Aching All Over

Phew! Tired! Went to gym and rock climb again today, while still aching a bit from Tuesday's session! I'm gonna ache all over tomorrow!

Everyone's bitching about mid-terms, and it seems I'm not the only one who feels screwed! Woots!

I wore my Baby Milo T-shirt, the one with Mario and Luigi on it. Somebody wanted to pass me the attendance list in class and called me "Baby Milo"! LOL

Wanna DJ for the Raveyard event! It's an SMU halloween event! Gotta practice my DJ-ing skills!

I admit, there are times where I think about her. Smile my sadness away ;)

Helped a pretty girl today! Should have totally chat her up! Damn! haha

Facebook Timeline

Some of you may have already heard of it; I have. The new Facebook Timeline, which totally changes your Facebook profile page layout. Really super cool! What I like about it is the fact that it makes your profile feel more... personal. Plus, you can see your activities on Facebook as far back as when you first started using it! This is so awesome! And it means you can stalk people to way back too!

It's officially coming out early next month, but if you want it now just let me know and I'll send you the link! :D

A Rather Quick Update

Wanted to blog but I'm hooked on Facebook! Basically my friend showed me this cool thing that I could install onto Facebook, which is supposedly coming out in future. But it makes your profile look damn cool now! Here's some screenshots!

Mid-terms were murder. But, life goes on!

Downloaded the whole of Spider-man: The Animated Series, all 5 seasons! Used the school internet to torrent! :D

Looking forward to Anime Festival Asia 2011! And end of year's Bangkok trip! ^.^

New MixPod List!

Hey all, I've added new songs to my MixPod list on my blog! Here's a list of songs currently in my list! "Saturday" by Basshunter and below are all added only a few minutes ago! Enjoy!

Little Bad Girl by David Guetta
Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO
Shots by LMFAO
Last Friday Night by Katy Perry
You Make Me Feel by Cobra Starship
Top of the World by The Cataracs
Angel by Akon
Dirty Talk by Wynter Gordon
Wet by David Guetta & Snoop Dogg
Sucks To Be You by Clinton Sparks
Champagne Showers by LMFAO
Dirty Dancer by Enrique Iglesias Feat.Usher
Stereo Love by Edward Maya
Welcome To St. Tropez (DJ Antoine vs Mad Mark Radio Edit) by DJ Antoine vs Timat
Take Over Control by Afrojack
Don't Stop The Party by Black Eyed Peas
Don't Wanna Go Home by Jason Derulo
Hello by Martin Solveig
In The Dark(Remix) by Dev ft. Kayne West
Mr. Saxo Beat by Alexandra Stan
Dirty Houe Music by Guiletta
Glad You Came by The Wanted
International Love by Pitbull
Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5
Super Bass by Nicki Minaj
Boomerang by DJ Felli Fel
We No Speak Americano by Yolando Be Cool & DCUP
Saturday by Basshunter
One More Time by Daft Punk
One Night in Bangkok by Vinyl Shakerz
Satisfaction by Benny Benassi
I Like That by Static Revenger
Danza Kuduro by Fast Five
Sweet Dreams by Eurythmics
Party All Night by Sean Kingston
Bring The Noise (Pump-kin Remix) by Benny Benassi & Public Enemy
Superstar by David May
Bomba by Jessy Matador
Remedy by Little Boots
Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger by Daft Punk
Rolling In the Deep by Adele
California Dreaming by Benny Benassi

*Note: some of these are remixes, like Rolling In the Deep!

Be Strong

Poor Richie. In a way, he is kinda in the same scenario as me. But like I told him, there's always a girl out there who deserves how much effort you put in for her. That's what I feel. I find it ridiculous when a girl tells me, "You're a great guy" or "You're really nice and sweet" but end up saying she doesn't like me. Either you are a liar or you must really want a lousy boyfriend. Save those stupid lines for a sucker who'd believe that.

