Scare Me Silly

Was watching Repo Men during duty and I realised how lost I feel watching a movie without subtitles. I mean, I do not seem to catch what they say in the movie that easily. Maybe it is because I'm too used to reading subtitles instead of listening. Do you feel the same way? Maybe subtitles have "spoilt" me such that I cannot watch a movie without subtitles. Btw, Repo Men is quite boring. So is Aviator, which is super long! But I must say Leonardo DeCaprio's acting is good.

And I wonder, are movies still being made in VCD? Everyone seems to be purchasing DVDs instead, or downloading movies. Speaking of which, I heard that my team commander today is against pirated movies. And then I wondered why. Maybe his relative works at a CD store? Then I thought, if you had a relative who made movies or sells DVDs (as in originals, not pirated), would you still download movies? As in, here is someone you know who earns his living from selling DVDs, and it will be bad to download movies and make business bad. I think I would probably stop downloading and buy originals. That's right, "say no to piracy".

I'm not sure why, but we watched REC 2. First time we tried we changed movie after 15mins because we were too scared. We did watch it in the end, and as usual the movie turned lousy once the demonic stuff came in. But I must say the reporter looks really pretty! And she's 34! Nice... Still, she cannot beat Catherine Zeta-Jones :D

Was talking about ghost stories and urban legends during the Saturday that I could have played paintball but instead was doing duty for YOG, and I heard about some red house near Downtown East. Wonder what is that about? Want to watch Haunted Changi! And there's Paranormal Activity 2 coming soon. I'm scared of horror movies, but I tend to feel like scaring myself a bit once in a while.

QAT is coming and all the regulars have their panties in a knot. They are asking me to do things at last minute, probably to save their own asses.

I have a few crazy ideas I thought of doing. One is where the CR gang try living a rich man's life for a night. Like maybe we could suit up, go to super expensive dining, hit the casino, drive a limo, get VIP access to a club like Butter Factory to end the night! Sure it is a ridiculous waste of money, but for once we should try not holding back on spending and feel what it's like to be some rich fellow.

Also, I plan to try celebrating National Day at Marina Bay Sands hotel. Get a room there, enjoy the pampered and expensive lifestyle, then go to the rooftop to enjoy the fireworks! It'll be cool because the fireworks will seem so close us!

I notice those movies with wedding scenes always show those poor single fellows always end up at the children's table. I hope I will never be in such a situation!






Inside my heart,
Is a personal wonderland.

God Bless Us Everyone...

...We're a broken people living under loaded gun.


Today jamming was rather nice! Their originals are rather cool! And covers of Green Day and Blink-182 was fun! This could be it.


Busy week... in fact. Once AAO is over, and we are done with YOG and F1 then will life be easier. Now it's busy busy busy :/



And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't outmatched
It can't be outrun

~ Linkin Park - The Catalyst

King Of Anything

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

Braced myself for the goodbye, 
'cause that's all I've ever known

~Taylor Swift - Mine

Nice song! Really a lot of good recent songs! Like:
Sara Bareilles -  King Of Anything
Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are
The Wanted -  All Time Low
The Click Five - I Quit! I Quit! I Quit!
Flo Rida - Club Can't Handle Me
Linkin Park - The Catalyst

Linkin Park's The Catalyst reminds me of trance music O.O

YOG duty was... exhausting to say the least. We moved out at 10pm on Friday night and only reached back camp 2am this morning. During move out from camp we saw a captain leaving the mess with 3 beer girls. Distraction. Due to our lack of manpower the workload was hell, and I was the only specialist at our site so I had lots of preparations to do. Thank God for my 6 Twiggies! Though I did not consume all of them. The meals sucked, and when we went there it poured like crazy. By Saturday morning my shirt was still damp. I spent the whole night sleeping topless and praying that the mosquitoes would not touch me. Some idiot somehow got my LBV in the rain the whole night, such that next morning I found it totally drenched with my Sony Walkman MP3 player inside. Fortunately it did not spoil. The meals were crappy, though no surprise there. And I hate regulars who throw everything to us NSFs and try to wayang when those high rank people come. I tend to get the feeling that whatever they do or make us do is to cover their own asses. The travel back was really cold. I felt like dozing off already, sand or some small particles hit my face like a whip, and the wind was freezing my entire body. And seeing my friends enjoy their paintball only makes me hate NS more. It's screwing my social life big time. Plus, duty tomorrow when everybody has Monday and Tuesday off. When army fucks with you, you should fuck it back.



