Love & Hate,Past & Present

haha today i dug out this old book from primary school,where my frens would write some stuff down,like their favorite stuff,their closest frens(ranked Gold,Silver,Bronze.lol) and a small msg to me.haha how young and simple-minded we were when we were so young...and de 1st person to write inside(apart from me) was de 1st crush i had,and she called me her best friend...even now as i read it a familiar feeling of glee is felt.puppy love?God knows.and i saw de input by my best fren in primary school,and i recall how much we've helped each other,how much i failed as a good fren.i was never a good fren,until today.i always screw up at least once with every fren i have,even though i don realize it until it's too late.kinda makes me hate myself even more...I'm like the perfect imperfection of a person...

so today kinda spent time trying to find my old school frens on FB to add them...many couldn't be found.haha oh well...

i changed my FB name.I'm not gonna put my actual name there anymore becos i think I'm kinda "weird" enough.all i ever wanted was to be...i dunno...normal?average?haha so next time i'll use Jason,but de cr gang can stick to my actual name.haha 6 years of friendship and counting is ok.haha

i keep thinking of that day at the modeling agency,when i didn't have the bloody balls to just start a conversation with you.the signs were clear,but i was too damn ball-less to do anything.until today i still regret it,wishing i could turn back time.i look at girls every time I'm out,just to hopefully see your face in the passing crowds.another reason why i hate myself...

ordered mac today!it was raining,so i was lazy to go out for lunch.i used the online ordering system,and it's really efficient!technology is really amazing.haha and it said that my food would arrive in 1 hour's time,and i kinda understand,especially with such harsh weather.but the food came in...15 mins?! O.O that's fast food delivery for you.haha so there i was,sitting in front of my com enjoying the satisfying meal and watching x-men origins:wolverine.haha

so fast book in tmr...sianz...haha gotta start training.start to get my physique right.as sihua say,must eh...dunno wat your calibre!!!...watever that meant...haha(i interpret it as to make yourself more appealing to uni gals after NS XD)

playing ridge racer 2 on psp.lazy to play monster hunter unite.haha de drifting is simply "mind-blasting" haha

I can't seem to use italic again,so i can't put de italic msg i usually do in my posts.so i'll make do with standard font for this post...lol

I want to like what I see in the mirror...

Pondering...
Sometimes I wonder how much I've changed,
and whether is it for the better or for worse.
But whatever the answers are,
I know it's never enough.

Went to lan and watch G.I. joe with part of de cr gang today.haha lan was fun,with us owning de opponents.and jurassic park in warcraft was hilarious.now de game seems so much more simple.had de new spicy chicken burger at BK,bloody rip-off.ONLY FOR PPL WITH TEENY WEENY STOMACH!but de fries helped to make up for that small burger.haha G.I. Joe was cool,considering i knew nuts about it.i've haerd of it,but never had interest in it.

finally de blog looks ok!haha must be internet connection problem.haha

and i saw youtube videos of ppl playing bass guitar for 2 songs by Muse,"Starlight" and "Hysteria".i'm gonna learn to play them proper, then i shall have finally gotten the speed and technique right.

wanna buy some weights next month.still thinking about it...

since i can upload pics might as well write wat i wanted to post the past week.first is new wolverine and iron man anime!i saw de youtube trailers,and below are 2 pics.

de iron man looks plain awesome,but wolverine looks like ultimate crap.he's so skinny and look like from the wrong anime.just plain wrong man...

and maid-sama is so funny!it's really a nice romance/comedy manga,and seeing usui disturbing misaki is just hilarious!




I don't look at girls for fun,
I do it to search for you.

damn com still giving me problems on blogspot and facebook and twitter...wth seriously.

played dota with cousin yest,and his hero was damn gay.we played fun mode.haha

if people don't wanna talk to you,STOP FUCKING BOTHERING THEM.wat're you trying to do,remind me of your existence?!

