S.I.S

Today was really boring. Fortunately got a taiwan drama to keep me entertained! "Hi My Sweetheart!" If only honest guys do get the girl in real life too...

Suffering in silence. Sure I don't know you yet, but I feel so...hurt just thinking about it.




Look for the girl with the broken smile,
Ask her if she want to stay a while.

Bang.

 

Behing the brick wall,
was another one.
:(

Growing ^

1st thing:yahoo!!!! :)))))))

2nd thing:realised i should apologize. Because my pride is nothing compared to my friends. Fuck it if I feel embarassed or whatever, but if I got to say sorry, just say it. I'm not the scared little boy from Toilet Kurau secondary.haha

Does my mom read my blog? She kept asking me if I was ok today on the phone o.o

I'm the happy boy with an emo aura I guess???

Wonder if my blog can reach 1000+ for this year...



Yet,
I still beat myself up inside,
For being ever so flawed.
:(

Full Throttle

Just woke up from an awesome nap! One problem though: how am I to sleep tonight?LOL

I plan to make my own tabs by ear. I'll use songs that have simple bass to practise, and get familiar with the different notes. Also, I'm learning from a friend how to practise singing, so that I can show the guys in the band to try out.

I wish I could rewind time.




Get on the line
For love,baby

I'm Not Over

Today my alarm did not go off!!! And because of that we had to rush this morning. Fortuantely we were not too late!

Nothing much today, mainly focused on today's simulator practice. And did a lot of thinking about the band, including band names. Trying to organise something next weekend but I was hoping for full strength. Need to go get some advices too.

My friend asked me what I'd want to work as in future, what job exactly would I enjoy doing. 2 words: world tour. If I could I'd not study and just focus on the band! Nothing I would love more. But my family have put in too much in my studies for me to drop out just like that. It would be like wasting their many years of effort. Maybe after university...

My sister ia going to get a DSLR! Some Canon one costing $1.5k!!! I agreed to pay some too, since I would not mind having one in the family. But my sister wants it way more than me. Future hobby? Who knows?Either way, YAHOOOO!

This is going to be there for a long time, whether anyone likes it or not.

Why can't I not find how I'm at wrong?

I'll talk more on my other blog. Cheers.



It's a new chapter.

Making A Comeback

OMG isn't she the cutest thing!!!

Well, I've got the blog and email for the band up! But there's still a lot to do. It's not going to be easy, but it's not going to fail either. And still need a band name. Plus, I don't like the current colours of that blog, but I do not have the time. Thanks Gwyen for making me realize how lost the band really is, and what we need to get back on track! 1 frap when you come back Singapore!LOL

Today was horrible. After returning from duty, instead of having my duty rest, I had to run around and do stuff. In the end, I only got to bathe in the evening. Imagine from Sunday night till then. Fortunately I did not stink. And finally I could take a nap! But somebody had to bother me and ask me to do some stupid stuff that did not need me -.-

Went gym today! And ran too!

Let's see...Friday off, next Monday, Wednesday to Friday off. Really need this break from everything.


Never took the chance
Could have jumped the fence
I was scared of my own two feet

Move On

Well, I plan to start taking the band more serious. Since nobody actually led us the past few months (or if anyone did it did not work), I'm going to start doing something about it. I'm done with standing one side and see it all fall apart. I'm going to make things happen. I plan to get us somewhere.


 
You were something,
Now you're nothing.

Insomnia

I was so troubled last night I only fell asleep at 3 plus last night...and once I end duty I have to go for NDP rehearsal. No time for rest. 3 hours of sleep...hope I just collapse :/

Last night I spent a lot of time thinking about the band. It was not going anywhere, and the thought of just giving up was so tempting. But I decided that I was not going to run away. And that won't make what I say next any easier.

We're a band. I'm not going to apologise for anything I said because I said nothing wrong. And I no longer give a fuck for an apology in return. But we are all a band. We have the people. We have the skills. We have the equipment. We have the potential. And right now our band is not progressing much. So if nobody wants to take the lead, I will. If we were sticking to just playing to ourselves, we should've invested in Guitar Hero or Rock Band instead.

I'm working with polar bears. I do not know how my operators sleep in a room with the air-conditioner at a low temperature! Even my toothpaste feels more solid than usual o.o And I went outside to sleep because of that. This morning when I felt ready to endure the freezing room, I went back in to sleep. But one of my new operators found his way to my bed. Cannot blame him; sleeping on the safari bed sucks. So here I am, sitting outside again, unable to catch up with sleep.

Really really need my coffee with you XD And coffee is especially needed right now to keep my eyes open.

Omg I know this is random but I was just watching a bollywood movie and though it's not my kind of movie, it was really amusing! In one scene a group of guys were playing some cards, then when some lady came in, they started doing their mass dance!!!Haha




See the world behind my wall.

Fuck Me.

