Friday, April 30, 2010

Big Step

Today was some big dinner thing in camp, something about 30 years of something. I went only when the food arrived because of my duty. And were those people vultures! By the time I went there was barely any left! And the singing and stuff were rather...boring. It gets better later.

I finally got bored of the programme that I went to the mess to chill. And poor Jing Yuan was trying to chat with some of the beer girls. Unfortunately he said something wrong that screwed it all up.

Then one of the girls stood at the bar counter beside me. And I thought to myself, maybe it's time to grow some balls and just try to chat. Took a lot of mental pushing but I finally did! And I learnt quite a bit. The girls were from various schools, from poly to uni! I tried asking the girl I chatted with to take a photo(there was a photographer snapping pictures) but she turned down. Thought I could keep it as a memoir to remember the day I plucked the courage to talk to a girl for the first time! But of course I respect her decision. And boy did I get some shocking surprises, which makes me more disgusted at the regulars there. Come on, they are young girls. Crowding around them and showing off your stuff is just...demeaning. Like they are THAT low.

And how people like to play rank. I was just chatting with the girl and this guy(i only know he's higher rank because I've seen him around) just came and chat up with her. Just cut in. Good manners you have sir.

Anyway, the girl was rather good with flicking the peanuts into her mouth! I tried too but failed terribly :S When she was leaving with her friends I wanted to ask for her contact. But I was scared. No balls, if you want to call it. Then I realise, maybe it's time to stop being so nervous.

I took a big step. Will you give me a shot? :)

Tomorrow will be busy! Gym, soccer, swim, dinner,lan. Dying to jam! Miss my bass guitar already!

Btw, I ate loads of ikan bilis. Hope my throat doesn't die on me.

Asmond is right. I've got to learn how to drink.



We only live once.
It's make it or break it.

Listen Up!


Sigh...

A Free Saturday!

I can see the light calling me out
I can see the search light spinning around

I can feel the home where i belong
I can feel the music turning me on


This Saturday no NDP rehearsal because of Labour Day!!! Yessss! And Monday is battery stand down! Means can claim the Labour Day off to use for another time :)))))))) But I got duty on Monday...so I'll claim 2 off days!

Today is a boring day. Shall slack slack slack!!!

I'M DYING TO SHOP!!!


The SNSD poster is damn boring.Hahahaha


Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

City Hall!

Today nights out went to City Hall withy friend! He showes me a movie poster shop where I bought a Transformers 2 poster. It looked awesome!! From there we headed to Suntec City.

On the way to Suntec, we were standing on an ascending escalator with a couple in front of us. The guy was circling his hand on her back, and then the hand went to her butt to circle a few times before moving back up. My friend and I laughed out loud. So...open with their love. Anyway went to Suntec where we saw more movie posters. And there was one of SNSD in their Genie MV outfits, so I bought it. Not because I like them, but because I wanted to see my bunkmates' reaction when they see SNSD covering my wall! Bought some $1 garlic spread to try and 6 donuts each from Donut Factory! On the way back my friend say there was this gal whose skirt was so short that he got an upskirt peek when she went up the escalator.LOL Great nights out! Though I doubt we'll go so far any time soon.

I want to go Topman and buy so many stuff! There's 2 jackets, 3 T-shirts, skinny jeans, belts, scarf and much more to buy! Once next month's pay come I'm gonna clean out that store inside out :D And there's Uniqlo, Dr Martens, Cotton On...



Play me down my lover,
Like we're undercover.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Unfair

Today some regular came to find fault with me when I did nothing wrong. He said he would contact my chief warrant officer and complain. I thought he was just scaring me, but he really did. My CWO called me and blew his top. He said he would complain to my course commanders. Fortunately I got to tell my side of the story.

I mean, seriously, why are there so many screwed up people in army. I'm not sure I feel safe having such people protecting my country. These people probably signed on because they have nowhere else to go, and because their job is so mundane, they get all PMS and cause trouble. And they cause trouble for NSFs like me. Total defence my ass.

Cousin going Taiwan this Saturday, cannot meet for lunch. Buy me something!hahaha

No Monday off, means short weekend. Or at least, it feels that way.



Tearing me apart from within.

No Monday Off :(



As the title says, My plan did not work. Still have duty on Monday, so I cannot take Monday off... And there's NDP rehearsal on Tuesday, when I should be getting my duty rest. Pfffft.

Saw so many new stuff I want to buy! I want a pair of Dr Martens shoes! But Singapore has no outlets. Think shall buy online! And also finding a shop called Ambiguous! And there's something at Uniqlo :D

Felt so tired this morning that I fell asleep after waking up! Wow.



Retro Dance Freak

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Names

Hmmm maybe we should use nicknames for each band member! Like mine shall be d_EMO_n d@yz! Or maybe Jason. Or Spongejan Squarepants. Or Fiona "Boing Boing" Xie. Or Dora's Monkey's Banana. That name sounds catchy! I remember Kenny used to use Kenstrifer. Jeff had one before Eclipse, but I can't recall...