-ADWS->we're like the commandos of the air force-

Singapore gals->#1 in the world

phew today was getting spammed with talks.haha sat there whole day except during lunch and breaks.haha lunch was western!which was quite nice,though de veg tasted weird...de people serving de food are really generous and polite,which is way better than de BMTC ppl.and de cookhouse lady wasn't fierce today either,and her "dog",or "bitch" would better define his character,wasn't there today.haha.tmr will have more lectures half de day then go to air force museum!haha must enjoy this week's good life!!!


stupid com got some problem...my blog and twitter and facebook all seem to have problems...may be de internet speed,or...i dunno.guess everything is all obsolete junk alr.

wow.this whole week get to book out in de evening!!!!shiok!then can download x-men origins:wolverine.haha

went to new camp,but mom dropped me off at wrong place.she dropped me at paya lebar air base,and i had to walk to air force school.haha.today was SUPER slack.too slack in fact.haha we did sizing for our new no. 3,and fill in our particulars.after that slack all de way until got one lecture at around 3 plus,which after ended i got to book out!:)


now shall read some manga!!!and must sleep early too.haha

Ah!!!1 week block leave over alr!!!and i don feel like i did much this whole week...-_-

air force school.wonder how it will be...army has been quite smooth sailing so far...wonder if it'll continue.haha

gonna sims!not sure to play sims 2 or sims 3 later.haha.maybe i'll play l4d too...

Monday at the disco club
Tuesday at the disco club
Wednesday at the disco club
Thursday at the disco club
Friday at the disco club
Saturday at the disco club
Sunday at the disco club
Every day's the disco club
See us at the disco club
See you at the disco club




We're one mistake from being together
Let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight

Yawnz...

Took this from Kaichō wa Maid-sama! damn funny.Misaki Ayuzawa is trying to act like some younger sis to her "customer",Takumi Usui,in order to show her manager she can put up de act.But as usual Usui isn't making things easy for her XD

yesterday had dinner and movie with de gang.before that jeff and i went to crash smu,which was no biggie.but i laernt that de hot gals go for non-sports cca,so i'll keep dat in mind.haha we treid to find jeff a beanie but couldn't find any so we lepak at starbucks untl time for dinner.meeting up wif de gang was quite cool becos we didn't meet for quite a while,especially with claire and lisa!haha.de food was ok,though i've had better.de mashed potato tasted weird to me,and the coleslaw...wasn't from this planet.de chicken was quite ok,but de price was murder.haha didn't want to watch movie becos didn't wan to draw anymore money...but i still had to draw in de end for de snacks(i can NEVER watch movie w/o sth to munch or drink).thanks you guys for chipping in for my movie tix!though it makes me feel damn bad...haha but now i've got to go to "super savers" mode and spend very little by little.de movie,The proposal,was way better than expected.but sandra bullock is soooo old!or at least,her age is showing.and the grandma is such a joker.haha recommend everyone to watch it!haha

kenny mentioned sims 3,now feel like playing.haha.maybe play a bit of dota too.haha i just realized i've not L4D for so long!!!man i should start practising again.haha


Do you remember
we said we'd run
away together
holding on to one another

was watching 17 Again last night.haha really cool movie.today gonna practise my guitar abit, then meet jeff to crash SMU!since we are SMU students of btach 2011,so we should go see how's school life there.haha.den dinner after that,and i haerd they wanna watch movie,which i'll pass becos i don wanna spend more than $30 today.haha


"I thought I wanted a second chance in life,
but now i know I want a second chance with you."
~Mike O'Donnell

Loneliness is the only company I have...

wow No bra just went through some twists in de story and its getting kinda screwed(just de fact that de guy is playing around with 2 gals.i hate two-timing...) but i wish de translations come out soon!now at chapter 21,which i've alr reached,and i think de series end at 30+.which is rather sad.i'll never forget yuki nomura...

i don understand to-LOVE-ru.de guy goes after a classmate rather than that alien gal.is he bloody blind?!

sigh...

i'm so sick of spending money...and de week is almost over!!!didn't even get to do wat i wanted in my to-do-list(found in previous blog).today another monotonous day at home...

