Nope, this isn't an emo post. Nope.

So life's recently been quite sucky for me. I'm trying to distract myself with other things in life, to keep out the one thing that matters in my life the most, to stop thinking of the pain and emptiness I feel inside. One year ago, I told myself never to get into a relationship because in the end, it fails and hurts me so much. Well, hooray for me for not heeding my own advice. I love her, but apparently she no longer feels the same way.

I've been trying to cope with this, and to at least keep it together. And yet now she treats me like I'm invisible, totally shunning me away, ignoring me. Life's cruel, and love can be a bitch too. But I love her too much to want anyone else but her, and I'm just going to have to do other things in life while waiting for her to be ready again. I don't want this to end. I don't want to lose someone who I hold so dear.

But enough of the emo stuff. Let's see what I've been doing this holiday to try to distract me from the sad truth of reality. I've downloaded loads of shows to watch, just to spend my time and keep me happy (temporarily). I've Xiao Lin Showdown (which I heard that a new series is coming out), The Office (US version), Teen Titans, and Young Justice. I did download a few movies too, just to give them a shot.

I think the thing that I'm most thrilled about is the new trailer and news for the Persona 3 movie! Totally fanboy-ing over this awesome game (which came out in 2006) and finally gets 2-3 movies (this is #1)!!! Totally psyched for it, and I'm going to be cosplaying as the protagonist again this year at events just to express my love for the game! I was suppose to cosplay with her as Yukari, but because of recent... stuff,  I'm cosing alone again. All the wonderful scenes I had hope to do... all gone.