Playing MHFU again. Back to basics! Shall play with 3 of my trainees! No Dora! But getting killed by a Giadrome is damn turn-off...maybe should use dual swords instead of great sword for the time being...

IPPT on Thursday. Damn. Just grab a silver and not bother about it.

Trainees planning on clubbing this Friday, soccer at Kallang on Saturday, dinner on Sunday. I got duty on Friday NOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

Jamming! Miss it!

Iron Man 2 this Sunday! Woohoo!!!

I've got a plan, to get Monday off :)

You know, all I want in Life right now is just someone to chat with on MSN or SMS everyday...





I can't seem to care about anyone but you.

Drunk=Weak

Until now I still hate the fact I got drunk that night. The mess I made in the Butter Factory toilet...God I still feel so ashamed about dirtying the toilet! Maybe if I worked there as a cleaner for a while I'd feel better.

To be in such a pathetic state...it just sickens me. Sickens me to be in a state that only weak men fall into. My moment of weakness. I fucking hate it. That's why I shall never drink so much ever again, and my distaste for alcohol only grows stronger. Fuck alcohol. Not like it is good for my body anyway. And I will never, ever get drunk again. Because getting drunk is for losers(I'm referring to guys only) and I shall not be one. Makes me feel like a pathetic loser at the time I was drunk, and it makes people see me that way too.

I won't be a disgusting piece of unstable shit. I'm not so low.





Life's about trying new things,
Not stupid things.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Changes


Well, my new blog colours is refreshing, right? No more black and red, so emo and moody! I'm giving white a shot, and hopefully it shall stay that way! Makes my blog more lively, don't you agree?

I was looking at the Best Friends application on FB. So demoralising to see some of the answers. And a lot of people think I'm not a virgin T_T I look THAT bad...

Busy week, short weekend, followed by another busy week! Just take a deep breath and plunge into it. See you at the other end!



It's not so bad,
When you have a buddy.

Kor-ny

I was watching this korean drama and find it rather typical. This guy and this gal who always bicker and bicker and eventually fall in love with each other. But noooo, they do not admit their feelings. They act like they still dislike the other, and hurt themselves instead and suffer in silence. Then at the end got some dramatic scenario and they confess their love for each other, and FINALLY happily ever after. Just to make the drama last 20-something episodes...

Sorry I do not plan to watch Iron Man 2 with you guys. Nothing would be more fun than watching the cool movie with you guys! But I never actually watched a movie with my family for a long time, and Iron Man 2 would be a good opportunity to do so. Hence, for this movie, I made the decision to watch it with my family. Live today without regrets for tomorrow :)

Ok the story I have, Cast Off-ed, will be about this guy and 5 girls marooned on an unknown island. Sure you will think about the show Lost, but l do not plan to touch on aliens or whatever that show was about. Did not bother to watch that show. I plan to show what people of our generation would do in such a situation. Of course, making it as a comic would convey my ideas better, unfortunately I know zilch about drawing comics. I'll try to draw out the cast though; I do not feel like describing the characters much.

It's official: I want to spend my 20th birthday donating blood for the first time ever. The best gift to receive is the satisfaction of giving :)



Behind the facade,
Is just a sad man.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Cast Off-ed:Prologue

1 week ago:
Girls. With their curvy figures and sharp wit, they were the most fascinating creatures to their male counterparts. Who could possibly resist ogling at a buxom teenager with seductive eyes and cute ass sashay across the school cafeteria? Mike could. Mike Troque could bloody well could.

Thing is, Mike was like any other 19 year old guy. He went to school, he studied hard and played harder, watched movies with his usual friends, even got himself a redhead for a girlfriend. Only one problem(it's all perspective here): Mike had zero mojo. Zero. It's like hormones never existed in him. Porn would just bore him. Hot stripping girls would only waste his time. He was more into superheroes and comic books, plus the occasional computer gaming. This made the fact that he was attached rather contradicting.

His girlfriend, Maria Carrs, was not like any 19 year old girl. How many girls her age was a redhead, had the hottest body in school, leader of the cheerleading team, claimed Best Student of the Year every year ever since she entered? That was Maria for you. The perfect girl, both physically and academically. She was the most popular topic of all the guys' fantasies, yet she was crazy over the only guy who never fantasized before: Mike. She knew a good catch when she smelt one, and she won his heart with hers, not her body. If she had to win the guy sexually, then he was not worth winning at all. That was Maria for you: good body, good heart.

"So...you going to spend your holiday reading Spiderman?"

It was lunch break at school, and the couple got a small table for themselves. She was scruntinising on her lunch; he on his comic book.

"What? Nah, it's the holidays! I can read comics in class," Mike took a bite off his sandwich without lifting his eyes off his comics. " Also, it's "Spider-man"! How many times do I need to correct you? And what is my baby doing with her free time?"