1)I created Song Recommendations discussion for a reason. I don't have time to chase down Lisa for a reply just because she rarely replies on the thread.
2)What does "spamming songs I like" suppose to mean? You finding fault with my suggestions?
3)Just because the singers don't mind singing those songs, it's instantly a green light? Does any of our opinion actually matters? If we are a band, shouldn't we all agree on it together? That's the damn problem.
4)Out of all the songs we agreed on and play together, how many are those you all suggested? I bothered learning them because I agreed on them too. Love story, long shot, all those avril lavigne songs, you belong with me, give him up, behind these hazel eyes. So don't go all "i play what i like" fuck shit with me.
5)Is there a problem with me not feeling like playing the song? Maybe you guys have ultra interesting parts, but bass can get monotonous. But then again, MAYBE YOU ALL DON'T ACTUALLY GIVE A FUCK. I'm just the guy who makes the background sound in the song to make it sound nice.

You know what? FUCK EVERYONE. FUCK EVERYTHING. FUCK THE BAND. The worst part? I FEEL LIKE FUCKING MY DAMN SELF THE MOST.

I want to be left alone for a while...



There's the door.
You all can exit my life.

DeviantART!

Wow I'm in love! With DeviantART! Now that I start uploading stuff, I feel like taking more photos and editing to put up and share! Niceeeeee :)

I'm so bored that I even do a small post on this.

Just woke up from my nap. Dreamt I was in L4D. In some urban area, at night, raining heavily. It would be an awesome map to have. Me and the other survivors had to get across a small bridge and close the gate behind us. We went past a ruined playground and was chased by a horde.



I'd never sing of love
if it does not exist.
But you are
The only exception.

"It's like breaking up."

Well, looks like we will not be jamming for 3 weeks or so. And I have to say...it is quite depressing. Every weekend I use to look forward to jamming because it was awesome to play together. But it was fun only when we played together. Sometimes, when seeing us play together, I cannot help but smile to myself. It feels great to jam together.

But like a couple who ran out of connections between themselves, we are falling apart. We are learning different songs, songs of different genre, Jeff and Lisa doing some "acoustic duo", not having full strength 95% of the time...maybe my hope of our band making it big was just that: a dream. We are of different frequencies now. Why play songs that bore me, or sit one side and watch you guys play? I'm a band member, not a band dog. I don't see Pete Wentz sitting one corner rotting for any songs. Yet without jamming on weekends I do not know what to do with this new free time. It's like I just lost something. It's like breaking up. You feel so lost, not sure how to move on. Maybe I should play for another band for the time being. Cheeseburgers is not really going anywhere right now. Maybe ever :/ Faith=All time low.

Want to do more photo editing!!!

Doing duty while everyone is at home...I'm going to take the whole of next week off.


It's not over until it's over.

Iron Man 2!

Iron Man 2 was great! And like the first movie, you need to stay until after credits for some extra stuff. But it was really nothing much, seriously. And the credits was super long -.- Also, you'll only understand that small bit if you read comics, like me. Great movie nonetheless! I think the War Machine guy looks like L4D's Louis XD

After that went jamming. And for once, I disliked jamming. I literally rot most of the time. We only played 4 songs as a band? Maybe we should check up the definition of "band" in the dictionary. If this goes on what's the point? I can't even bother to upload today's photos.

Was playing around with some photos and editor! I uploaded them on Facebook, not many though. Here's one:

If ends do not meet,
Why bother meeting at all?

Drink Drank Drunk Drown

Swimming yesterday was rather fun! Jeff, Kenny and CR came over to my place to swim! We were so bored we came up with so many lame things. The best was scaring the pigeons. Jeff only managed to scare one pigeon the entire day. I recorded one of the failed attempts, which was hilarious! And you guys got what you wanted: my neighbour came down to swim!LOL Wonder what happened to the ice-cream...

Had dinner at KFC and lan after that. Wanted to stop lanning by midnight but we played to 1:30am -.- And L4D got so pointless because there was totally zero hope. Why waste my time?

Iron Man 2 today!

Forgotten memories and broken love



I'll bite.
And I don't hold back.

Come&Go

Well, I lost her faster than I got her. With only her name, I cannot find her on Facebook. That is, if it was her real name. But she did not seem like she was giving a fake name. Or maybe I just trust people too easily :( My first ever approaching a girl to chat and I fail. Oh well...

In the end, gym and soccer is a no-go.

My friend's band is just awesome! They are already making an album!Wow.



She needs her own space
She's playing mind games.

Aching Arms

I woke up at 2am this morning, for reasons I fail to comprehend. I just felt...awake. Took me some time to fall asleep again.

I woke up at 6:30am feeling really really tired. And my forearms are aching like crazy. It's the kind of pain I felt on my legs when I was young, which my mom called "growing pain". She said the legs were growing, the bones growing or something. But why would my arms suddenly grow longer now? I don't recall anything I did yesterday to pinpoint as the source of this pain...

I realise finding her is really hard only with her name... Maybe that was the point all along?




I'm losing my favourite game,
You're losing your mind again.