(500) Days of Summer

Probably the best movie I've ever seen.

Perhaps that will be the story of my life...

This movie is simply amazing. The cast, the setting, the storyline... just WOW.

PAUL:You know what they say...there's plenty other fish in the sea.

TOM:No.
PAUL:Sure they do. They say that.
TOM: Well they're wrong. It's not true.I've fished in that sea. I've jumped in and swam in that sea! I'm fucking Aquaman!

The movie was able to balance the drama and the comedy in it perfectly, and the ending is something different yet fit to be called an ending. Sure it's not the fairy-tale kind of ending, but I could learn a thing or two from this movie. Seriously. Also, Us by Regina Spektor is an addictive song!!! Love it ttm!

I know I watched it super-late, but if you haven't, you're missing out. Especially for guys who wants romance in life like me.haha

TOM:Ok!My name's Tom.

GIRL:Nice to meet you...I'm Autumn.

Today was kinda usual CNY routine, though I'm kinda bored of it already. Played Texas hold 'em again today! Luck was as bad as yesterday... fortunately not playing with cash.

Want to just sleep all the way...

Valentine's Day. Spent alone again. Don't like it one bit =(

He is broken.

More than broken, he is alone.

Poker Face

Well, today was quite ok. Went to jam at CR's place, had a big lunch at KFC, the time spent with laughter and crap. We kind souls waited for Sihua to accompany her with her shopping, and she seems to be strongly against my brown eyes.LOL maybe I'll wear those contacts that makes your pupils black just to ease her soul.haha

Dinner with my mom's side. Fun as usual! The highlight of the day was at the fitness corner of my cousin's condo. It was directly below the MRT track, and he waited till a train was coming and threw a rock up. It hit the front of the train and bounced off. We laughed like mad after that. Probably gave the driver a shock.haha

Taught my cousins how to play Texas poker, even the primary 5 kiddo. We had a fun time playing, using Scrabble pieces as chips. Maybe I'll invest in chips.haha Food was great, atmosphere was great, the games were great!

Sometimes, I wonder why I'm in this situation. It's my heart against the world. I've gotta choose between listening to my friends and my heart. Lost...

Anyway, tomorrow is CNY! Happy CNY and a properous new year ahead! This goes out to the CR gang, my fellow army frens (including trainees), my cousins, those closer to me than they know and all other friends not in any of the mentioned groups!haha 2010 shall be a year of success and more ang bao!!!LOL but watch how much ba kwa you all eat!

OMG the pics by joshua is so hilarious! Love your camera man!

Laughter is the best medicine.

Can I please laugh my troubles away?

Running On Back-up Power

Had dinner at Swensons with CR and Jeff!!!...and then went home. The End.

Just kidding. I mean, that really sums up tonight but I'll be kind and mention the details. Went there sleepy, and wanted to just snooze on CR's bed while they play computer. But I missed my guitar so badly I just had to jam a bit.haha

On the way to Parkway we saw this couple. The gal had legs of nice length, but they were a wee bit too skinny. Apart from that, I think she looked not bad. Dinner at Swensons was... in one word, filling. I think we walked out in a different manner. I felt like I was actually wobbling.haha

On the way back this girl came out of one of those shops, and all 3 of us kinda looked at her. Only the other two found her cute. I told them, "Did you see her face closely?"

Fell asleep on CR's bed, finally, while Jeff played computer and CR tried to get players for L4D2. Seriously lan is waste of time. haha anyway CR failed to get the lan thing going so I got a ride home from Jeff's dad. I was quiet the whole time because I was a bit dazed, like part of me haven't woken up. The music in the car was booming in my ears, and the beat kept swarming my mind. That, my friends, was me running on back-up power. Power saving mode. Whatever you wanna call it.haha

you keep me hanging on
but we're not moving on
we're standing still
Jenny, you've got me on my knees
Jenny, It's killing me

Heaven In Her Arms

New chapter.