"Well, apart from finding a foolproof way to get you horny and finally screw me? We've been together for eight months and you barely even tongue me. I need it really, really bad, darling. Just thinking about it right now is turning on the heat," Maria licked her lips seductively, but it probably would not work even if the comic book was not covering his face. She gave a small sigh. " Well, I was thinking we could go on a cruise! Just you and me, taking a ship to some nice beach like those on television!"

This stirred Mike's interest and his eyes surfaced from behind his comic.

"Cruise?"

"Sure! It will be awesome! I promise not to "rape" you in the middle of the night again. Promise!" Maria brought her face close to Mike's. " C'mon darling, what is the worst that could possibly happen?"

******
Now:
"Baby?" Mike kneeled beside the motionless body, his knees and toes digging into the sand. The waves crashed onto the shore behind him, the full moon reflecting off the seawater. "Baby don't scare me like that."

With shaky hands, Mike pushed her soaked red hair aside to show her pale face. Even under the moonlight did she look so beautiful. But that was not the time or place to admire her beauty. Mike slowly placed two fingers at her neck, hoping for the best but expecting the worst.

"Oh fuck."
***************

So that's the prologue to this story I have in mind. It would be better if I can draw it out as a comic, but I can't draw that well. So guess I'll write it out instead. So many potential ideas for this story is already coming in!!! But writing on my iPod Touch slows me down, hence I wrote a prologue only!


Wake Up!

I set my alarm at 6 this morning so that I would have ample time to prepare for my duty that had a reporting time of 7. Unfortunately, I must have accidentally off it while shifting in my sleep, because it was off when I checked it. My friend, who booked in this morning for his duty too, came into bunk at 6:50 and turned on the lights, unaware I was inside. It woke me up and when I saw my clock I had a shock! So I rushed and changed and packed my stuff, constantly doing self checks to ensure I did not forget anything important. In the end, I forgot my pen... -.-

Duty duty duty. It's all about sleeping! Too bad I am not able to jam today because of my duty...fark.



She lives in a fairy tale,
Somewhere too far for us to find.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Bottom Line

Well, NDP went smoother than expected. And had Subway for lunch! The food army gave was just not for humans! Thank God for the rain because that meant we would slack all the way till time to go home! But I have to book in tonight... T_T

Was reading the latest issue of Men's Health, and among the really interesting articles was one about finding the one who is not actually how you planned your "the one" to be. For guys, their partner must be of Megan Fox-standard to qualify. Girls would start with "tall, dark, handsome". But if you were to ask someone for his "what I want my partner to be" list and his real-life partner, you'd realise that they do not match. You may end up marrying a wife who is not as hot as you dreamed of, yet you are satisfied and happy enough. I noticed that this is rather true. And then I thought, sure I see many really good-looking Singapore girls who I wish was mine, but when it boils down to settling down, I would not expect the girl to be so hot just to be my standard. When i think of it, I feel that my future partner need not be like those girls I show my friends who look so stunning. She may wear glasses, may not have the most gorgeous eyes or beautiful smile. But those things would not matter as much as how well she would fit into my life and be amazing the way she is to me. Does that mean my "hotness standard" for girls I want to approach in future will lower in future? Maybe. If yes, I'm pretty sure the reason is not because I want to "just make do with what is there". But rather, because I look for the right things in a partner.

The point is, Kenny, you should just give her a shot. Sure we have a rather not-so-good impression of our memory of her, but Life and love can be full of surprises. Who knows? Maybe we are judging a book wrongly by it's cover. After all, you do not have much to lose. How often does opportunity knock on your door? Not many girls will suddenly chat up with you and show (hopefully genuine) interest in you. I'm not saying she's the one, and I'm pretty sure she does not suit your list of "How my girl should be"(I'm pretty sure #1 is "She is from taiwan"), but maybe the one you are looking for is not suppose to be what you expect! Or ,another way to look at it is if you feel adventurous... -.- 



Maybe, the reason you can't find the right one for yourself,
Is because you've been looking the wrong direction all the while.

Friday, April 23, 2010

Book Out Isn't Fun When It Is Late






Just saw this picture on DeviantArt. Suppose to be cosplay of Rukia and Inoue from Bleach. Yuck...

Today there is training. Means I book out 7pm or later... FARK. Then tomorrow NDP means I've got to travel all the way to Choa Chu Kang again in the morning. Sunday is duty T_T FML!

Cannot jam = Fucked up.

Just want to blow off some zombies' heads right now...

OMG Diesel ads are awesome! I like! Be Stupid.
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http://www.adrants.com/images/diesel_be_stupid.jpg 
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They got nothing on you, baby

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Give Me A Break!

