Boredom Is Routine

Well, what I did today can be counted with one hand.1st, i went to collect my bass guitar and the toys(the toys have been there for 1 year alr).2nd, i slept.that about sums it up.haha

Not getting the M1 hotspot any more because the $15 plan doesn't apply to the MiFi modem...cheapest for it is $35...damn. Looks like no surfing net in camp...

my computer speakers are down, and i've to use some old speakers that dropped my music quality A LOT.

Every sunday when i book into camp i have only one aim: reach friday asap.i think that will still be applied when i work in the long future, because i'm sure eventually life would become monotonous and dull.

well, looks like my frens have plans arranged for the gang to meet up de next 3 weekends(save CNY weekend)

speaking of CNY i was never really fond of CNY.There may be several reasons to this:

1)I simply hate chinese.bad influence from frens since young.

2)I can't speak Chinese.ppl laugh when I speak Chinese.

3)I've to give CNY wishes to all the adults, and there are seriously a lot. Wish I could get some voice recorder and play it to them.haha

4)I can't stand CNY songs! Could be because I can't understand the lyrics, but I'm pretty sure a lot of the songs sound damn boring and/or depressing.

5)CNY food isn't appealing to me.Eg that colourful noodle thing we must mix up.tastes weird.I only do it because it's the only time you can play with food without getting screwed.

Was reading Table for Three and wondered what it would be like to be in Jason Hahn's shoes. I think life would be funny and interesting! frens, I recommend this book to you all! It's nice to read. Shall bring it to camp to make Friday arrive sooner.haha Wonder how Saffy and Amanda look like in reality too, if they're as hot as in the book XD

One day I'll band will make it big. I'll aim to be able to play gigs at Timbre 1st.haha

Gotta gym and run more. Feel like I'm gaining weight.

Baby you know that
Maybe it’s time for miracles
Cause I ain’t giving up on love

Falling Asleep On The Keyboard...

my mom woke me up at 7 just to give me damn breakfast before the family leave de house...and i can't fall asleep after that.that's just how my body works.i've gotta wait till the exhaustion hit me in the head to knock me out sometime in the afternoon or sth...so might as well blog...

haha went to cr's place to put down my stuff before gg PP with jeff and cr to get de photo frame.haha and cr was very reluctant to leave his place becos he was plain lazy.LOL i was quite surprised that Best and Harvey Norman had only several frames to choose from, and i was telling jeff "must be Sony.i don't trust the rest." Because local warranty will do no good for someone who's in Australia XD At Harvey Norman we saw de 7-inch and 8-inch Sony frames which we knew one would be bought in de end.I personally felt that de 7 inch was not as good as the 8-inch, but i was kinda short in cash(jeff said he may not have enuf on him and i didn't plan to draw any money to add to de $150 in my jeans pockets), so i kinda hesitated. But jeff was adamant about 8-inch, so i gave in. i mean, friends worth more than a nearly $100 price difference.haha

cr went to buy shirts while i bought Jason Hahn's Table for Three. Always wanted to get it becos I loved all his stories! and couldn't get my M1 Hotspot yesterday becos they needed my IC. Which i didn't know you must carry around always. Had subway cookies while CR watched us munch on de awesome double chocolate chip cookies.haha Carl's Jr lunch was too much for de 3 of us :S

went back to cr's place to jam after that. He recorded some of our practices on Taylor Swift's Love Story. Demi Lovato's Get BAck was still as fun to play as ever.haha after jeff left (w/o taking his guitar for dunno-wat-reason and causing us a bit of agony which i'll touch on later) i played MW2 until 9 plus.haha and we kept racking our brains on where to go for supper instead of BLK 85. and jeff, who planned to get his guitar and amplifier the next day,which is today, suddenly said he wouldn't be free to pick up his stuff today and told cr to bring to his place b4 gg BLK 85. and everyone groaned as one. and sihua wanted bubble tea...

so cr, kenny, deren and i went to PP to meet julian and rosh, at the same time getting sihua's bubble tea.and this is how it went:

Guy:Hi what do you want?

Me: Eh...pearl milk tea. Small.

Guy: What pearl do you want?

Me: What?

Guy: What pearl do you want for your drink? (points at 3 cups with pearls which looked identical to me)

Me: You mean there are different pearls?...just the normal pearls.

Guy: What size?

Me:Small (i was wondering if he meant size of the drink or the pearls...)

Guy: How much sugar?

Me:(Laughed)There's different amount of sugar?!eh..100%?

and then i paid up.i really didn't expect the sugar part, and i didn't know wat sihua would want.if too little sugar, she'd say that the taste isn't nice. If too much she'd probably threaten to blame me in future if she gets diabetes(touch wood touch wood!). So i picked the lesser of 2 evils. when i told the guys i asked for 100% sugar kenny told me 50% is better. so i went to change my order.haha

finally we were at the "queen's" gate, who insisted we waited downstairs. and we were deciding whether to just eat around the area becos BLK 85 a bit far and we didn't want to drop by jeff's place 1st. in de end we decided to still go 85, splitting into 2 groups. one would head to jeff's place while de rest go BLK 85 1st. but the thing is we couldn't get a damn cab.waited quite a while until we couldn't stand it any longer. hence change of plans.

HK cafe wasn't our choice actually.it was Everything With Fries.after all kenny and deren seemed interested in some waitress in there.haha but too bad it was closed, and the only place we spotted around was HK cafe.so we went there and God i hate the chinese environment.chinese pictures, chinese smell, chinese feeling...at least there wasn't CNY songs. we learnt a lot of bimbo terms from sihua there, like "fetched" and "mam"(make a move).haha i took so long to decide what to eat and in the end i ate de same instant noodle i had de last time we were there.haha

i'm so tired of typing alr so here's the rest of the nite in a nutshell: went mac,rotted for a while, and we went home. and sth we discussed kinda led me to ponder...

You wonder how much you've changed,

whether for better or worse.

You wished you could see yourself in their eyes,

to see what you could improve.

Because I just want to change myself,

so that I would hate myself less.

PS. Sihua go upload our lomo-ed shots pleez.wanna see how it went.haha

iPod iShall iNet

ok i plan tog et a mobile modem to bring around, allowing me to use my iPod touch to access the net anywhere i want!especially camp!haha means i can FB and msn every day!haha

supper tonite!and the princess needs to be escorted there.haha and since she insisted getting me a can of drink, i'll see if i'm thirsty then i'll decide whether to accpet the offer XD

duties have begun, the slack has ended.damn...

It's time to get up, and not let such trivial matters bother me and pull me down.Because I realised only the weak cry over spilled milk, and I will never be a pussy :p I won't be a little girl emo-ing about some shit that's not even important to my life. I've got so many good things in life:family, cr gang, the band, a place in SMU...I've got a future ahead. Dwelling in the past will just screw my future.

So f*** the small shit and focus on the big ones.haha

Stay Strong

Rejected!And not feeling sad about it LOL

ok she said the most dreaded word ever."No".ok not exactly but that's the summary of her answer.well, i don't blame her.she has a good reason to say no.but do i look that sinister you ppl?gotta do some "reflecting"!!!ROFL

she did say she was going butter factory tonite, and said i could meet her there, but i can't.becos of RECALL.

plan to get some small modem to carry to camp to that i can use internet with my iPod Touch!that way i can FB and msn in camp!and i can use it during outfield trainings too.haha

my $50 Sony earphones just broke.at least i've got the ones that came with my iPod Touch(which i forgot i had when i bought the Sony earphones).haha

tmr gonna supper!hope i don't spend too much.


Calling yourself a friend is one thing,
Being a friend is an entirely different story.

Satisfaction!

today's jamming was rather fun!especially when trying Demi Lovato's Get Back!haha at least i think i'm getting the hang of de 7 songs =)

scared jokhie with some fake spider.gonna upload on FB.check it out!hopefully it's not too shaky.was laughing very hard.haha

CR looks so round when he was "yang".haha check it out also on FB!

book in...never fails to spoil my mood.haha

Where are you now?

Cause I'm thinking of you

Morning,world.

i just realised jamming at 10am is damn early!!!that's why i woke up earlier just to use the net and update my iPod Touch software(taking 1 hour to download...)

i just realised that even thoguh ppl see me as Mr Hardcore-Clubber-Boy i believe that it's very wrong.haha look at the facts:kenny's last clubbing was with some frens(not cr gang.eh kenny am i rite?) which was a few months back, while jeff and rosh went to LADIES NITE W/O ASKING ME(i'm still frigging pissed with that you two).haha maybe one of u guys should take the title (best choice is jeff i think :P).

thing is, i realised i'm not so into clubbing alr.don't ask me why, becos I can't find an explanation.it's kinda like how i'm not into gaming anymore(though l4d is stil my fav and best game!).maybe it's becos l4d2 sucks so bad that it made me lose interest in gaming.haha

gotta get a accountancy book soon.start studying in camp!and gonna take driving lessons soon!

I just realised how small chinese people's eyes can get.they can literally be slits.i mean, how the hell do they see their surroundings?AMAZING.seriously.

It'll never be you against the world.

I'll make sure it's us.

Friday.Sad-urday.Sunday.

i was so tired i slept early yest.even FB couldn't keep me glued to the com.and very few ppl were online on msn...so i went to sleep.haha

well,today was hardcore solo jamming!did 7 songs!created a playlist in iTunes called "Cheeseburgers".Here's the list:

1.Demi Lovato - Get Back

2.Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now

3.Hey Monday - Run Don't Walk

4.Taylor Swift - Love Story

5.Taylor Swift - You Belong To Me

6.Muse - Starlight

7.We The Kings - Check Yes Juliet

So i did one round of them, did some physical training in the house,and went back for second round.it's not like my tabs are very difficult, but rather repetitive.and those like Check Yes Juliet are too simple.gotta learn harder, more challenging tabs.

watched Knocked Up today!it's de "Unrated" version,which was baaaaaaaaaad.becos at the scene of katherine heigl's character giving birth, they showed the baby's head protruding out 3 times.sure each time was a split second, but i nearly wanted to puke.i mean, don't throw such pics at me!!!wish i could erase those few seconds... :S

ok supper next weekend!for sihua's sake!haha and sihua,pleez pick a place.anywhere that comes to ur mind!(preferably somewhere with aircon?) no pressure no pressure.haha

hey cr gang!wanna swim at safra next weekend or sth?sentosa a bit far...lazy to move my butt all the way there.you gals are welcome to go too =)

recall will be on feb.dammit.#*$@!

..or not?

Vanilla Twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

RECALL TMR!I BEG YOU!

this recall is getting on my nerves.can't it just quickly come?why are they always pushing it to a later date?

this week was seriously exhausting.i just wanna sleep early tonite, though i know i won't becos i'll be glued to de com using FB and msn.haha

maybe...Patience is the key.

today in the bus while standing at the back i took out my iPod touch from my bag, accidentally dropping my bunk key under some seat in the process.some corporal helped my pick it up, and i said "thanks".unfortunately, the old malay lady beside him didn't hear me, and she started telling him how rude i was for not saying thanks. i was kinda pissed off yet stunned.good riddance.

the guys wanna meet up, but i'm really exhausted. when they mentioned they're playing lan, i totally lost any considerations of actually going.have fun.seriously.

In the end,

You're actually all alone.

"Friend" is just a label,

stuck on your forehead.

Listen up.

Talk to the hand.
To be more specific,
Talk to the finger.






PS. I'll remove this post after I'm feeling better.

Another one in the list.

Well,looks like case closed.that whole event probably came to an end alr becos i got no reply.not that this really affects me (compared to the past few times).guess i'm learning to not take it too seriously haha

but heck.really wanna meet you,know about you,just socialise.maybe one day? haha i'll continue to find ways to access FB even though the camp doesn't have internet.I'm willing to go that far(in fact i nearly locked out one of the office computers becos of wrong password.) haha

damn this week is boring and busy due to lack of manpower.can't wait for it to end.

recall,please come this sat.get it over with so that i can enjoy my weekends w/o worries.

so,not clubbing this sat?

jamming...need more practice! seem to be losing my touch.haha

ok last week my fren made me buy this box of jelly beans,and it had one heart-shaped bean among the normal bean-shaped ones.so i told my fren, "since valentines is coming,line up a number of gals and give them the jelly beans one at a time.whoever gets the heart-shaped one shall be your fated valentines date!"haha that's one of the many crap stuff we talked about last week.

I saw the battalion cat snoozing in the middle of the grass.wish i could take a pic of that adorable scene.haha


I believe in love.
But then nobody else seems to.
Hopefully you do.



On a side note:
Words no longer mean anything in this f-ed up world.
They're merely used to please the ears.
Shutting up is an easier way, y'know.

Can I shoot me in the head?

Ok...i didn't expect a reply. Wat was I thinking?Gawd...

Was talking with my mom, and she said if kids want to get into relationships they should ask themselves what they want in life first.if they wan to have a family then it's ok to get into relationships.too bad my mom doesn't know i want to just get married and enjoy couple life.wonder what her reaction will be if she knew...

BK's new spicy burger isn't spicy!the chicken taste like McSpicy,except that they left out the spices.haha

once again i talk too much crap that only hurts.wish i could just shut my damn mouth at times.will i ever stop hating myself?

Some things just can't be conveyed through words

Tonite is not book in nite! =)

Monday off!so i can spend one more nite at home!haha

today a bit tired and zoned out,even though i fell into a deep slumber this afternoon.watched HIMYM season 3,and i'm nvr tired of the funny stuff in the show.if i could ever act, i would wanna do this kind of comedies.I'd beg to be in one haha

went for dinner with family at PP.nvr had a meal with them for damn long...and i wore de new top i bought from G2000!!!Love it ttm!and sorry kenny that i didn't see u.haha as i said was kinda zoned out so my awareness level was at all-time low.haha and that was my sis -.- why would i dao u if i was on a date?haha i'd be proud to be dating the girl i'd be dating, or else she wouldn't even be my date XD

I shall cut down on singlish.no more "lah" and "sia"!haha

I still think my neighbour looks really good.haha but wishful thinking.just smile =)

gonna learn the bass for Demi Lovato's Get Back!damn inspired by last nite's band to try out songs i like.really really aspire to be performing like them one day...

I try to use the name jason, but at the end of the day, I'm still jan.becos that is sth my parents gave to me, and it'll be sth to connect them to me even when they're no longer around.I think the name sucks to an extent, but i thank you for giving me a name.(but i will give my kids easier names XD)

And i heard that my sis may be participating in YOG!haha all de best sis!

WHAT DID I JUST DO?AM I CRAZY?CRAP CRAP CRAP

Is there somebody who still believes in love ?

Somebody To Love

Paris, France to Michigan
London town and through Berlin
I can’t believe this place I’m in
Everywhere and back again
Porcelain and China dolls
Give me one and I’ve seen them all
Got my back against the wall
Wonder where I’ll be tomorrow?

But wait, now how long could this take?
It’s hard to find a man,
When you’re gone before he wakes.
They say it’s hard to achieve
But can’t a girl believe?

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Baby girl, there you at
Looking at me like a putty cat
Wondering where that thing is at
Wondering where your ring is at
Nobody ever did it quite like this
Nobody ever did it quite like you
Do your hair, I bought you shoes
We can hit the town like superstars do
You fall in love? Then let me show you love
Give me the key to your heart
I can give you what you want
When you’re waiting for love
And you’re lookin’ for someone
I’mma turn this gossip girl into a woman

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Je t’adore, Je t’adore (I love you, I love you)
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose
Je t’adore, Je t’adore (I love you, I love you)
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose
Ooh, I like it
Ooh, I need it
Ooh, I want it
Hey Hey

I know it’s hard to achieve
But can’t a girl believe?

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

You say hello, I say goodbye

You say hello, I say goodbye

Somebody to love

Where Are You Now?

To my favorite teacher
Told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the the guys I miss
And the girls we kissed
Where are you now?
To my ex best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
And sing a longs in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed up
To the ones I loved
But didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know I won't forget you

To the ones who cared
And who were there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing
Where are you now?