I mean, sure, I admit, I miss those moments. I miss her smile, I miss those beautiful eyes of hers which I can get lost in, that familiar nice smell of her hair, and that warm feeling when she reaches out and touches my hand. Really, I miss her. But hey! Wake up! Something went wrong along the way, and she probably lost interest in me. So I shall not put in so much effort. If she doesn't want to reply my SMSes, so be it. If she doesn't want to even see my face, so be it. I'm not some dog, always at the beck and call of some girl. At least respect me as a person. I believe that there's a girl who will appreciate all the things I do for her! :)

LTB quiz today! Totally didn't study for it, except for an hour before the lesson. Did the paper in 10mins, slept the rest of the time!

The graduation gig for my DJ workshop is cancelled! Damn sad :(

And what the fuck. You block me on Facebook just because he is my close friend? Bitch!

HAHAHAHA

Long since I blogged! 2 days? Okay, I'll do a quick one before I go to sleep!

Hmmm can't really remember what I did the past few days, so I'll just type whatever that comes to mind!

HIMYM season 7 is out! So happy! And two episodes! :)

Running low in cash :(

Biz Law mid-terms next Monday. So screwed!!! Bet I'll get lowest in class!

There was presentation today for Management Communications, and each student is suppose to present on the powerpoint slide they are assigned to. I only went to open mine to prepare half an hour before the lesson, so yea... procrastination FTW! haha Managed to smoke my way through!

Wanted to go toilet from the library, and got stopped by this lady. I thought she was a student, but she said "youngsters these days" so I assume she's old? Anyway, she approached me and said she was going to have bible studies in the evening. I thought I heard wrongly and asked her to repeat. I mean, what stranger will suddenly approach you and announce that he or she is going for bible studies? Super random! She repeated herself, and I confirmed that I did hear correctly. And, how am I suppose to reply to such a statement? Simple. "So?"

Then she asked if I could join in, asked if I believe in God and read the bible, saying youngsters these days have so much troubles... all with that crazy eyes gleaming in worship. I swear, my face was showing two different things: 1)I thought that this was seriously ridiculous and 2)I couldn't be bothered. So I was trying to look interested, yet I was grinning at how lame this was. I wonder what my resulting facial expression was. Anyway, I quickly shook her off because I really, really needed to take a dump. Talk about divine intervention.

Stupid 80-year-old man. I can come up with 20 replies to shoot you down. Like, "At least I'll still be around in 20 years".haha

DJ-ing was quite sad, because someone went to take the equipment, so we couldn't practice for our graduation performance. Speaking of which, I better let my friends know!haha

I still think of her, actually. The back of several girls remind me of her, and a small part of me feels sad. But I need to be strong and confident, never falter!

Recently went to catch up with Hanasaku Iroha, and I got to say, I'm enjoying it! And to fall in love... sigh! And Tiger&Bunny has ended! So sad! Waiting for season 2!

Gonna Stand Back Up

Watched Johnny English yesterday with Eric and YH! I nearly bought the small B&J ice cream, which costs $5, but Eric stopped me. I'm not sure why, but recently I've been craving ice cream and more food. Maybe because of heartache? haha

The movie was funny, definitely. To see Rowan Atkinson's character screw up so badly and in such an embarrassing manner is just hilarious! But they seem to run out of jokes in the second half, which is not too bad. The story was average, but I watch the movie for the humor, so I'm not really bothered by that. Definitely worth watching!

There was this one seat that was meant to be occupied at the end of the row when we went in. And I was wondering who would come watch a movie alone. As slim the chance may be, I hoped that it would be a girl. Just hope for fun. But of course, it's a guy. And I totally see why he has nobody to watch movie with.

That guy's elbow and legs were getting into my personal space. I had to rest my elbow on the armrest to make sure he doesn't come over. And he laughs out loud during the funny parts. Like, seriously LOL until I get irritated. He even talked to himself a couple of times. Kind of spoiled the movie for me a little.