One reason why I like to ride atop the V200 at night: I can sing and nobody, not even me, can hear how bad it sounds. Because the engine is that loud. Serious, think of karaoke but you do not have to hear your voice! Really makes the hectic day kind of worth it :)

Also, the ride is awesome because the wind is blowing in your face, you can stare at passing cars, and enjoy the night sky! All you need is a long tongue and you might be mistaken as a canine!

Was on FB, saw Kenny's wall. Aiya give her a shot lah. The longer you play hard-to-get the harder she try the harder I laugh XD

Sigh...book out late tomorrow due to training, saturday NDP, sunday duty, monday duty rest(means no Monday off),only can rest on Labour Day :S

It sucks when it is one-way...



'Cause I try and try just to let you go,
But it's just so hard to do

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Jabbed


"It does not take money or gifts,
To replicate the happiness we have."

Today took my H1N1 injection, which is kind of late, if you ask me. The hoohah about H1N1 is already over and now you give me my jab? Don't they have a cure already??? My friends complained it hurt. All I thought was, get this stupid crap over and done with. Sure it kind of pricked, but it did not hurt. I was not even scared. Simply... Passive. I've probably outlived the fear of injections. Like how I don't fear being caned(not saying I get caned at this age). I remember I feared the cane when I was young. All it took was for my mom to take it out and I would be crying my eyes out and saying I was sorry and I would never do it again, whatever it was I did wrong. Mind you I was really young, and I would say anything to escape the cane. Not like it ever worked...all it did was stall time. Sheesh. Anyway if my mom did the exact same thing right now, I'd probably laugh. I'll find it ticklish rather than painful.

It's going to be a busy month :( I could really use someone to confide in in life right now :(((

The way I see it, I won't get to rest from tomorrow until Monday. Damn.

I'll cover your ass only if I know you can cover mine. (wonder why Jokhie found the statement funny on FB o.o) Seriously. Sure you think I'm not being helpful. But do I look like I was born to clear your crap? Need me to wipe your assholes with toilet paper after that?

I think after I ORD I'll work. But not for the money. i want to work at childcare centres and interact with kids. These kids have busy parents who cannot entertain them, or people to play with. Taking care of kids would be fun, and I think I can benefit from it too. More than you know. To recall such innocence at a young age, to know what it is like to really put up with their nonsense and still care for them, being responsible and matured, teaching them the right things in life...that is something no pay can give me.




The higher your hopes,
The harder they fall.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Different

Have you ever tried listing down things that make you feel different from everyone else, like you are not in the "mainstream"? I'm not saying to make you feel unique and special. Just see what makes you, well, you! Give it a shot. Here's a bit of mine as a sample.

I know I'm different when:
1) everyone wants to marry some girl from another country(like taiwan. Seems like a lot of takers) while I prefer local girls. Singapore girls may not be the best in the world, but they are good enough to define a perfect partner in life:)
2)I enjoy comics and superheroes and cartoons. None of my close friends share this interest with me. Heck, few people I know do!
3)I fear death more than anyone I know. I get really emo and depressed when it gets the better of me. And demonic stuff like REC 2 does not help.
4)only I seem to have the goal in life as getting married and settling down o.o Ikr?
5)nobody else buys toys at this age, except me. Last time I bought toys was only last year, the Transformers Classics Bumblebee, Starscream and Megatron
6)only I tend to find loop holes in people's instructions and words that I misunderstand their sentences unlike everyone else
7)I'd do stupid stuff for friends that others would never even think of or bother doing
8)I bother to trust people even though they are strangers
9)I am willing to do so much for girls I hardly know
10)I don't drink coffee, tea, beer, wine, nor enjoy Hor fun, laksa, cold desserts like ice kacang and those with wierd colourful balls that remind me of some squid eggs





Photos makes time stop at the moment you want

Looking Around

It's rather interesting to look at people moving around and going on with their lives. Today on the way to the Police Home Team Academy to pick them up I saw a lot of people that intrigued me. Take this couple I saw kissing at the bus interchange. At a glance I thought they were some teenagers bursting with hormones and totally "understanding" love. Only when I really looked that I realised they were around their 30s. That got me wondering, are they actually too old to do such public display of affection? Do we expect them to be matured enough to no longer do such things? Is it even considered wrong or disgusting? Hmmm...
Then there was this lady with super long hair that reached her hips. That's really long! Wonder why she did not mind all the trouble of maintaining such long hair. Does it weigh her head down? Also, because the bus I took passed by a lot of HDBs that was not near any MRT station or malls, plus only 1 or 2 buses passing that area, I noticed it's the old people that alighted at such stops. It seems it's the old people who lives in such...isolated places. Sure, I saw one facing some abandoned warehouse, but that does not count. Is it because at that age, jobless, you can only afford to live in such places? I for one don't like living in such inaccesible places, a reason why I'd rather die than stay in a bungalow or terrace because they are seldom somewhere convenient to travel. I find it...depressing. What if I have to stay in such lonely places when I am old and dying? It's like being shunned one side to rot and die while the world lives on :(

Today tried the canteen food. Curry noodle sucks. Did not dare try the prata stall though I felt like eating prata because of poor popularity. Maybe they found a moustache hair on the prata once, judging from that guy's curly moustache.

