MEMOIRS OF A BUTLER

THE FIRST TIME I LAID MY EYES ON YOU AT STGCC, APART FROM THINKING YOU WORKED AT A MEIDO CAFE, I THOUGHT YOU LOOKED PRETTY. SO PRETTY THAT IN FACT, I DIDNT WANT TO TAKE A PHOTO WITH YOU BECAUSE I DIDN'T THINK YOU'D EVER NOTICE OR REMEMBER ME. I FELT OUT OF MY LEAGUE BECAUSE YOU LOOKED REALLY ATTRACTIVE. MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU WANTED TO TAKE A PHOTO WITH ME, AGAIN WHEN YOU ASKED FOR MY COSCARD. MY HEART SANK WHEN I DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO PASS YOU, THINKING THAT FATE HAD YET AGAIN PULLED A PRANK ON ME BY LETTING ME GET SO CLOSE TO KNOWING THIS GIRL AND YET NEVER BE ABLE TO CONTACT HER EVER AGAIN.

BUT I GUESSED WRONG. I HAD THAT CARD IN MY WALLET AND I GAVE IT TO YOU. WHEN YOU ADDED ME ON FACEBOOK I WAS ELATED; YOU THANKED ME FOR ACCEPTING AND I REPLIED. THE END. BUT I WANTED TO CHAT WITH YOU. SO FOR DAYS, I WAITED FOR THAT PHOTOGRAPHER FRIEND OF YOURS (WHO WAS IN FACT SHAN RUI), TO UPLOAD THE PHOTO OF US, FOR ME TO USE AS MY PROFILE PICTURE AND TO USE THE OPPORTUNITY TO TALK TO YOU. AND FINALLY THE DAY CAME, AND I TOOK THE CHANCE TO START A CONVERSATION WITH YOU, OPENING WITH ASKING IF I COULD USE THE PHOTO SINCE YOUR FACE WAS ON IT(I ASKED SHAN RUI TOO AFTER THAT OF COURSE).

FROM THERE OUR CHATTING BEGAN. IT STARTED POLITELY, AND THEN WE JUST WENT CRAZY. SOMEHOW, I STARTED TO FOLLOW YOUR CHATTING STYLE. AND AS WE TALKED WE SHARED OUR INTERESTS, FROM PERSONA 3 TO OTHER STUFF SUCH AS PIZZA AND MOVIES. MANY A TIME WE WOULD THINK OF THE SAME THINGS, AND I WOULD WONDER HOW FORTUNATE I WAS TO MEET SOMEONE WHO WAS SO MUCH IN SYNC WITH ME.

AND SOON OUR CHATS BECAME SOMETHING I LOOKED FORWARD TO EVERY DAY, AND I STARTED TO DEVELOP FEELINGS FOR YOU. I DIDN'T SAY IT, I DIDN'T SHOW IT. OR AT LEAST, I THINK I DIDN'T. I WONDERED IF MY HEART WAS PLAYING TRICKS ON ME, BUT I DID A SPOT CHECK. I ENJOYED EVERY MOMENT SPENT TALKING TO YOU, I THINK ABOUT CHATTING WITH YOU WHEN WE WERE NOT, AND I WOULD FEEL A SMALL TINGE OF JEALOUSY WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT OTHER GUYS OR WITH THEM. WAS I REALLY FALLING FOR YOU?

I NEVER DID "STALK" YOUR PROFILE UNTIL I KNEW YOU BETTER, AND WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU ALSO HAD "STALK" MINE. I COULD SEE POSTS BY YOU THAT WERE RELATED TO ME AND YET I DIDN'T WANT TO SAY ANYTHING TO MAKE IT STOP. I... ENJOYED BEING FANGIRLED BY YOU. AND I LOOKED AT YOUR PHOTOS AND PREVIOUS POSTS TOO.

AS WE CONTINUED CHATTING I STARTED TO GET MORE BOLD, PLAYFULLY SAYING THINGS TO YOU THAT SEEMED FLIRTY. I WANTED TO "TEST WATER", AND YOU SEEMED NOT TO MIND. SOON I FELT THAT MAYBE THINGS WOULD BE POSSIBLE BETWEEN US, AND THE PHOTOSHOOT WAS A GOOD OPPORTUNITY TO MAKE MY MOVE. IT TOOK A WHILE, BUT I FINALLY DECIDED TO ASK YOU OUT FOR AFTER THE SHOOT. I FEARED YOU MIGHT HAVE FINISHED FANGIRL-ING OVER ME, WHICH MEANT YOU WOULD REJECT ME.

AND YET YOU SAID YES. AND EVERYTHING, AS WE KNOW, IS HISTORY. SO IF AFTER ALL THESE, AND YOU THINK I WOULD GET TIRED OF YOU AND RUN OFF WITH SOME OTHER GIRL, THEN I WOULD SAY IT WOULD BE A BLESSING IN DISGUISE BECAUSE YOU SHOULDN'T DESERVE A CHEATING SCUMBAG LIKE ME.