Another reason why I did not totally enjoyed the movie was because she was on my mind. She did not reply my SMSes or answer my calls. So I thought I should apologize properly. Bought quite a bit of stuff to give. Unfortunately, she wasn't home last night, it seems, so I thought I could meet her today. Brought the stuff to school, and thankfully my friend has a locker to spare. But again, she never replied my SMS again, and my friend told me something:

"Don't bother... She hasn't done anything to deserve it."

That kind of woke me up a bit. She and I are suppose to be "just friends", and I'm going the extra mile for her. Yet, she isn't responsive. Literally. That made me realize that I should definitely not do so much for her. Not anytime soon. Only guys in a relationship should go so far for the girl. Heck, I'm not sure she even feels anything for me at all.

So I get back on my feet, enjoy the company of my friends, enjoy my hobbies and interests, and regardless of whether she wants to reply my messages, I'm going to get on with life. Because nobody is worth spending my time emo-ing and dwelling about. I've suffered long enough. It's time to think about myself a little. A little more me, a little less you. I'm my own man, I've a life ahead of me, I'm going to be a better person :)

Nap time! haha

Transformers War For Cybertron (PC) Review

I recently got into the game again when I bought the novel that was related to the game, and thought I'd give a review of it! Mine is the PC version, so I'm not sure how much the consoles version deviates. I only know that DLC packs are only available for console versions T.T No Shockwave for PC version...

Graphics-wise, this game impresses. The detailing is really good, be it the characters or the environment. The cinematics look so good, you actually wished that these were the movie rather than Micheal Bay's films. Don't get me wrong! His films are nice, but this game is definitely a good competitor. I love Soundwave the most, well, second to Optimus Prime. In fact he looks so cool, yet maintaining his G1 look, that I decided to purchase the toy! If you look closely at the back of Megatron and Optimus Prime (not sure about the others), you'll see their respective factions' logos on their backs, which shifts once in a while. That's pretty cool, if you ask me. My only issue is the lip sync of the cinematics. But, small issue.

The plot is not new to Transformers fans. Optimus Prime rises up as leader of the Autobots, while Megatron decides to reign over Cybertron. The story is really good and easy for people new to the Transformers world to digest, making it rather appealing. Another thing is that the story tries to bring in as many known characters as it can, from Optimus Prime to Skywarp and even the huge Omega Supreme! All it needs is a Unicron to make Transformers fans die in heaven.

Since I'm talking about characters, I'll go a bit further about this point. You can to play a wide range of characters, such as Bumblebee, Ratchet, Jetfire, Starscream, etc. I'm pretty sure Devastator was not in the game (sorry I played the game quite some time back), although that would be cool. He's the bad-ass gestalt that I want to use or battle with. For every character you can customize what two weapons to carry, and every character has their own buffs. Like a Transformer, you can transform. And I enjoyed using the aerial bots the most. Imagine running towards a cliff, jumping off it, and transforming into a jet before blasting off. Wicked.

Gameplay is quite okay. I wouldn't say it is fantastic. You have a melee attack which is actually quite pathetic. I'd rather keep my distance and blast the guy. It's not like the melee is very damaging. So why bother? And the enemy units get rather repetitive. They are either the small, easy-to-own kind, or the big irritating buggers that only serves to waste your time and health. Your AI allies are for decoration, honestly. They hardly do much damage, and enemies seldom focus their attention on your allies. It's frustrating to have Trypticon blasting at me all the way while my AI allies pathetically try to help me assault him. Or at least, I think they were shooting him. The only use I found for them was for me to melee them while stoning in the elevators, or generally anywhere.

Was there soundtracks in the game? Er.. not that I know of, so let's skip that.

I've not tried the multiplayer modes, but I plan to try them once I re-install this game! When I do, I'll update this review.

I'm not sure what else I should add about the game. But as a whole, this game pleases both hardcore Transformers fans and newcomers alike. Good story, awesome graphics, nice gameplay... go get the game if you haven't gotten it! Or borrow from a friend! Or download. Don't worry, I bought mine :)

Only Hear The Good Stuff

I honestly think my mom has reached that stage in life. 45-50? That's when women get reeeeeeally cranky and all. Now, some of you may see me as a jerk for talking about my mom like that, but I'm merely saying it as I see it.