I quit! I quit! I quit!
But I ain’t givin’ you up
You got that somethin’ that I can’t get enough of
I’ll give you anything
But I ain’t givin’ you up
Took a hit, you’re the fix
That’s why I quit! I quit! I quit!

~ The Click Five - I Quit! I Quit! I Quit!

Don't Stop Believing!

Just spent a whole hour plus to look at YouTube videos of local bands. Really inspiring! Sure there are those which fail so badly, like the two boys playing The Script's The Man Who Can't Be Moved while wearing shades. Kinda reminds me of the shades CR and I bought! And I realised scolding "Fuck" on camera is not cool, unless it's because you're pissed.

Oh and I did not get into BIOE, but it's ok! I wish them the best! They are a really awesome band! At least I've got another band to be in, and their originals sound really good! Think Green Day and Blink-182! Need a lead guitarist though... Kenny? :P HAHAHA

Craving for a nice pepperoni pizza! Since the day that...well, I played stupid lan. Just thinking of the pizza makes my mouth water!

Turns out this Saturday will be worse than NDP. I've to move out on Friday night, and I'll only go back camp at around 2am on Sunday morning. Plus, I'll be duty until 7am Sunday morning, so... Bummer. Tried to change duty to go paintball :( Next time put on a day that has nothing please :P

"When I look down on them,
I don't know whether to laugh at them,
or to cry for them."

Scars are more than skin-deep.
Too late.
Not like I give a shit anymore.




Don't stop believin'
Hold on to the feelin'
Streetlights people

~ Journey - Don't Stop Believing

When Dreams Become Nightmares

Last night I had this dream that I found the girl for me. I could feel that I really loved her, like we connected... And then I woke up. It felt so real... like realising all those feelings were just a lie. That feeling seriously sucks. A lot.

Man... Wish I could go paintball. I had some things I was really dying to do, and inflicting pain. But so unfortunate it is on the day of YOG opening. Everybody is involved, so no escape for me.

I wonder why guys would surf porn even though they are married. I really do not see a logical reason for it...

Damn my PSP analog stick is spoilt again, going to have to fix it.

I notice whenever I get a call from some army person or on a day I'm on off, I will give a really irritated "Hello" on the phone. As in, I really dread getting calls from army because it is never good news. So I tend to give them the "why the fuck are you talking to me" tone.





Trying is the intention of failing.

Reginald

HIMYM S4E18

Aiming For 100

Well, here's my playlist so far! Nearly 3/4 way to 100! Music is just awesome :)

1) TAS - Summer Hair = Forever Young
2) All Time Low - Stella
3) All Time Low - Dear Maria, Count Me In
4) Avril Lavigne - Contagious
5) Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone
6) Avril Lavigne - Alone
7) Avril Lavigne - Sk8er Boi
8) Backstreet Boys - Just Want You To Know
9) Blink-182 - I Miss You
10) Blink-182 - All The Small Things
11) Blink-182 - What's My Age Again
12) Blink-182 - First Date
13) Blink-182 - The Rock Show
14) The Cardigans - Lovefool
15) The Cardigans - My Favourite Game
16) Carolina Liar - I'm Not Over
17) Demi Lovato - Here We Go Again
18) Demi Lovato - Get Back
19) Faber Drive - Give Him Up
20) The Fray - Over My Head
21) Green Day - 21 Guns
22) Green Day - American Idiot
23) Green Day - Holiday
24) Green Day - Last Of The American Girls
25) Hey Monday - How You Love Me Now
26) Hey Monday - Run, Don't Walk
27) Kelly Clarkson - Long Shot
28) Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes
29) The Killers - Mr Brightside
30) Lady Gaga - Poker Face
31) Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved
32) Muse - Time Is Running Out
33) Muse - Starlight
34) Neon Trees - Animal
35) New Found Glory - Kiss Me
36) Orianthi - According To You
37) Paramore - Ignorance
38) Paramore - Brick By Boring Brick
39) Paramore - The Only Exception
40) Paramore - Crushcrushcrush
41) Paramore - That's What You Get
42) Peter, Bjorn and John - Young Folks
43) Sara Bareilles - Love Song
44) Selena Gomez & The Scene - Naturally
45) Selena Gomez & The Scene - Falling Down
46) Simple Plan - Untitled
47) Simple Plan - No Love
48) Taylor Swift - Love Story
49) Taylor Swift - You Belong With Me
50) We Are Scientists - The Great Escape
51) The White Stripes - Seven Nation Army
52) The Wonders - That Thing You Do
53) Linkin Park - Shadow Of The Day
54) Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life
55) Fall Out Boy - Sugar, We're Going Down
56) Linkin Park - Shadow of the Day
57) All Time Low - Damned If I Do, Damned If I Don't
58) All Time Low - Lost in Stereo
59) Coldplay - Viva La Vida
60) Coldplay - The Scientist
61) The Ceasars - Jerk It Out
62) Green Day - Jesus of Suburbia
63) Hey Monday - Set Off
64) Hey Monday - Hurricane Streets
65) Hey Monday - Homecoming
66) Hey Monday - Obvious
67) Fall Out Boy - Dance Dance
68) Good Charlotte - Keep Your hands Off My Girl
69) The Killers - When We Were Young
70) The Killers - Human
71) Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends
72) Paramore - Decode
73)Hey Monday - Candles

