn't find it interesting. Maybe I'm just not that into games any more...

Ah yes, the big dinner where the big, big family all gather. Had fun with Charis, who tried to roll the toilet paper under 2 seconds. Hilarious. And one of them brought a girlfriend. Glad to have my failure rubbed in my face. Not like he did it intentionally, I'm kinda blaming fate instead.

And those pictures doesn't mean I'm a pervert.LOL

God I can't stand my grandmother!!!

Going to Kenny's house, and bringing along my guitar and other jamming stuff. Don't us me why I'm going, because I don't really know either. Think CNY is just too damn boring that I need to get out.

Hey dad, I know I tend to cross the line, but I appreciate that you are understanding. I know I should say this, but I just can't bring myself to.

Didn't hear from her for quite a while...maybe she just doesn't want to chat with me any more. Maybe it's because of the V-day thing...

No, not really...

iWant Rock Band on iPod!

Tried to get the Rock Band application for my iPod Touch, but it's not available in the Singapore iTunes store yet. Bummer.

Downloaded the soundtrack for (500) Days of Summer, and I don't regret it! It's not my usual kind of music like Lady GaGa or Muse, but I'm still hooked on to it.haha

I made this pic out of screenshots I took:

Today more visiting! But I'm really lazy to do so. And tonight there's the really big family dinner at some restaurant. At least I get to meet Charis! look for updates with her "situation" LOL At least there's one cousin I can really chat with.haha But dinner. Not keen of wishing so many "happy new year!"...

Oh and I forgot to mention that I ate Domino's Pizza for dinner yesterday! It was good pizza! Beats the rest hands down! And it's cut up like the ones at Timbre; in square pieces. Think I ate a whole pizza last night :S

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want a bad, your bad romance

(500) Days of Summer

Probably the best movie I've ever seen.

Perhaps that will be the story of my life...

This movie is simply amazing. The cast, the setting, the storyline... just WOW.

PAUL:You know what they say...there's plenty other fish in the sea.

TOM:No.
PAUL:Sure they do. They say that.
TOM: Well they're wrong. It's not true.I've fished in that sea. I've jumped in and swam in that sea! I'm fucking Aquaman!

The movie was able to balance the drama and the comedy in it perfectly, and the ending is something different yet fit to be called an ending. Sure it's not the fairy-tale kind of ending, but I could learn a thing or two from this movie. Seriously. Also, Us by Regina Spektor is an addictive song!!! Love it ttm!

I know I watched it super-late, but if you haven't, you're missing out. Especially for guys who wants romance in life like me.haha

TOM:Ok!My name's Tom.

GIRL:Nice to meet you...I'm Autumn.

Today was kinda usual CNY routine, though I'm kinda bored of it already. Played Texas hold 'em again today! Luck was as bad as yesterday... fortunately not playing with cash.

Want to just sleep all the way...

Valentine's Day. Spent alone again. Don't like it one bit =(

He is broken.

More than broken, he is alone.

Poker Face

Well, today was quite ok. Went to jam at CR's place, had a big lunch at KFC, the time spent with laughter and crap. We kind souls waited for Sihua to accompany her with her shopping, and she seems to be strongly against my brown eyes.LOL maybe I'll wear those contacts that makes your pupils black just to ease her soul.haha

Dinner with my mom's side. Fun as usual! The highlight of the day was at the fitness corner of my cousin's condo. It was directly below the MRT track, and he waited till a train was coming and threw a rock up. It hit the front of the train and bounced off. We laughed like mad after that. Probably gave the driver a shock.haha

Taught my cousins how to play Texas poker, even the primary 5 kiddo. We had a fun time playing, using Scrabble pieces as chips. Maybe I'll invest in chips.haha Food was great, atmosphere was great, the games were great!

Sometimes, I wonder why I'm in this situation. It's my heart against the world. I've gotta choose between listening to my friends and my heart. Lost...

Anyway, tomorrow is CNY! Happy CNY and a properous new year ahead! This goes out to the CR gang, my fellow army frens (including trainees), my cousins, those closer to me than they know and all other friends not in any of the mentioned groups!haha 2010 shall be a year of success and more ang bao!!!LOL but watch how much ba kwa you all eat!

OMG the pics by joshua is so hilarious! Love your camera man!

Laughter is the best medicine.

Can I please laugh my troubles away?