I go to school to study. I stay in school after lessons to study. Because I know that I cannot study at home. But no, she insists that I'm going to school just to hang out. Firstly, I study. Secondly, I tend to study alone. Thirdly, just because I like a girl, doesn't mean I'm in school just because I'm hanging out with her. Please. I haven't met her for a whole week.

So go ahead. Unplug my computer. Throw my bag. Threaten to stop paying for my education. Smash my phone. Take away my house keys and expect me to come back 10pm every night.

I've learned how to tune her voice out.

Anyone got place I can crash? Gotta get out of here.

I know I seem really screwed up these days, but seriously, right now I've some family issues to settle. I'll blog again when Life gets better.

Haha. FML.

Feeling Bad

When I see the photos of her out with her friends last night(I wasn't stalking, FYI -.- It's called news feed), and seeing her nice smile in the photos, I realized what a jerk I am. My blog probably spoiled her mood last night, when she should be having fun with her friends.  Because of me, her night was ruined. She's only 19, she has friends, a life, and she should be happy. All I did was make her life so complicated for her, and if not for me she'd be a happier person right now. I feel so bad and selfish, to be affecting her life. All I want is to make her happy, to be there when she needs someone, to hear her problems, to share mine, to make sure nobody will break her heart ever again.

But all I did was make her sad. All I did was make her feel so complicated. I read her Facebook posts. I know. Gut instinct.

All I did was be the villain in the story :(

Whenever people ask me things like "How many pretty girls in your school?" or "Any hot girls in your class", the first thing that comes to mind is her. I'd always give them the answer, "There's only one." I honestly never really bothered to look around at the girls in SMU, no matter how pretty they are said to be. I just... don't feel like looking. I only want to look at her. Her flawless beauty... Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, readers, so zip it.haha

All I can say is: sorry for spoiling your day, and for screwing up :(

I don't blame her for being pissed. In fact, I pretty much hate myself for it right now.

I actually got half the mind to just remove this entire blog. All I do is hurt people and sabo myself.

FML, really. Don't need to sleep tonight.

Eh Eh

Guys, I typed wrongly. She did NOT play with my feelings. I typed it wrongly. So if anyone wants to judge her, you gotta go through me first.

And, I feel so fucked up right now for that typo :(

Bad Phrasing

I need to write down my thoughts properly. I FUCKING FAIL :(

A simple SMS from her makes me happy. How can I bear to just forget about her?

Yet, my spirits get shot down fast.

Talk to me. Because I've been trying to. So hard.

Don't Get It Wrong!

For those who read the post "Turning Up A Smile", which is 2 posts ago, please don't misunderstand! She didn't play with my feelings or anything. She simply decided that I'm not her kind of guy, it seems. It's just that I never met a girl as good as her, so I'm taking this pretty hard.

Saw her at school just now. And honestly, she didn't seem too happy to see me :( What did I do wrong?

Note: Update the Mixpod on my blog soon!haha

Updating

Note to self: Add a tag "emo" for my emo posts! haha

Another note to self:

Met with the guys yesterday for supper. Ate $5 char siew rice! Awesome! Dropped Jeff off before going to buy ice cream. Somehow it was meant for me to drown my sorrows, even though I don't usually do that. You tend to only see such scenarios on television. But then it was nice to go East Coast Park, eat ice cream and just let out all my thoughts. All my worries and thoughts about and of the one that (most probably) got away.