I surrender to you
Forgive me for the sadness
And the bringing of you down
I just needed a lover and I needed a friend
And there you were
Running from forever like all the rest
Three simple words bled me dry
Three simple words bled us dry
I love you

Kicking Balls

Well, managed to reach ECP on time. Headed down to mac and saw almost all the trainees there! Speechless! We headed down to the meeting point at 7.30, and started the 3km run asap. I didn't run because of the blister on my toe, and ended up playing Big 2 with the trainees and Kelvin. Really damn unlucky, 'cause I didn't get a single 2 or a 5-card combo during the entire game. Damn...

Went to soccer cage after that, and was kinda dragged in to play. Now people think I intentionally skipped the run -.- Soccer was quite fun, despite me having absolutely zero soccer skills. My team reached the semi-finals :D Kinda feel like playing again.

Mac was given to us for lunch, but I ate the orange that battery commander gave us and gave most of my mac away. And Ying Hao kept "hinting" to BC that he wanted to go to platoon 1, it was hilarious. I wish you'd go there too man.haha

How I envy guys with girlfriends taking up their time. Sure maybe because I'm not in a relationship so I don't know what it is like, but I'd really love to give it a try. Maybe I want it.

Gotta swim soon!!! I want get a tan! My skin's starting to look pale :(

Sometimes I wonder if I'm actually being too friendly with the trainees, which is what my sergeant friends say. Ok, maybe I'm treating the trainees like friends, but I make sure I draw a line somewhere. If they cross the line, I'll fuck them real bad, but they have not done anything to make me do so. Thing is, I'd ,rather be friendly and reasonable rather than treating them like men. Our rank is higher because we can take more responsibilities and have better privileges, yet their rank does not mean we should treat them like some low-life. We're all humans, after all. Respect through fear never lasts.

Bought new speakers for my computer! The temporary one was pathetic, had to change it!

Went to Bedok barber, but was closed. Walked so much for it. Oh well, Walking is good!LOL

V-day is just around the corner, and yet again another defeat for me.

My heart's in a million pieces.

Only my determination keeps it intact.

Miss my bass guitar... :(

You're all I need,

Your love's a drug

PS. how come the losers can get gals faster than me? It's not fucking fair at all.

iConnected!

I've finally connected to de net with my MiFi using my iPod Touch! But I shall not celebrate too soon. Must test it out a bit more.

Got a blister on my foot. Can't run the 3km run tmr! Blessing in disguise LOL

Wish I could just meet you, because we don't have forever.

Wish I could celebrate V-day one year...

Wish I don't have to be at ECP by 7.30am tmr. What are they thinking?! Seriously!

Anyway, nothing to do tmr. Just rot ttm. And no guitar, which does not help my situation even one bit.haha

Does my computer have a virus??! Keep having weird people adding me on MSN...

I sometimes wonder how some friends are actually my friends when they tend to piss me off, but then I realized that because they make me smile, they make me happy, that's why they are called friends.

If you need me to jump into a river,

I'd do it for you.

If you ask me to carry you halfway across the country,

I'd do it for you.

If you ask me to give you a slap,

I'd think twice before I do.

But no matter what,

I do everything for you.

We climb the mountains, walk the deserts,
For our love.

Need Of A Fan

This week will be a short one, and it couldn't come at a better time. I'm so tired and stressed out enough, and not enough sleep. And think I'm falling sick. But that's actually a good thing because I want to be excused from the 3km run this Friday.haha

And I really got to buy a fan tonight! If I wait any further I'll melt in my sleep.

Shall go blading this Friday along with my friends, who will cycle or blade, up to them.haha But blading is nicer to me, and I'm quite tired of cycling.haha

I just came up with this theory while drinking nice cold water while under the hot sun. Was running and went to gym. Glad that I worked up some sweat!haha Anyway back to the theory: Wives are like water. You get sick of them after experiencing them so often everyday, that you want to try other stuff. But when you need them the most, they are simply the best, no matter how bland or boring you thought of them before. So when people say "Water is precious", say "Amen!" haha

Ok during night's out I was hunting for a fan, and while waiting for a friend to get his blueberry waffle I saw this old, bald man walk past. Sure he looked OK...except that he was wearing a red dress and had boobs. At least there was the shape there. Who knows what he stuffed inside. I think he was wearing a bit of make-up too, but I was too stunned to remember.