Running On Back-up Power

Had dinner at Swensons with CR and Jeff!!!...and then went home. The End.

Just kidding. I mean, that really sums up tonight but I'll be kind and mention the details. Went there sleepy, and wanted to just snooze on CR's bed while they play computer. But I missed my guitar so badly I just had to jam a bit.haha

On the way to Parkway we saw this couple. The gal had legs of nice length, but they were a wee bit too skinny. Apart from that, I think she looked not bad. Dinner at Swensons was... in one word, filling. I think we walked out in a different manner. I felt like I was actually wobbling.haha

On the way back this girl came out of one of those shops, and all 3 of us kinda looked at her. Only the other two found her cute. I told them, "Did you see her face closely?"

Fell asleep on CR's bed, finally, while Jeff played computer and CR tried to get players for L4D2. Seriously lan is waste of time. haha anyway CR failed to get the lan thing going so I got a ride home from Jeff's dad. I was quiet the whole time because I was a bit dazed, like part of me haven't woken up. The music in the car was booming in my ears, and the beat kept swarming my mind. That, my friends, was me running on back-up power. Power saving mode. Whatever you wanna call it.haha

you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

Heaven In Her Arms

New chapter.

I surrender to you
Forgive me for the sadness
And the bringing of you down
I just needed a lover and I needed a friend
And there you were
Running from forever like all the rest
Three simple words bled me dry
Three simple words bled us dry
I love you

Kicking Balls

Well, managed to reach ECP on time. Headed down to mac and saw almost all the trainees there! Speechless! We headed down to the meeting point at 7.30, and started the 3km run asap. I didn't run because of the blister on my toe, and ended up playing Big 2 with the trainees and Kelvin. Really damn unlucky, 'cause I didn't get a single 2 or a 5-card combo during the entire game. Damn...

Went to soccer cage after that, and was kinda dragged in to play. Now people think I intentionally skipped the run -.- Soccer was quite fun, despite me having absolutely zero soccer skills. My team reached the semi-finals :D Kinda feel like playing again.

Mac was given to us for lunch, but I ate the orange that battery commander gave us and gave most of my mac away. And Ying Hao kept "hinting" to BC that he wanted to go to platoon 1, it was hilarious. I wish you'd go there too man.haha

How I envy guys with girlfriends taking up their time. Sure maybe because I'm not in a relationship so I don't know what it is like, but I'd really love to give it a try. Maybe I want it.

Gotta swim soon!!! I want get a tan! My skin's starting to look pale :(

Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually being too friendly with the trainees, which is what my sergeant friends say. Ok, maybe I'm treating the trainees like friends, but I make sure I draw a line somewhere. If they cross the line, I'll fuck them real bad, but they have not done anything to make me do so. Thing is, I'd ,rather be friendly and reasonable rather than treating them like men. Our rank is higher because we can take more responsibilities and have better privileges, yet their rank does not mean we should treat them like some low-life. We're all humans, after all. Respect through fear never lasts.

Bought new speakers for my computer! The temporary one was pathetic, had to change it!

Went to Bedok barber, but was closed. Walked so much for it. Oh well, Walking is good!LOL

V-day is just around the corner, and yet again another defeat for me.

My heart's in a million pieces.

Only my determination keeps it intact.

Miss my bass guitar... :(

You're all I need,

Your love's a drug

PS. how come the losers can get gals faster than me? It's not fucking fair at all.

iConnected!

I've finally connected to de net with my MiFi using my iPod Touch! But I shall not celebrate too soon. Must test it out a bit more.

Got a blister on my foot. Can't run the 3km run tmr! Blessing in disguise LOL

Wish I could just meet you, because we don't have forever.

Wish I could celebrate V-day one year...

Wish I don't have to be at ECP by 7.30am tmr. What are they thinking?! Seriously!

Anyway, nothing to do tmr. Just rot ttm. And no guitar, which does not help my situation even one bit.haha

Does my computer have a virus??! Keep having weird people adding me on MSN...

I sometimes wonder how some friends are actually my friends when they tend to piss me off, but then I realized that because they make me smile, they make me happy, that's why they are called friends.

If you need me to jump into a river,

I'd do it for you.

If you ask me to carry you halfway across the country,

I'd do it for you.

If you ask me to give you a slap,

I'd think twice before I do.

But no matter what,

I do everything for you.

We climb the mountains, walk the deserts,
For our love.