Went home, suppose to sleep because I was feeling exhausted, but I went to on my computer and ended up sleeping at 4 plus in the morning. Woke up at 11 plus this morning! When I should be leaving house for school at 10am! haha

Went to Plaza Singapura to check out the toy shops at the top floor, which kind of made me happier, and went to buy a Transformers novel, which is related to the War For Cybertron game! Happy splurge :)

Went to look through my view counts for my blog just now, and I saw 2 posts that hit up to 300 plus views! That may be considered little, but compared to my usual 3-4 views per post, that is such a big number! So of course I'm happy! Cheap thrills.haha

I want to buy CR's iPad if and when he decides to buy an iPad 2/3!hahaha I just need an alternative for my laptop on days that I don't really need laptop. Also, because I'm saving up for iPhone 5, I don't want to spend money on a brand new, latest iPad!

The DC reboot is better than anticipated!haha

Counting down to the new season of HIMYM! 2 more days! :))))

Turning Up A Smile

Hey everyone! I know it's been long since I last blogged, and I know it's going to be quite shitty to read this new post, because instead of talking about what's been going on in life since the last post, I'm going to rant and emo here.haha As much as I don't want to, I feel like I should just pen type it down, to share with everyone but most importantly, as a reminder of this when I look back in future.

The Start
This story is about a girl. A girl who most of you (kinda) know through my blog, or because I shared with you personally. She is, to me, the most amazing girl I've ever met, and while it took me some courage and recklessness to make the first move, we hit off pretty well. And for a short time, life was great. Like, seriously.


"I know that you are something special
  To you I'd be always faithful
  I want to be what you always needed
  Then I hope you'll see the heart in me"
~ Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul



Turning Point
Soon after, everything went downhill. I have to admit, it was kinda my fault. I was too... proactive, in a sense I was pressuring her and she felt that she couldn't reciprocate those feelings I have for her. So we decided to be just friends first and see how things go.


"Last night I knew what to say but you weren't there to hear it
  These lines so well rehearsed, tongue-tied and overloaded
  You never notice..."
~ The Academy Is... - About A Girl



Insecurity
It's not easy for me, at least. I'm not sure about her. In fact, right now I don't know anything with what's going on with her right now. She rarely replies my messages, she always seem so busy to study together, and I almost never get a chance to go back home with her. And she recently went out with a guy. He asked her out and she agreed. Why should I be bothered? We two are, after all, just friends. Maybe she's hanging out with another guy right now. I just don't know.


"And I just can't look it's killing me
  And taking control."
~ The Killers - Mr. Brightside



Torment
But I can't. I still like her a lot. I don't know if she knows it. Maybe that little amount of "like" she has for me is already gone. When she was troubled recently, which my gut instinct told me it had to do with her ex (plus him posting a  "<3" on her Facebook wall), I had problem sleeping that night. You know how you see in shows where a person's mind gets so distorted and screwed up that his mind is muddled? I felt the same way. Kind of between my mind being flushed in a toilet bowl, and unable to think properly after taking too much alcohol. I couldn't think properly, only about the possibility that she and the ex end up getting back together. I had problem sleeping that night, and when I did, all I dreamed of was about her and her ex patching up. Woke up feeling fucked up.



"What am I suppose to do
  When the best part of me was always you and
  What am I suppose to say
  When I'm all choked up and you're okay"
~The Script - Breakeven




Sucker Punch
Last night I had another dream about her, but this one was better. A nicer one. One where she was standing beside me, a smile across her face. This wasn't the first one. A few nights back there was another one, where we went out for Korean BBQ. And the thing about nice dreams is that when you wake up, you not only realize it's all not real, but also that in reality fate would do the total opposite. Like my gut instinct, my particular belief about dreams has always been true. Have a good dream about getting something, and in reality, it will never be within your grasp. So I wake up with that crappy realization hitting me hard.


"I am in misery
  There ain't nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah
  Why won't you answer me?
  The silence is slowly killing me, oh yeah"
~ Maroon 5 - Misery



Depressed
To sum up all that stuff I just said, this is actually killing me from the inside. It sucks, and my friends have been telling me to just move on, to find other girls. Casual dating was a suggestion. If she can go date other people, so can you. Thing is, she is the only girl in my mind, so even if I do go out with another girl, my heart will always be with her. Sure, I can try to move on and totally forget about her, but it'll take a very, very long time. I want to just wait and see how things go, but doing so is making me emo. I feel so lost, so helpless, not sure where to go at this juncture.