I didn't realized fans were so expensive! Just wanted to buy a small fan, but the prices ranged from $35 to $65! Wow. So I bought a cheap one, which means days of me sweating in my sleep is over. haha

Book out tonight! Long weekend this week! 5 days! YES!

Why must CNY be on same day as V-day?!! I've got plans y'know... that's if she agrees.haha

I've got you in my mind, you've got me out of yours

Monday Bluez...

have I used this title for a blog post before? Oh well.haha

The status personnel among my trainees is ever inter-changing. Trying to keep them from getting OOC because life would really be better for them after they pass out. And I think they're a great batch, unlike those who think they're scum...

So this morning started like every other morning, except I was really, really tired, and had a tough time getting myself out of bed. Thank god I wasn't on COS duty this morning. And though it was just Kishan and I, the day went smoothly. The trainees are fun to chat with, and we laughed all the way during our chat from spotting girls while cycling all the way to what is considered losing virginity for a guy. I swear, we all laughed till our stomachs cramped.

Spent the afternoon contacting M1 and Apple to figure out why my iPod Touch cannot connect to my MiFi. Got to bring it to M1 and solve this issue.haha

I hate people who like to slack and keep taking off and disappear from our duties as sergeants to take the trainees. Sure we're friends, but I wouldn't actually put you very high on my list any more. Respect is down there. Go work your way up again.

Need to buy a fan for my bunk soon! So stuffy!

Better shave my sideburns before I get caught!haha

Hey CR gang, blading/cycling this Friday afternoon? Plus dinner at Lagoon Hawker Centre after that?haha

Catch me by surprise

I wonder...

Who's actually the victim here?

Gone...

Well, today when I went to Parkway with CR and jeff to eat and shop, I left my camera somewhere. By the time I realised its absence and hurried back to find it, it was gone. So I left my contact with all the places I visited, in case a kind soul returned the camera. But then thinking of those typical locals, I don't have very high hopes... but a painful lesson learnt, and one huge chunk of money gone just like that. Feels like one small part of me has disappeared, and I'm just so frustrated with myself for being so careless.

Jamming wasn't as happening as usual, partly because I didn't feel like playing after losing my camera. And we kept playing Demi Lovato's Get Back, so I left the room to play CR's computer. And I found out how hard Muse's Time Is Running Out and Jet's Are You Gonna Be My Girl? bass is. Well, if I manage to pull it off, then I know I've progressed far! =)

Booking in tonight, and I don't plan to bring my PSP in this week. Dread Friday's battery outing, because it's a 3km run and soccer, Neither which I'm keen of.haha Gotta gym more this week if possible!

If you all have noticed, I've deleted quite a number of people in FB from my friends list. That's because I don't know quite a few of them, and having them there just for numbers is plain foolish. So I decided to remove them, because I'm just trying to be a better person as a whole =D

I'm not some jerk who wants to get into your bed,

I'm just a guy who wants to get into your heart.

I want to touch your heart,

Not tear it apart.

If only I could show you my soul,

No secrets, No lies.

Maybe then will you see,

The true me.

This is my final shot.

"Do bubbles mean pearls?"

Ok the day officially started when I got onto the cab to Parkway Parade. Anything before that was routine in my life, so there isn't a need to go into it.

Parkway Parade. I never really liked going there, or the whole Marine Parade as a whole. To take a bus, I would need to walk to a bus stop not quite near my house, and wait for one particular bus number that can take up to 30 mins to come. So naturally I'd choose to cab. Was my lucky break because an available cab appeared quite fast. When I told the guy that I wanted to go Parkway, he replied that Parkway are was always damn crowded. Then he went on about things like women drivers, the hot sun and Saturday traffic jams. I wondered why he was so chatty to me. I didn't really listen to him, but tried to seem interested by dropping some "True! True!" and chuckles as he spoke.