Need Of A Fan

This week will be a short one, and it couldn't come at a better time. I'm so tired and stressed out enough, and not enough sleep. And think I'm falling sick. But that's actually a good thing because I want to be excused from the 3km run this Friday.haha

And I really got to buy a fan tonight! If I wait any further I'll melt in my sleep.

Shall go blading this Friday along with my friends, who will cycle or blade, up to them.haha But blading is nicer to me, and I'm quite tired of cycling.haha

I just came up with this theory while drinking nice cold water while under the hot sun. Was running and went to gym. Glad that I worked up some sweat!haha Anyway back to the theory: Wives are like water. You get sick of them after experiencing them so often everyday, that you want to try other stuff. But when you need them the most, they are simply the best, no matter how bland or boring you thought of them before. So when people say "Water is precious", say "Amen!" haha

Ok during night's out I was hunting for a fan, and while waiting for a friend to get his blueberry waffle I saw this old, bald man walk past. Sure he looked OK...except that he was wearing a red dress and had boobs. At least there was the shape there. Who knows what he stuffed inside. I think he was wearing a bit of make-up too, but I was too stunned to remember.

I didn't realized fans were so expensive! Just wanted to buy a small fan, but the prices ranged from $35 to $65! Wow. So I bought a cheap one, which means days of me sweating in my sleep is over. haha

Book out tonight! Long weekend this week! 5 days! YES!

Why must CNY be on same day as V-day?!! I've got plans y'know... that's if she agrees.haha

I've got you in my mind, you've got me out of yours

Monday Bluez...

have I used this title for a blog post before? Oh well.haha

The status personnel among my trainees is ever inter-changing. Trying to keep them from getting OOC because life would really be better for them after they pass out. And I think they're a great batch, unlike those who think they're scum...

So this morning started like every other morning, except I was really, really tired, and had a tough time getting myself out of bed. Thank god I wasn't on COS duty this morning. And though it was just Kishan and I, the day went smoothly. The trainees are fun to chat with, and we laughed all the way during our chat from spotting girls while cycling all the way to what is considered losing virginity for a guy. I swear, we all laughed till our stomachs cramped.

Spent the afternoon contacting M1 and Apple to figure out why my iPod Touch cannot connect to my MiFi. Got to bring it to M1 and solve this issue.haha

I hate people who like to slack and keep taking off and disappear from our duties as sergeants to take the trainees. Sure we're friends, but I wouldn't actually put you very high on my list any more. Respect is down there. Go work your way up again.

Need to buy a fan for my bunk soon! So stuffy!

Better shave my sideburns before I get caught!haha

Hey CR gang, blading/cycling this Friday afternoon? Plus dinner at Lagoon Hawker Centre after that?haha

Catch me by surprise

I wonder...

Who's actually the victim here?

Gone...

Well, today when I went to Parkway with CR and jeff to eat and shop, I left my camera somewhere. By the time I realised its absence and hurried back to find it, it was gone. So I left my contact with all the places I visited, in case a kind soul returned the camera. But then thinking of those typical locals, I don't have very high hopes... but a painful lesson learnt, and one huge chunk of money gone just like that. Feels like one small part of me has disappeared, and I'm just so frustrated with myself for being so careless.

Jamming wasn't as happening as usual, partly because I didn't feel like playing after losing my camera. And we kept playing Demi Lovato's Get Back, so I left the room to play CR's computer. And I found out how hard Muse's Time Is Running Out and Jet's Are You Gonna Be My Girl? bass is. Well, if I manage to pull it off, then I know I've progressed far! =)

Booking in tonight, and I don't plan to bring my PSP in this week. Dread Friday's battery outing, because it's a 3km run and soccer, Neither which I'm keen of.haha Gotta gym more this week if possible!

If you all have noticed, I've deleted quite a number of people in FB from my friends list. That's because I don't know quite a few of them, and having them there just for numbers is plain foolish. So I decided to remove them, because I'm just trying to be a better person as a whole =D

I'm not some jerk who wants to get into your bed,

I'm just a guy who wants to get into your heart.

I want to touch your heart,

Not tear it apart.

If only I could show you my soul,

No secrets, No lies.

Maybe then will you see,

The true me.

This is my final shot.

"Do bubbles mean pearls?"

Ok the day officially started when I got onto the cab to Parkway Parade. Anything before that was routine in my life, so there isn't a need to go into it.