Saw Nicholas today! He kept playing poker on my iPod Touch and listening to Pyramid. He suggested watching movie this Saturday like last week. CR gang if you read this tell me if you all are on! He said Shu Ning failed her driving today. Go cheer her up man!

Today there was this bus driver who asked me if he could go ahead and bring some of the people to the camp first. So I asked the chief trainer. And in the evening the same driver said his company got a complaint saying he yelled at me and he got scolded by his company -.- How the hell did it all become like that and turned into my problem?

I wonder what if I married a policewoman. Imagine, here she is following the law while I download LOADS of stuff from online and stuff. I think I might actually stop downloading songs and start buying them, just for her. But then again, I would not want a wife who works as a police officer -.- No offence, lady law enforcers.

I just want this week to end. I just want to sleep!!!\



He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

Monday, April 19, 2010

She Will Be Loved

Today was rather dull. There was not really much to do except sleep and playing CS. Went to download CS Source, but it gets boring after a while.

Must start applying for driving and stop procrastinating.

Need to pick up that accounting book. Never touched it last week :(

Book in always kills my mood. Fuck. Plus, tomorrow is NDP. Already tired of calling the bus drivers. Cannot imagine how much my phone bills will cost these next few months... I used to dread my phone bills when I was younger, like secondary school days, because my parents would be really mad to see my excessive calls and SMSes. At that time I wasted my calls on my friends, today I waste them on goddamn bus drivers and army personnel -_-

Shall watch Iron Man 2 with my family rather than my friends. I miss family time :(

Downloaded MGMT's latest album because I saw from Sihua's blog that it's out. LOL Shall listen to it later!


Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

We Pwned Them

Today's jamming was great! I practised a lot of my songs and Jokhie and CR were trying out chords to fit into the song. Rather noisy, but fun otherwise! And slept on his comfy bed again! Now it's no longer in the same room as our jamming, so can sleep in peace!

Lan was fun. Generals was ok only, because I did not actually do much. L4D was us against Mel and her friends. I thought they would be damn good from my impression of them, but nobody kills zombies like us :D CS was cool; Jokhie was god-like! BF2 was...???

I hate REC2. The first 20mins looked promising, like some SWAT4 and L4D hybrid. Then the movie brought in demonic stuff and I hated it to the core. It should just be science-related, and not demons-related. It became a SWAT4 and Excorsist hybrid. I do not like these demons stuff one bit :( I was covering my ears and shutting my eyes the last 30mins of the movie.





Alone & Lonely make a great company.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

...

REC 2.

FUCKED UP.

I HATE THIS.


When the mind wanders,
It goes out of control.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Police!

Wow. I am really impressed by the police GOH. they are younger than me (most of them) and their drills are just amazing! It makes army look plain pathetic. Even the air force GOH see already go and practise. Seriously, it's amazing. Especially when they cock their rifles together. You can hear how synchronised they are! They were so good that I was grinning at how lousy air force people must be feeling. And I saw Nicholas there!

Now rushing home to eat my dinner and meet the guys for movie. Taking the new yellow line. Hopefully it is fast enough!




The 5 is silent

2MuchT!me

I thought it would take me 2 hours to reach Choa Chu Kang MRT station, turns out it took only an hour. Which means I've got 1 hour to kill...

And it sucks that I'm in uniform. Means I cannot seat down in the train. I'd have to offer my seat to somebody, and if I don't I fear I may appear in Stomp!lol

Funny thing. I played my PSP through the 40mins ride, and after that my arm could not straighten! My arms were bent throughout the entire journey, so it got kind of cramped when I straightened my arms!

And you would not believe how many families go out to eat breakfast in the morning! Macs itself was packed! I was looking for somewhere to rest my aching legs and all the food places were crowded. Finally found KFC! So begins the rotting.

Had this super wierd dream, related to jamming. Stupid dream...

Kick-Ass tonight! Hopefully.



There she goes,
There she goes again.
Racing through my brain.
And I just can't contain,
This feeling that remains.

Farked Up

Sorry for my immature behaviour.

Knowing about it is one thing,
To be able to overcome is another.


Fark myself.

Playing lan made me miss my family. Shall have dinner with them today if I can.

Stupid NDP.


Tell me I'm an angel
Take this to my grave
Tell me I'm a bad man
Kick me like a stray

Friday, April 16, 2010

This Is How Bored I Am

My 2nd post in 1 day. So bored. Practised my bass until I'm so tired. Amazing how learning new songs can be so tiring. At least I covered 3 Blink-182 songs just now, but it's because the bass is rather easy.

Going to have dinner and lan later. After watching the intro video for L4D makes me feel like playing it. I'm referring to 1 and not 2, btw.