come to think of it i'm rather lucky with my NS life so far.i wonder if God was watching over me,or maybe just luck.i dunno wat to think these days...i've not gone to church since NS,and just thinking of going kinda makes me uneasy or sth...sth is just not de same anymore,since...

bmtc was smooth sailing for me,considering i got de slackest platoon.only thing was dat my platoon was on 5th floor...haha.bslc i got even luckier.my platoon was 2nd floor,and we were so near de exit and cookhouse!unlike other coys like Foxtrot and Golf(Sorry jeff haha).and even though my platoon got de scariest PWO,he was busy during field camp and grandslam so my paltoon was spared!i didn't even dig 1 complete shellscrap and got away with it!(actually most of my section got away with it) and i tot gg aslc was de best place to be posted to becos,even though got more crap,but after that can go tekong and slack.i've never considered gg to air force or watever slack stuff,becos i didn't know.and on de day of posting,i was just begging "No ASL,No ASL,No ASL"(ASL-Armor Scout leader).they treat u like POWs there as training.wth man.and thank God i went to air force school instead!i was soooo relieved.haha


and i think it was pure luck that i got into SMU Accountancy.but i'll tell that story another time.haha...but thinking about it why am i so lucky in life?could it really be God watching over me?Or am i being paranoid?and if it IS God's doing,why me?I've never been a good christian aka hardcore(in my dictionary).i don deserve these good things in life.why why why?


waitasec,why am i asking such stuff?!must be all those Maltese...damn.



I'm just another lost soul,facing the harsh outside alone...

Sometimes i know what i need to change in life,
but easier said than done.

Megazord and Dragonzord

I was looking through my closet,and saw all my super old toys which was how many yrs ago.haha i've decided to display them in future when i get my own house,becos they're really valuable and bring back memories.but now i've decided to post a few items of my old collection.haha rmb de old times...

The most famous was probably de Mighty Morphin' Power Rangers(MMPR).they were like,the best in all power rangers series.and it's only getting worse today...so anyway,i'll start off showing de 2 zords i have.wonder how much they're worth now...

!st up,the megazord!how many of you rmb the show,where the megazord will summon its sword from the sky,which would crash onto earth in an upright position for d megazord to pick up?or how de zords come out?i recall de t-rex came from a crack in de ground...and here are pics of de packaging for de toy!



ok enuf about de exterior now for de interior!de individual zords and their combined!de toy seems less "solid" than i rmb...haha



wow de pics not very HIGH QUALITY,so de toy looks like in good condition XD
so there's one of my oldest toys around.haha now to de dragonzord,which actually included de large green ranger figure along with it.i've got de whole set of large power rangers,but i'll leave that for another post!haha



See!See!Told ya he was in there!



"Sorry for de distance...but i think dragonzord just farted..."




ok...sth wrong wif blogger.suddenly can't upload de rest.haha maybe it's my frigging internet.anyway i'm kinda exhausted from uploading all de pics,so i'll stop ehre for now!haha i MAY add de rest another time.

ok blogger is screwed again.why me?!!!!

got back harry potter book.kinda.my rfen had 2,but could onli find his copy.so i had no choice but to take dat one...haha and my rock climbing shoes were not behind de rock wall nick.so where oh where can they be?

went to download some bass tabs of some songs today,gonna practise tmr.haha

omg why does No bra have to be so short,compared to bleach or fairy tail?!dread to reach de end of the manga becos i'd feel so sad...haha but there's still fairy tail with 100+ chapters more to go!

went to check de digiskin place cr mentioned,but guitars too big.they do mobile devices.haha so maybe i'll get those quality stickers and put on my guitar.maybe can be custom-made?some black flames would be cool...

bought a new phone for armmy.haha nokia 1202.very simplistic,which is quite cool.wat they used to say?"less is more"?haha and de texture of de phone is so awesome.haha


sick of spending money.so disgusted with myself for splurging.fucking hell...