Parkway Parade. I never really liked going there, or the whole Marine Parade as a whole. To take a bus, I would need to walk to a bus stop not quite near my house, and wait for one particular bus number that can take up to 30 mins to come. So naturally I'd choose to cab. Was my lucky break because an available cab appeared quite fast. When I told the guy that I wanted to go Parkway, he replied that Parkway are was always damn crowded. Then he went on about things like women drivers, the hot sun and Saturday traffic jams. I wondered why he was so chatty to me. I didn't really listen to him, but tried to seem interested by dropping some "True! True!" and chuckles as he spoke.

Finally reached Parkway at 12.58pm, meaning I wasn't late. Close call. Some TKGS girls were collecting donations and I gave $1, but I turned down the sticker. And I regretted the decision after realising the whole area was flooded with them. Dressing so well and turning down all those poor girls makes me seem stingy. My cousin used me as a reason to avoid donating. "Oh he donated already." LOL

So met my cousin to eat at Ichiban Boshi, where I ate Chicken Katsu Koji and several other stuff that my cousin made me try.haha Took us so long to finally decide on that place, but the food was awesome so no regrets! But I have to admit that the chicken smelled and tasted like Chicken McNuggets to me. And my cousin used some of the green tea on a tissue to clean her feet O_O

Me: So what shall we eat?

Cuz: Eh you decide leh.

Me: Thought you said you have something in mind!

Cuz: Actually I don't.(Laughs)

Me: Ok...how about Toby's?

Cuz: Huh. Don't want. I don't want ang moh food.

Me: Hmmm then?

Cuz: How about there?(Points at Ichiban Boshi and some chinese restaurant beside it)

Me: Ok, which one?

Cuz: Eh you decide leh.

LOL took us a while to decide, and we were asking about our budgets since we both tried to draw money but couldn't be bothered to queue up. Had a good time chatting with her, and she was furious when I told her about it-which-I-shall-not-mention-any-more. "Are you crazy? If you told me beforehand I would've scolded you!"

Went Toby's for dessert, and the truffle cake was nice.haha And my cousin decided to go do her hair at Toni&Guy at katong area, so I walked her there since I had 3 hours to kill before meeting my friends for dinner. $80 a haircut. "You guys have it so easy. Just $10 haircuts!", my cousin exclaimed as we headed there.

So I rotted at Borders for 3 hours reading books, and I couldn't find Jason Hahn's Asking For Trouble. Oh well, maybe next time. His stories are just awesome, makes you want to read more.haha

At 5.50pm started heading towards sihua's place, but had to get her bubble tea 1st. Fortunately the lady serving was easier, except when she asked, "Do you want bubbles?" I said yes, but I wasn't too sure bubbles were pearls. Anyway I walked to her place, finding my way based on memory. Deren was already there by the time I reached, and we had to wait for "princess" to come down.

Cabbed to Clarke Quay, and had to walk all the way to Timbre. Fortunately I manage to lead us the right way, and sihua kept complaining about her aching legs.LOL We were earlier than Jeff, which caused sihua to swear under her breath.haha

What can I say about dinner? The food was great, the drinks were great(the apple juice was rather refreshing), and the band was quite ok from where we were. Jeff and Nic wrote a dedication for sihua which she did not hear(along with half of us) when the band read out her name. We took some photos by the Singapore River before deciding to go to sihua's roof to drink. So we went to the nearest 7-Eleven to grab some juices to mix with the vodka. We walked past some Indian club that I saw often when I went to club, and told my friend, "First time I'm not seeing police vans outside this place."

At sihua's place we drank a bit (I think I drank the most vodka) and played Truth Or Dare. Problem was, a few of us had one game at Timbre, so we kinda knew the juiciest secrets.haha the Dare was really really gay, and nic suffered(or enjoyed) the most. CR gave the most gay ideas. And I was already having a splitting headache at the starting of the games. We left at around 3am, which I was quite glad because I needed to sleep off the headache.haha

Well, today is jamming! can't wait!

And how I wish I'd get a second chance, just to meet you.

Somehow, I can't comprehend.

Never Give Up

Well, started the day with gym!and as usual the gym was packed with old people, but there were two teenage gals there. Not that they were good-looking or anything. And the usual macho guy was there. I noticed his thighs today and they are really not human! It's as thick, maybe thicker, than my head!!! Is he planning to stay single all the way? So I did my usual routine at the gym, training all my muscles, which have kinda weakened from the lack of exercise the past few weeks.