Got to gym! But my illness is holding me back... -.-

Internet really slow these days...

I feel so lost right now. Like I'm lost in an abyss. Even How I Met Your Mother and Mentalist are getting boring. Nothing to play on my computer or PSP, and my accounting book is in camp. No holidays or events to look forward to. Nobody to have fun with. Damn...

I wish I had bigger balls and less pride


I will learn to live before I die
will learn to love and learn to try
not to give it all away

YouFail

Tried to upload more videos onto YouTube, but keeping getting stuck at "Finishing Uploading...". Wonder why is it so farked up...

Ok. My medicine is really strong. As much as I try not to, I keep going to sleep because the medicine makes me really drowsy. I try to stay wake to use the computer and watch my shows, but I'll feel so exhausted. And all I needed was a half-hour nap to rejuvenate!

Practised on my bass today, and managed to write out tabs for Neon Tree's Animal! Thanks to the guy who posted his bass cover on YouTube. I made a tab out of his cover because it's really accurate! Thank you!

I'll list down my songs for update! 80 more songs to try out to hit 100!!!

1)Avril Lavigne - Alone
2)Avril Lavigne - Contagious
3)The Academy Is... - Summer Hair = Forever Young
4)The Cardigans - Lovefool
5)Demi Lovato - Get Back
6)Faber Drive - Give Him Up
7)Hey Monday - Run, Don't Walk
8)Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now
9)Kelly Clarkson - Long Shot
10)Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes
11)The Killers - Mr Brightside
12)Lady Gaga - Poker Face
13)Muse - Starlight
14)Neon Trees - Animal
15)Peter, Bjorn, John - Young Folks
16)Selena Gomez & The Scene - Falling Down
17)Selena Gomez & The Scene - Naturally
18)Taylor Swift - Love Story
19)Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me
20)We Are Scientists - The Great Escape
21)The Wonders - That Thing You Do!

Songs I shall tackle:
1) Green Day - American Idiot
2)Muse - Supermassive Black Hole
3)Avril Lavigne - Sk8ter Boi
4)Avril Lavigne - Runaway (This one has no tabs or cover:( )
5)The Cardigans - My Favourite Game
6)Sixpence None The Richer - There She Goes
7)New Found Glory - Kiss Me
8)The Academy Is... - About A Girl
9)Simple Plan - Shut Up
10)All Time Low - Weightless
11)Fall Out Boy - Dance, Dance
12)Jet - Are You Gonna Be My Girl?
13)Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
14)Blink-182 - All The Small Things
15)Blink-182 - First Date
16)Blink-182 - I Miss You
17)Blink-182 - Rock Show
18)Blink-182 - What's My Age Again?

If I manage to learn these 13 songs I'll have a total of 30+!!! Alright! Damn motivated right now!!!



You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want it bad, your bad romance

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Watch Out!

Phew! The dentist say the pain I feel could be caused by my current flu, which, after 1 week, is still around. Hopefully now I can recover with my new medicine. And the doctor gave me MC for tomorrow, which means I do not have to book in until Monday night! :) Not like tomorrow will be much though. Suppose to have some run at East Coast in the morning and would have booked out by 10am anyway.

Because I cannot find  the watch I use for army, I went to buy a watch today. And it's the "army watch" that everyone loves so much! I'm not sure why everyone is crazy over the watch. To me, it's like reliving the past. I wore one in my primary school days, and that watch lasted till my secondary school days when it just died. Now I've got another similar one :)

I'm nearly 1/5 my way to my 100 songs playlist :)



Something's getting in the way.
Something's just about to break.

Trojan-ed

Last night while surfing the net I suddenly got some stupid Trojan spyagent. It made my computer keep prompting that some serious infection detected, that my data was at risk of getting lost. Even the wallpaper was changed to some fixed blue wallpaper saying data lost because of some kernel bullshit. I was ready to reformat my computer, but I did not know how. I asked Edwin, and he said he'd tell me tomorrow. What the fuck. And I told my dad that the computer seemed to be hit by a major virus, and all he did was talk about having a lot of stuff in the computer. He went to put in what he needed into a back up folder, which was mostly his watches stuff. What the fuck. He then say go put the back up folder into my external hard disk. Which I thought, what the fuck. If I transfer that folder into my hard disk, I risk infecting everything in there. And that included all my movies, PSP games, my songs, my photos, everything. I was willing to lose all the stuff I had inside the computer, like all my bass tabs and stuff. Yet he was worried about some goddamn watches crap. And he passed me the Windows XP disc when I told him I planned to reformat the computer, telling me to install until service pack 2 or something. I mean, you throw me this thing like I know nuts about this shit. What the fuck. And all you could tell me was, "Don't use the other computer." He was referring to the other, older computer we had in the house, which he used for his work and stuff. I don't use that computer mostly because it's slow, but also because my dad "don't want you to infect the computer." So I'm using the computer, it got a virus, and all he does is tell me to stay away from the other computer? What the fuck. He could still tell me to partition the drives to the original sizes, like I actually fucking know how much space he allocated to each drive. Thanks for being there at a time where I need help Dad. Seriously.