Finally reached Parkway at 12.58pm, meaning I wasn't late. Close call. Some TKGS girls were collecting donations and I gave $1, but I turned down the sticker. And I regretted the decision after realising the whole area was flooded with them. Dressing so well and turning down all those poor girls makes me seem stingy. My cousin used me as a reason to avoid donating. "Oh he donated already." LOL

So met my cousin to eat at Ichiban Boshi, where I ate Chicken Katsu Koji and several other stuff that my cousin made me try.haha Took us so long to finally decide on that place, but the food was awesome so no regrets! But I have to admit that the chicken smelled and tasted like Chicken McNuggets to me. And my cousin used some of the green tea on a tissue to clean her feet O_O

Me: So what shall we eat?

Cuz: Eh you decide leh.

Me: Thought you said you have something in mind!

Cuz: Actually I don't.(Laughs)

Me: Ok...how about Toby's?

Cuz: Huh. Don't want. I don't want ang moh food.

Me: Hmmm then?

Cuz: How about there?(Points at Ichiban Boshi and some chinese restaurant beside it)

Me: Ok, which one?

Cuz: Eh you decide leh.

LOL took us a while to decide, and we were asking about our budgets since we both tried to draw money but couldn't be bothered to queue up. Had a good time chatting with her, and she was furious when I told her about it-which-I-shall-not-mention-any-more. "Are you crazy? If you told me beforehand I would've scolded you!"

Went Toby's for dessert, and the truffle cake was nice.haha And my cousin decided to go do her hair at Toni&Guy at katong area, so I walked her there since I had 3 hours to kill before meeting my friends for dinner. $80 a haircut. "You guys have it so easy. Just $10 haircuts!", my cousin exclaimed as we headed there.

So I rotted at Borders for 3 hours reading books, and I couldn't find Jason Hahn's Asking For Trouble. Oh well, maybe next time. His stories are just awesome, makes you want to read more.haha

At 5.50pm started heading towards sihua's place, but had to get her bubble tea 1st. Fortunately the lady serving was easier, except when she asked, "Do you want bubbles?" I said yes, but I wasn't too sure bubbles were pearls. Anyway I walked to her place, finding my way based on memory. Deren was already there by the time I reached, and we had to wait for "princess" to come down.

Cabbed to Clarke Quay, and had to walk all the way to Timbre. Fortunately I manage to lead us the right way, and sihua kept complaining about her aching legs.LOL We were earlier than Jeff, which caused sihua to swear under her breath.haha

What can I say about dinner? The food was great, the drinks were great(the apple juice was rather refreshing), and the band was quite ok from where we were. Jeff and Nic wrote a dedication for sihua which she did not hear(along with half of us) when the band read out her name. We took some photos by the Singapore River before deciding to go to sihua's roof to drink. So we went to the nearest 7-Eleven to grab some juices to mix with the vodka. We walked past some Indian club that I saw often when I went to club, and told my friend, "First time I'm not seeing police vans outside this place."

At sihua's place we drank a bit (I think I drank the most vodka) and played Truth Or Dare. Problem was, a few of us had one game at Timbre, so we kinda knew the juiciest secrets.haha the Dare was really really gay, and nic suffered(or enjoyed) the most. CR gave the most gay ideas. And I was already having a splitting headache at the starting of the games. We left at around 3am, which I was quite glad because I needed to sleep off the headache.haha

Well, today is jamming! can't wait!

And how I wish I'd get a second chance, just to meet you.

Somehow, I can't comprehend.

Never Give Up

Well, started the day with gym!and as usual the gym was packed with old people, but there were two teenage gals there. Not that they were good-looking or anything. And the usual macho guy was there. I noticed his thighs today and they are really not human! It's as thick, maybe thicker, than my head!!! Is he planning to stay single all the way? So I did my usual routine at the gym, training all my muscles, which have kinda weakened from the lack of exercise the past few weeks.