"I pictured I could bring you back
  I pictured I could turn back time
  'cause I can’t let go
  I just can’t find my way"
~ Simple Plan - Perfect World




Waking Up
Which brings me to the main reason why I'm blogging this, actually. Because I'm feeling so emo, I've been less cheerful and all around my friends and others. I shut out everyone and simply dwell about this. In a way, I was being a mood killer. Then, today at a Times bookstore, I went to purchase a book. The cashier, like how all cashiers are trained, served me with a smile. She settled my purchase with a warm smile. She asked if I was a member, and, in my emo state, I merely gave a shake of my head. If I was feeling okay, I'd say "No, thanks." with a smile. I mean, if someone was being nice and polite to me,  I'd do the same. But I didn't, and all because I was feeling emo. That's when I realized I needed to wake up.

Growing Up
I'm not going to simply just forget about her and move on. She's too perfect to me to just give up on. I want to keep trying until I'm really face-down in the dirt, then do I admit defeat. I'm still feeling lost, frustrated and emo about it. But at the same time, I'm not going to dwell and be emo about it too much, because the people around me don't deserve this. I'm going to get up on my feet and continue my life, because I've got a future and great people around me.

I'm going to be a better person.

Ink

Feel like getting a tattoo on my back. Like, seriously! :D

The Start Of Stress

Wow. Today's lessons were... demoralising. It's like they planned to suddenly bomb us this week by taking things up a notch! The modules are getting tougher, like it isn't tough enough. Looks like I got to really hit the books!

Been downloading remixes from Youtube! Can't wait to try them out at DJ 101 tomorrow! :)

Not sure if I mentioned before, but I lost $20 bucks when I drew it from the OCBC ATM machine recently. I suspect I somehow left it at the machine. Fail. Anyway, I think the bank "returned" it to me because today I got a letter saying $20 has been put into my account!LOL

Life's a roller coaster ride
Full of ups and downs

Tuition!

Just registered to teach tuition. I need money! hahaha

Crappy Day

Basically, my entire day is spoiled because my mom just had to piss me off. "Where you going?" "Doing what?" "With who?" "One person or a group?" "Until what time?" Maybe you guys can take this kind of thing, but I seriously can't.

And because of that, I had no mood to jam or study. And that resulted in jamming being rather... dull today. Sorry guys :(

I didn't want to go home so early, so I went to cut my hair(although there isn't much change), and went Teo Heng alone to just sing for 2 hours. I just wanted to sing out my frustration and sian-ness. Unfortunately there were no free rooms D: Bummer.

In a nutshell, today was definitely not my day.

Still got Biz Law stuff to read up, but I'm going to take a nap first! :D

Friday Fun

I was suppose to go for this workshop that I signed up for yesterday evening. 2 sessions for $30, to learn how to use a program for making your own music. I decided to back out because I was kind of lazy to go for it, and for that price... I think I'll stick to DJ-ing first.

DJ-ing has been pretty fun! I'm trying to come up with a list, and that involves finding out where to drop the songs onto each other to make the mix flow smoothly!

I've never heard anyone sing so well before :) Of course, that just makes mine look even more pathetic :(

Went to Sashti's house to meet up! Sorry for being late! And it was quite sad that only 4 of us could make it, but we had fun nonetheless! His spicy popcorn chicken was awesome! Beats the one sold in school!

Going to school later to study the whole day. Biz Law, I shall not admit defeat! Rawr!