So there I was, wondering where to put the back up folder, how the hell to reformat and partition my computer. And the AVG could not find the virus. So I did what any Gen Y teenager would do. I Googled my problem. And the first website I checked had an instant solution! Just download this program to remove it! But my joy was short-lived when I found out it was a fucking fraud tool. Eventually I found through Yahoo that Malwarebyte's Anti-Malware program could solve this issue easily. And that settled the Trojan crap for the night.


Why should you need anyone?
It's not like anybody needs you.






Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Jaw-dropping


Loneliness. 
Welcome back.

Looks like i got to either drill my tooth or maybe even extract it. Hooray.

NDP rehearsals is going to make my travel expenses and phone bills higher, and my lifespan shorter.

:(

My friend's band is so inspiring. Wonder if he needs a bass? Shall learn 100 plus songs. I plan to aim high. I wait for no one.

You're a hot mess,
I'm lovin' it,
Hell yes.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Hand Signs

Yours Truly was so pissed he showed attitude to his warrant officer this morning and got lectured. Not that I actually cared. Was too sick to bother about anything. Anyway, today was rather routine, and the workload is starting to roll in.

Yesterday on the bus to camp I saw this young couple (around my age) alighting. And you know how the exit is made such that only one person can alight at a time from either side of the divider due to ...well, the divider. So this couple was alighting, and they kept holding hands on the way out such that the guy's arm was twisted backwards just to keep her hand in his. Kind of reminds me of me when I was with my ex. And then I realised there are couples who never let go despite the situation. For instance, navigating through an IT fair. Or getting out of a lift.

I have this theory, that I want to try out. It's an assumption from what I observe, and I may be wrong. The couples who insist on holding on to each other's hands (let's say Cat A) are in an "immature" relationship to me, for lack of a better word. "Puppy love", "young love", whatever you want to name it. I think that couples who truly understand (we'll call them Cat B) what relationship and love means, or at least have a better idea about it, or know what exactly they want in relationships, will not do what I mentioned above. The guy would probably let his partner go first, and follow behind. He could hold her hand again after that.

The way I see it, couples in Cat A show that either, or both, partners fear losing that person, ie. not confident of the relationship. Or maybe they do not take it seriously. Hence, I'm pretty sure couples of Cat B would have much higher chances of lasting than those of Cat A. Go ahead, observe couples around the next time. It's a working theory, but there's a high probability.


Shall sleep early tonight. I'm still sick, but nobody seems to notice :\




I've got your picture,
I'm coming with you.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Un-recover

Just came back from playing lan with the guys. And I don't feel too good. Like all my recovery was undone, and I feel sick again. Is it the dread of booking in? Or is my medicine making me too drowsy? Maybe lack of sleep? Whatever the reason I don't plan to book in tonight. But I need to be in camp tomorrow to sign my leave for this Thursday. The busy year is finally starting, with NDP beginning this Tuesday and all other Tuesdays and Saturdays until NDP is over. How am I suppose to recover? Plus, an outfield exercise that I need to take part in this week =.=

I'll blog more next time. Goodnight.


No matter how determined I am,
No matter how hard I try,
I always seem to remain stuck,
In the hole of my idiocy.
Wake up idiot,
Time to face reality.

American Queen Is The American Dream

Oh my god, you look just like Shakira
No no, you’re Catherine Zeta
Actually, my name’s Marina

Hollywood by Marina And The Diamonds. I love this new song!


Hollywood infected your brain
You wanted kissing in the rain
Oh oh, Living in a movie scene
Puking American dreams
Oh oh, I’m obsessed with the mess that’s America
I’m obsessed with the mess that’s America

Saturday, April 10, 2010

That Thing You Do

Finally figured out the tabs for That Thing You Do! The tabs online were so weird I created my own that sounds great!  \(^_^)/ I know it's an old song, but it is quite challenging, even tougher than certain songs that I play currently. Another song to my list of songs I can play :D


I don't ask a lot girl,
But I know one thing's for sure,
It's the love I haven't got girl,
And I just can't take it anymore 

Str3ngth In Numb3rs


Staying as a pack has been analyzed in animals and people...


...for defense...


...for offense...

...for support.

What I don't understand is why when people are in a group, they think they are some big bosses. I was walking around Changi Airport just now and there was this Indian family(no offence intended. Just so happen it was an indian and not a chinese one). A huge one. Well, they just left some restaurant, and were in front of me. Now, I did say they are a big family, so it is no surprise they blocked the entire path. The worst part was that they took their own sweet time. They don't care about the passer-by like me (who technically are not considered passer-by if we cannot pass by them right?). It's like their name is plastered on the floor.