Whenever I'm outside I cannot help but notice all the young couples... and I wonder when, if I ever do, will I find someone.

I realised you are a really pathetic hypocrite.










Everyone is so full of shit
Born and raised by hypocrites
Hearts recycled but never saved
From the cradle to the grave


~ Green Day - Jesus Of Suburbia

Finally!

NDP is finally over! No more burning of my weekends except for duties! But still... I'll kind of miss my contingent :(

Yesterday I was on the way home in a bus, and I saw this guy who was sitting with his girlfriend. In front of him stood some girl who was not at all pretty, her back facing him. She was about to alight at the next stop. Anyway, I saw his eyes travel from the back of her head down to her butt. And he literally ogled for a minute or so. Surprised that his girlfriend did not see him doing that. But I was more disgusted about his behavior. Seriously, I hate guys who keep staring at girls this way. Sick idiots...

Oh and I don't think I'm chosen for Blame It On Eve... guess I've to continue searching...



Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

~ Sixpence None The Richer - Kiss Me

I'm Holding Back

I know I should not be so pissed, but today I'll make an exception. I know tomorrow I'll wish I did not bother posting this, but today I do not give a shit.

I planned to swear and scold a lot in this post, because I seriously want to. There's so many things I want to scold Fuck at right now. But I thought the better of it and decided not to put it here. Bottom line is, I'm fucking done listening to people. I make poor decisions, people make worse ones for me.

And if anyone wants to mess with me right now I swear I'll fuck you all over.


I'm seriously done with giving a fuck.

Wish You, Wish Me

Long time since I've blogged! It's been days, but feels like ages! Mainly because I did not have the time, but it's also because army life is getting dull. But now, since I'm on duty, I'll update my blog!

Recently there seem to be many birthdays. Which means a lot of wishing. And I was thinking, imagine somebody you did not wish happy birthday when it was his, but he wished you on yours, won't you feel like you "owe" him a wish? I'd be like, " Note to self: need to wish him happy birthday on his birthday too." But it feels good to receive so many wishes on your birthday, right? Imagine logging into Facebook to see so many notifications... I know you people enjoy it too!

Came back from outfield on Thursday night, and fortunately I did not get raped by mosquitoes or sandflies. Thanks Kevin for your mosquito coils. I'll definitely give you your Double Cheeseburger!

On the night that we moved out, while on the road, a chartered bus carrying small kids was moving alongside my vehicle. And those young kids were looking at us in awe. Some even waved at us. Now, I know we are not allowed to wave back, but I did. I gave them a salute and waved back at them. It makes me feel like this army shit was actually worth doing. Its the young ones that really appreciate our army crap, not the people.

Such a busy month! I cannot even go for the paintball. Because of YOG opening... dammit. Oh well... duty calls. Have to suck thumb and do it. Should make the army pay for my paintball though. Not cheap.


I cannot look you in the eyes anymore,
Because I don't respect you no more.