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are

~ Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

Crazy Old Man

Yesterday I was on the way to school, and I was waiting at this traffic light to cross. Across the street was this old man on his bicycle, with some cardboard boxes strapped to his bicycle. He was one of those guys who strapped a lot of weird nonsense to their bicycles, like soft toys, etc. So there I was, waiting, when I noticed the old man doing some action. He kept using his hand to comb down his fringe, and I realized he was signalling to me. Probably because of the style of my hair. Now, my body is facing across the street, so I'm looking in front, and I don't have much option but to look at him. And when I looked at him, he'd show me the finger. And he kept on doing that. I pretended I didn't notice, and continued to ignore him. When it was finally green man, we crossed our respective sides. But he stopped his bicycle in the middle of the road and kept pointing the middle finger at me. I chose to ignore and walk off. At that point of time I was wondering if he would come and attack me. Some friends said that they would beat the crap out of that old geezer, but I choose to just ignore. He's probably just... crazy. And if the police sees me beating up an  old man, surely I'll be the one in more trouble. But, if that guy did lay a hand on me, I would have definitely raged all over him. "Self defense" + "Offense makes the best defense" ;)

Went to McDonalds to buy lunch during the break yesterday! Only problem was that I forgot to ask for ketchup or chilli, hence the fries tasted so... plain. Forced most of the fries down, but gave up and threw away the rest :(

Also, I found out that school library had these solo study cubicles at the quiet area to study! Now I can go there whenever I've no friends to study with! I feel a bit slow for only realizing it in week 4.

I've never knew eating bread crumb chicken with spaghetti could be so filling D: Nearly died finishing it yesterday.

Feeling The Pressure

It's week 4 and I'm starting to feel the pressure of school! And I think I'm somehow ,slowly but surely, becoming a mugger. Look at my mentality! If I've nothing to do -> Go school and study. Die die I should go join more CCAs or something to reduce studying time! Just kidding.

My mods are more or less okay, I guess, with the only major thing so far being the community service project for my LTB. But Business Law is my main worry. So... Law-sy T.T And the professor enjoying rushing through quickly just to ensure everything is covered within his allocated time.

And I realize my 12pm-3:15pm are quite bad because they are smacked right in the middle of lunchtime. So I've to have either late or early lunch, which is quite a bummer.

Went to sign up for another DJ workshop! Really want to practice my DJ-ing skills...

Life's Funny

How easily I went from :( to :)

Nice Guys Finish Last

*****Warning: I'm depressed when I wrote this, so pardon the emo post*****

If I'm such a great guy as they say, why do they reject me? Obviously something is wrong with me.

I always give 100%, and it's all failure.

How do I find someone else when the perfect one turns me down? Any other would just be sub-standard to me.

Of course, I don't plan to let this sadness affect my life. I'm gonna try to be my happy self outside. Sadness like this, is best to keep within.

Don't get me wrong. It's not her fault. She didn't toy with me. It's just, I'm not of her "type". I don't know what it is I'm lacking, but it seems I do lack something. I'm not angry at her or anyone. Maybe I am, to myself.

I always treat girls' hearts with such care for fear of hurting them, at the cost of mine. I get mine hurt time and time, but I tell myself it's okay. I tell myself to get up and try again. I tell myself never give up. But I think I've no heart left to break, for any more girls.


I think I'm done chasing. I'm done hurting myself like that. I'm done with that familiar gut instinct that tells me that bad news is coming.

I'm done for.


I want to just scream in frustration. I want to just cry of sadness. I want to just try to move on.

If only you weren't so perfect in my eyes
Then maybe the pain would be less

All Time Low

I hate my gut instincts. They are always right, and when they are, it is always bad :(

Dying To DJ

Today turned out better than I anticipated!

Sure, I went to school facing the fact that I won't be seeing her the entire day, but fate had other plans! :)

Of course, it meant I didn't go climbing, but it was okay :D

Her friend went to purchase the iPhone without her even getting to see the phone itself. I was rather pissed off by that. Fucking stupid. And to think he's older than me -.-

I'm finally having some proper homework to do! Like, about time. Saturday = Make-up class. Sian. But, she's in my class! :)

I <3 DJ-ing. Cannot wait to practice tomorrow, even if it's for a while! Half-hour is still better than nothing!