Ultimate Fucked-up...

haha following 2 more manga,Kaichou wa Maid-sama! and to-LOVE-ru.wanted to follow bleach but still finding where de anime stopped the last time i saw it.haha

today may go cathay to check if can put designs on guitar.thinking either black or dark blue flames on it.haha will keep my options open.then gotta go tpjc in evening to get back harry potter book.haha

miss jamming with de band...dammit.



Set off all the fires
Set off your alarms
They can give us all they got
You're all I want

This manga is killing me...

wah...i read No Bra until heart pain.it's like romance/comedy,but got gender bender.and de so-called" gal" is so cute that she/he looks impossible to originally be a guy.

i wonder wat would happen if this occured to me,like one very old good guy fren becomes a gal... O_O whoa better not go there.haha.imagine maybe 2 guys,like jeff and kenny,or...wait i alr gave the only example i can think of.HAHA kidding guys don come after me.

blow the candles out
looks like a solo tonight
but i think ill be alright

Manga Mania!

blogger is normal!frigging happy!but still can't upload pics...



wow fairy tail is awesome!love de manga.guy looks like from one piece though...



and there's de other manga,no bra.this girl looks so cuuuute rite?but she's a bloody guy.damn those artists sure know how to play with us guys...why can't she or she be a she?!!!


so i'll be chionging manga for de next few days i guess.haha



Saying I love you, is not the words I want to hear from you

thanks sihua for de link to the manga website!haha wanted to read Fairy Tail!haha and while was there saw this manga called No bra...which had a kinda wierd storyline...dunno whether to hate it or love it.haha just hope it doesn't get TOO wrong...gonna chiong manga this whole block leave!haha

Typical Singaporeans

here i shall post the many practices i see in singapore by locals every day.i'm not sure if foreigners do such stuff in their own countries but oh well...

1)S'poreans like to compare who is worse off.you don see singaporeans saying "eh my phone better than yours sia, got 2.5 megapixel cam and mp3 features." becos singaporeans will say you hao lian(show off).but when a guy says "wah lau my heat rash damn bad..." you'll hear another guy reply, "crazy mine's worse!".or when someone says "wah my results si beh cmi,how to go uni.",someone will reply "no lor,my one lagi worse can!".thing is, we singaporeans always try to see that we are suffering the worst among our peers,for some reason we'll never know...

2)singaporeans only use doors that are being used.i was at the bank today to deposit some cash, and the entrance to the bank consisted of 2 glass doors.i was walking out,with this old lady in front of me, and just so happen a lady was walking in using one door.the bloody old hag simply stood in front of the other door TO WAIT FOR THE LADY TO COME IN SO THAT SHE CAN USE THAT DOOR.i mean,wtf man.haha are singaporeans really that lazy until even opening a door is such a burden?

3)MRT has the worst singaporeans there.when you try to exit the train all those MOFOs will try to push their way in.Stoopid selfish ppl.and when they enter bus or train,they simply LUUUUURV to stand around entrance,as if the middle of train or end of bus got some skunk standing there.seriously,singaporeans should have more CME(civics and moral education) lessons in school.

4)TBC

Guitar Zeroes

Just felt like posting these pics in my new blog.haha

cr trying out my guitar

kangaroo kena spotlight isit,jeff?

...and there's me! XD

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http://spongejan.livejournal.com/

yest we celebrated edwin's bday!haha went astons for dinner,and double up chicken is plain awesome.de crispy chicken was heavenly!and boy did i have an appetite.maybe it was becos i didn't eat lunch.haha then we went to play lan,kinda becos cr and i wanted to lan instead of watching "orphan"(waste my money if half the time i spend keeping my eyes shut rite?).played bf2 and dota.dota was better than expected,normally i would be owned de entire game.haha

haha gonna check out de shop cr mentioned.wanna put some black flames on my guitar or sth XD



She'll shove those frost arrows up places you never thought possible.Male elves,you've been warned...

phew another solo practice over...can't wait for de band to gather and play tgt again.playing solo sux,especially if u are bassist!haha

stoopid com got virus,me thinks.wtf.

Moved!

haha i've decided to move to blogger,since it allows kinda more customisation than live journal.so now on i'll write here.