I always wondered why they put mirrors in gyms, and I realised it serves as a motivation. Imagine lifting some weights in front of the mirror, and your brain screams for you to just give up. But you look in the mirror, see your muscles straining with effort, and you're determined to finish the set and look good.haha

After gym I went to the Bedok stadium which was just outside the gym. Listening to my iPod, I felt like I could run 10km. How bad can it be? I thought. So I ran. And died faster than you can blink. I've got to definitely start running more often(though it seemed easier when running around camp).

rest of the day was rather uneventful, except for it-which-I-shall-not-mention-any-more and my guitar practice. I was so affected that I had problem playing properly today. My timings were off, and my fingers fumbled while strumming. At least I figured Demi Lovato's Get Back tabs. Ready to jam this Sunday!haha

My mom helped me to buy this month's Men's Health, and she was nagging about how "R-rated" the articles were(she was referring to those on sex tips and other sex stuff). I told her that I'm not a kid any more, or I would be reading Boys' Health or something. Anyway she said she'd rip out those pages to discard, to which I replied, "If you do that, half the value would've gone down the drain."

Tmr is lunch with cousin and dinner at Timbre with my friends!oh yeah =)

Gotta cut my hair. I totally do not look like I'm serving NS. I'll still keep my fringe though. And I didn't wax my hair the entire week(except for night's out).

I realised no matter how many new friends I make, none of them can be as close as the CR gang.

As for it-which-I-shall-not-mention-any-more, I guess I dug my own grave unknowingly. And considering this was the first time I got the courage to chat up with some gal, it was such a failure on my part. But Life's not complete without love, so I'll keep trying. Never give up, because real men don't give up =)

Problem is, I'll never stop blaming myself.

I'll never give up on you. Never.

Is There Any Lower?

I'm lost at where I went wrong.

I'm hurt at the words I see.

I'm sorry that I didn't play my cards better.

I'm ashamed to hide the fact from my friends all because of my own reasons.

I'm angry that I screw it all for myself.

I'm frustrated I cannot simply convey feelings to other people easily.

I'm tired from getting up after taking so many blows in life.

I'm at the end of my perseverance and optimism.

I'm getting sick of all the failures in love.

I'm on the verge of giving up.

Fatal Misunderstandings

No wonder there was no reply. I dug my own grave just because I wanted to save my face in front of my frens, and now I'm just another idiot in her eyes.

Look guys, I actually did went to wait for her that night. I just didn't tell you guys because I knew you'd all think I'm just the biggest sucker in the world for going for a girl who i probably would never find(which you were all right, so go ahead and laugh). And for that I'm sorry. But I thought otherwise. I knew she wasn't the kind to pull some joke on me like that. I had hope that I would be able to find her in the crowd, so I rushed all the way and reached there at 9pm thinking I was late. Turned out I was early, and Butter was not even open yet. So I waited. When it opened, I paid admission ASAP and then waited at the staircase outside for her. I waited for 2 and a half hours until 11.30pm, hoping to spot her. But by then almost everyone has gone in, and there seemed to be nobody else. So I went into Fash one last time before walking back to raffles city. Ate my dinner (which I totally skipped to rush to butter factory) and went home to wonder where I went wrong in life.

Those words just keep coming back in my head...

Just hope she reads this post...

If you still hate me, I don't blame you. I feel the same way to myself right now.

Do you believe in second chances?

I did so much just to meet you,

yet all it took was one lie to send it all crumbling down.

The most ironic part?

I wasn't lying to you.

Bullets4MyValentine

This week was a bummer. It was totally tiring, with me doing all the work and looking after the trainees. Really relieved when I could book out today. The long weekend could help me relax.haha Hope the trainess won't feel so down about their life now, and endure to the end. There's just so much I could possibly do to make life less depressing for them right now, and my fellow specialists aren't really helping. "They are just scum." heh, it's the kettle calling the pot black if you ask me.

Dammit my iPod touch can't connect to the M1 hotspot. Really irritated right now. Possibly due to my lack of sleep plus the exhaustion from today's activities.

Maybe I'm just gonna gym and practise my bass guitar tmr.haha

Valentine's so near yet I'm alone. Is there somebody who still believes in love?

Je t'adore, Je t'adore
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose