Put on that smile!

Just smile,
Let the world think that everything's fine.
Because don't fuck it up,
Like how it fucked you up.

As the day comes nearer, I just can't help but feel more certain that my feelings for you are true.

Codename: Chiaki

A friend asked me where was "your Chiaki".
I laughed and say, "She's not mine!"
Not yet.

This saturday, i want to show you how much you mean to me, and how much i care :)

I wish I didn't think so highly of myself in your life,
thinking I could make things better for you.
In the end, I did the total opposite.
Nothing can stop me from feeling all this guilt,
and I wish I didn't hurt you so much :(


Times like these, I wish I could simply disappear from your life.

But who could blame you?

Now I just feel like a world-class jerk. And that you probably like me even less as of now. But who could blame you?

Funny how you telling me to cheer up can easily do so

Sometimes, I wish I meant more to you than a -

Maybe I Should Call My Blog Venting Zone Or Something

I want to learn not to care TOO much,
Because I'll just make myself miserable.

Wondering where'd you go,
Wishing I didn't fall asleep.
It sucks to wonder like that,
Waiting for god-knows how long.

It's killing me inside so badly right now :(

Because I Suck. Big Time.

I wish I knew how to not be a burden.

Not Really

No. Not really. I say I'm fine with it, but why would I like guys that are of a much older age tickling and poking you like that? However, I'd say "disgusted" is too harsh a word to describe how I feel. Maybe... "disappointed"? I can't find the right word to use. But yes, it disturbs me a little that there are guys of that age doing that to a young girl like you.

Importance is the key(word)

To think that you'd change your plans of going overseas.
To think that you'd cut down on your gaming so much just to chat.
To think that you'd change your sleeping cycle just to be more like mine.
To think that your mood changes because mine does.
To think that I'd make such great changes to your life.

If that doesn't show me how much I mean to you, I don't know what does.

Because two is a company, and everybody loves some company.

I wondered why you would lie on your bed, choosing to chat instead of sleep when you feel so tired. Even though I bug you to just go to sleep. Then I think about how you're alone every day, and hearing the stories of your life, and I realized.

You could use someone to keep you company.

And I think I want to be that "someone".

Because I am a fool.

Where do I begin?

When I know of your "online boyfriend", which anyone would know is all play, but yet it bothers me, making me wonder what I am to you, actually.
When a guy who I know is asking you out for real, yet you seem to think nothing of it, while I think the world of it.
When I go to your profile and I see him saying, "Shall we?", and I see you liking it, as if it is a "yes".
When I want to go to your profile, for no reason, but remembering I'll just see that post there again.
When I see something funny on Tumblr, and I want to share it with you, but you're not online, and I remember the pain I feel.
When I lost all mood to do anything, because I just think about you and all the stuff.
When I want to tell you so badly how I feel right now, but yet I stop myself because I fear its repercussions.
When I know how close you are to a person who has done so much for you, and how it troubles me.
When I feel sad yet happy when I see that my mood spoils yours.
When a smiley from you somehow makes me smile a little, even when my heart is in a turmoil.
When I realize, that maybe I'm just being a fool.

Does this means, this is where it ends?