Another example is MRT trains. I don't know how those people have the cheek to do it, but there are people who just barge into the train without giving those alighting a chance to even take a first step. And it's not just one or two people who does that, it's the entire crowd waiting to enter the train. I alone stand one side and let the people out. Sometimes, when I'm nearest to the door and let the alighting people come out first, those behind me would go around me and squeeze their way into the train.

Welcome to Animal Planet 101. It's a jungle out there.

Shall jam a bit more tonight! And want to try out "There She Goes"! There's another old song, but I can't recall!

Swimming tomorrow! at my pool.LOL


There she goes
There she goes again
Racing through my brain
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

Farking Down A Cab

The whole day I've been so drowsy, mostly due to my medications. Went jamming at 1, turns out it starts at 2. I left my house at 1pm but reached CR's place only at 1.40pm. Why? Good question.

Usually I take a cab down to CR's place. I know it's crazy for me, staying considerably near to him, to cab to his place. I have 2 valid reasons to support my stand:

1) The bus stop is as far as going to secondary school. For those who wore the banana uniform of that pathetic place with me know I live 2 roads away. The bus stop is even further.

2)I've a lot of stuff to bring. Or at least, I used too. Fortunately I do not need to carry my amplifier along for practice anymore. But to take bus, carrying my guitar, I would be in constant fear of my guitar getting knocked.

3)Bus 966 takes FOREVER to come. Today I waited 15mins for that damn bus. And that's considered quite fast already. Stupid bus...

In conclusion, taxi would seem a better choice. But that is not the end of today's post. I've to tell you all about the taxis today.

As usual, I would go to the usual place to flag down a taxi. I saw many occupied taxis, which is fine because there are seldom free taxi drivers who bother to go down that road. What pissed me off big time was the 3 empty cabs that pretended to not see me and just drive past me.

I mean, did I look like I wanted to rob them? Maybe they think I wanted to rape them? Did my bass guitar look like a rifle to them? Am I dressed in a way that I look like lousy business for them? Are their eyesights bad? If so, why are they farking taxi drivers??!

Taxi drivers are saying they do not get paid enough, that taxi fares should be raised, blah blah blah. The only way I'd fork out extra cash for you people is if I'm gonna shove it up your A-hole -_- And I would not be surprised if you'd hungrily take it out of your a**hole and start counting. Seriously, if Singapore wants the taxi drivers to have more business they should patrol the less popular routes, and work on their attitude(or eyesight).

Today's jamming was... Not so productive. At least I learnt a new song! Alone by Avril Lavigne. And I can more or less play The Great Escape and Mr Brightside :) Even getting the hang of Muse's Supermassive Black Hole! At least the bass for these songs are not dull. Don't ask me to play boring songs please...




Right now,
Everything's a blur.

Friday, April 9, 2010

How Can The Honest Win?


Today spent my day jamming! Tried many new songs! But that's no biggie today. Today I got a lot of the new songs playing on the radio, like "I'm In The House"(love the beat), "Number One Enemy" and "Parachute"! Got an old favourite "Butterfly" by Crazy Town too! Love that song.haha

I seem to be recovering. No more fever, and the pain in my throat is bearable. But I found out there is blood in my phlegm O_O And dried blood deep in my nose. Looks like I avoided a nosebleed yesterday. Too bad my illness means I have to call off tomorrow's lunch with my cousin. Guess I'll collect my photo shoot pictures another time. Sigh~

There are guys who are too much. 
There are girls who are too cautious.
That makes it difficult,
For honest people like us.


"The guilty always suffer"?
I say the honest suffer more.


I tried searching for "Innocent" in DeviantArt and a lot of pictures were of nude people. I understand, it represents the naked soul, with nothing to hide and all to bare, but is there any picture I can use that is not M-18??!LOL

Downloaded Ultimate X-men #1-100! COOL. Saved myself hundreds of bucks $$$

Just finished practising on my bass, and I'm sweating. The weather today is inhuman. Either my house has poor air ventilation, or global warming is getting worse. Even the fan is useless now =\ Mr. Brightside almost complete, so is The Great Escape! Lady Gaga's Poker Face needs more practice. And still got those few other songs I'm playing around with :) Getting the hang of Starlight by Muse HALLELUJAH! (how does "jah" sound like "yah"?)

Side note:
If the church believed my crap,
what does that make the church?


Neon Trees are awesome! Especially "Animal" and "Girls And Boys In School"!

"Questions for questions, 
 I've got a question."


Dear Maria, Girls And Boys In School, Kick Ass, I'm In The House, Solo, Young Forever, Number One Enemy, Parachute, Butterfly,  His Girl Friday, Beware!Cougar!




Come on a Monday
Come on a Tuesday
They'll never know
Pop out the cork for
A Wednesday
Stay with me Thursday
But she'll always be his girl 

His girl Friday