There must be something more
Do we know what we're fighting for
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out
And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store
Breathe in, breathe out
Breathe in, breathe out

~ Secondhand Serenade - Something More

What's Up, Doc?

Today I went to see the doctor in my camp, because of my damn throat and consistent sore eyes. And it was this new doctor who my friends say was damn screwed up. But I went nonetheless. And I saw the name on his green uniform: " DR LEONARD". Like, wow. Maybe I should make mine " SIR JAN" or something. Anyway, he was checking my eyes with this small object and he was super close to my face. Like, really close. So close I could hear his breathing and smell his breath. I held my breath because I didn't want him to smell mine. Next thing you know we'd probably be sniffing each other's butts too.

Ok, I know that doctors know what they are doing, so despite the close proximity of our faces I did not...well...worry. That was fot the first 15 seconds. Thing is, he was there for really long, like a minute or so. So after 15 seconds, weird thoughts started coming to mind. Was he some gay? Was he like, smelling me and going to sniff me out tonight? Was he going to kiss me or do something gay? I swear I was mentally prepared to do a low blow if he did anything. I mean, he even off the lights to get a better look at my eye! I really got to trust doctors more.

In the end, I got so much medicine to consume but no status. Hope my illness gets worse in tomorrow's outfield.

So much shit to do, so little time -.-





Maybe we are just of different key

Our Own Penrose Stairs

Where do you go from here?

Well, today was mostly resting at home, and it irritates me to get calls from camp. I mean, I'm on off. Means "I do not want to be involved in army stuff right now". Why do you all keep calling me? I feel like chucking my phone into the toilet bowl. Gawd...

Weird dreams, weird thoughts, and damn I hate my haircut.

Seriously if Hollywood is to make movies out of video games at least choose Asians! The recent Tekken has some American dude when the game's version is Asian. Same goes for Dragonball! Stupid movie... And I heard Jonah Hex f***ed up so bad in US that its become a direct-to-DVD release. Doubt it will be screening in Asia at all. Kind of sucks to put so much effort in a movie that bombs in cinemas so badly you need to sell it straight to DVD just to save some face.

Sometimes, I feel like my life is a Penrose stairs, always moving yet never progressing. Every time you look back, you see the same things. No matter how hard you try to get out of it, no matter how far you run, you end up at the same spot.



I'm not perfect, but I keep trying 
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start 
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave 
Was it something I said or just my personality? 

~ Hedley - Perfect

Spamming Movies

Without you,
I've nothing to live for,
Everything to die for.


What did I do yesterday? Well, 5 movies and loads of sleep kind of sum it up. Because duty is boring, and all I had were movies, PSP, iPod and comics. Killers is not really a good movie I realised, because the plot is WTH? It's like the end of the plot bites the head of the plot, which kind of sucks.

Today I watched Shutter Island. Think of it as a not-as-good version of Inception, but quite a good movie all the same. The two movies are somewhat alike to me.

Suddenly, it all does not matter anymore. Because I myself am not sure what matters now.

I really cannot wait for X-men: First Class! I don't know why! LOL



And I'm sick of feeling down
So I guess it's time for me to say goodbye

~ Simple Plan - Time To Say Goodbye

(Fire)Work Of Art

Today was the NDP preview, and city march was hell. It was so long, the wait was longer, and the march back to Suntec City was even longer! Plus there was no water so we were all dying. Funny thing, as we marched past Marina Sands Residence some joker played a vuvuzela for fun!

Sure the day was crap, the food was crap, my feet ached, but none of that mattered when I saw the most awesome display of fireworks in my life. Now, I never was a big fan of fireworks before today. I've seen it on television in past NDP, and from afar in my house. I've never felt like it was a big deal. It was just... sparks flying in the air. So? I did not see the joy of watching fireworks.

But tonight, standing at Marina Sands shopping centre, I saw many kinds of fireworks explode before my eyes into various colours and forms. One even made the crescent and the 5 stars! And sometimes it felt like the fireworks were getting closer to me, when they did continuous shooting of fireworks into the sky. Such a magical sight that takes your breath away! And the wonderful display ends with a huge cloud of smoke that slowly dissipates and reveal the night sky. Really cannot wait for the actual NDP! I'm sure the fireworks will be better!





'Cause when a heart breaks,
No it don't break even.

~ The Script - Breakeven