I always wondered why they put mirrors in gyms, and I realised it serves as a motivation. Imagine lifting some weights in front of the mirror, and your brain screams for you to just give up. But you look in the mirror, see your muscles straining with effort, and you're determined to finish the set and look good.haha

After gym I went to the Bedok stadium which was just outside the gym. Listening to my iPod, I felt like I could run 10km. How bad can it be? I thought. So I ran. And died faster than you can blink. I've got to definitely start running more often(though it seemed easier when running around camp).

rest of the day was rather uneventful, except for it-which-I-shall-not-mention-any-more and my guitar practice. I was so affected that I had problem playing properly today. My timings were off, and my fingers fumbled while strumming. At least I figured Demi Lovato's Get Back tabs. Ready to jam this Sunday!haha

My mom helped me to buy this month's Men's Health, and she was nagging about how "R-rated" the articles were(she was referring to those on sex tips and other sex stuff). I told her that I'm not a kid any more, or I would be reading Boys' Health or something. Anyway she said she'd rip out those pages to discard, to which I replied, "If you do that, half the value would've gone down the drain."

Tmr is lunch with cousin and dinner at Timbre with my friends!oh yeah =)

Gotta cut my hair. I totally do not look like I'm serving NS. I'll still keep my fringe though. And I didn't wax my hair the entire week(except for night's out).

I realised no matter how many new friends I make, none of them can be as close as the CR gang.

As for it-which-I-shall-not-mention-any-more, I guess I dug my own grave unknowingly. And considering this was the first time I got the courage to chat up with some gal, it was such a failure on my part. But Life's not complete without love, so I'll keep trying. Never give up, because real men don't give up =)

Problem is, I'll never stop blaming myself.

I'll never give up on you. Never.

Is There Any Lower?

I'm lost at where I went wrong.

I'm hurt at the words I see.

I'm sorry that I didn't play my cards better.

I'm ashamed to hide the fact from my friends all because of my own reasons.

I'm angry that I screw it all for myself.

I'm frustrated I cannot simply convey feelings to other people easily.

I'm tired from getting up after taking so many blows in life.

I'm at the end of my perseverance and optimism.

I'm getting sick of all the failures in love.

I'm on the verge of giving up.

Fatal Misunderstandings

No wonder there was no reply. I dug my own grave just because I wanted to save my face in front of my frens, and now I'm just another idiot in her eyes.

Look guys, I actually did went to wait for her that night. I just didn't tell you guys because I knew you'd all think I'm just the biggest sucker in the world for going for a girl who i probably would never find(which you were all right, so go ahead and laugh). And for that I'm sorry. But I thought otherwise. I knew she wasn't the kind to pull some joke on me like that. I had hope that I would be able to find her in the crowd, so I rushed all the way and reached there at 9pm thinking I was late. Turned out I was early, and Butter was not even open yet. So I waited. When it opened, I paid admission ASAP and then waited at the staircase outside for her. I waited for 2 and a half hours until 11.30pm, hoping to spot her. But by then almost everyone has gone in, and there seemed to be nobody else. So I went into Fash one last time before walking back to raffles city. Ate my dinner (which I totally skipped to rush to butter factory) and went home to wonder where I went wrong in life.

Those words just keep coming back in my head...

Just hope she reads this post...

If you still hate me, I don't blame you. I feel the same way to myself right now.

Do you believe in second chances?

I did so much just to meet you,

yet all it took was one lie to send it all crumbling down.

The most ironic part?

I wasn't lying to you.

Bullets4MyValentine

This week was a bummer. It was totally tiring, with me doing all the work and looking after the trainees. Really relieved when I could book out today. The long weekend could help me relax.haha Hope the trainess won't feel so down about their life now, and endure to the end. There's just so much I could possibly do to make life less depressing for them right now, and my fellow specialists aren't really helping. "They are just scum." heh, it's the kettle calling the pot black if you ask me.

Dammit my iPod touch can't connect to the M1 hotspot. Really irritated right now. Possibly due to my lack of sleep plus the exhaustion from today's activities.

Maybe I'm just gonna gym and practise my bass guitar tmr.haha

Valentine's so near yet I'm alone. Is there somebody who still believes in love?

Je t'adore, Je t'adore
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose