Nothing Done, Nothing Fun

Today, another day stoning. Really, really boring. I want my off! Then I can practise my bass! And buy Batman Arkham Asylum to play, which is well received and high rated. Hope my computer can support though-.- Also want that new MP3 player! But army has to be a pain in the ass and make me miss it. Bummer.

Also, got to get that awesome jacket from Topman at least, if I'm not raping the store :)

God Eater is getting harder, but still as exciting! With "God" monsters now and gay weapons, it's like clash of the titans! Thank God for my friend who is good at the game.

Duty. Duty duty duty. Dumb duty. Pffft.

Need to shed off those fats.

I could use a "You" right now :(

Should I go home this Saturday evening and rush back to camp on Sunday morning? In case I feel homesick :(

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At first glance,
Do you see a smile in the sadness?
Or a sad face in the happiness?

CR doing duty tonight. LOL!






Mine!



To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

~ Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Snoring The Day Away

Well, almost all the operators were on off and there was nothing to do, so I slept the whole day. And my new medication makes me drowsy, so sleeping is not a problem. Boring day though. Should have taken today and tomorrow off.

Wanted to take next wednesday and thursday off. But my staff sergeant told me to ask him next week; now too early. I mean, aren't we suppose to ask early and not last minute? So I said that Monday everyone would be on off, including me and him. Tuesday I would not be in camp because of some simulator training. How can I ask him like that? His reply? Sms him about it next week. Well, fuck you. Next time you ask me go outfield, I'll tell you to "ask me next week" you stupid prick. Seriously, my unit has fucked up people, especially the indians ( no offence to my indian friends out there). Sorry for being so vulgar but seriously my unit has some of the MOST screwed up people EVER.

Many albums to get.

Tired. And really nothing else to say. Goodnight world! Hopefully tomorrow is a better day! Though I forsee sleeping he entire day again :P





You,
Doing that thing you do.
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
Like you always do.

~ The Wonders - That Thing You Do

Hello! Goodnight!

Today duty was...quiet. There was barely anyone in camp today. So I spent the day in HQ office using computer :P Wrote down loads of tabs and figured them out with the help of Youtube!

Alright! Both Kenny and Jeffrey have God Eater! Time for some God-owning! :D

Damn... Really sad that Peacewalker cannot work :(

My friend's classical guitar is cool! Can kind of practise my bass with it! Nice! Even figured out how to play Happy Birthday on it! Really fun!

Avril Lavigne and Paramore are awesome! Cannot wait to jam!

Raining right now. Perfect to sleep :)

I do not understand those Ah Lians on Facebook. They act cute in photos, have weird names, and still tell people not to pm them or anything. In the first place why make your profile so..."slutty"? Out of your thousands of friends, how many are truly friends? One thing for sure: they all got a same mutual friend - CR :P

Then there are guys who go and screw around with girls, both local and overseas. Was discussing a bit yesterday with Jeff and Kenny. Even guys with girlfriends do such things. Just... Pathetic. "Thrilling" my ass. Just despicable.

These kind of people, where will they ever find the cheek to face their kids in future? How will they expect their kids to be proud of them?

Is it illegal to like you?
To me, yes.




That's what you get
When you let your heart win.

~ Paramore - That's What You Get

The List

Guys this is the list of songs the vocal can sing. Because my camp computer got no Microsoft Word (Dunno why) I'll post here. Anyway those in bold and underlined are her best songs so those are compulsory. Those with "#" beside the name are the ones I plan for us to learn then can jam with her. I've discussed a bit with CR already. I plan for us to do at least around 8-10 songs with her. Hopefully we can make a jamming session on the 20th.

Simple plan – Untitled#

                   Your love is a lie

                   Perfect#

                   Welcome to my life#

Paramore – Misery Business

                  Ignorance

                  Brick by boring brick#

                  Decode

                  The only exception

                  Crushcrushcrush#

                  That’s what you get#

                  Born for this

Hey Monday – Homecoming

                    Candles

The Academy Is… - About A Girl

All Time Low – Weightless

                     Dear Maria, count me in#

                     Shameless

F.O.B. – Sugar we’re going down#

Boys Like Girls – The Great Escape

                        Love Drunk

Kings Of Leon – Use Somebody

We The Kings – Check Yes Juliet

                      Secret Valentine

Katy Perry – Thinking of you

Orianthi – According To You#

Ant Bite Ain't Love Bite

"if you were to escape Singapore, would you choose lamborghini or tank?"

How one question could make us talk so much nonsense yesterday during dinner. From that question we moved to other means of escape and ways to counter. There were a lot of funny crap too like how to make planes land and freezing Lee Kuan Yew.

The day started with me waking up, tired, and unable to go back to sleep at 8am. Went to practise Paramore's Brick By Boring Brick before heading to CR's place.

At the lift lobby I thought I just missed the lift because the lift doors just closed. There was this family inside. I tried opening the door but it did not respond; I thought I was too late and the lift was going up. But it did not. So I look at the family, they look at me. Turns out the lift was spoilt. The doors could open and close but the lift could not move. You know what that means? Climbing up 19 floors! Murder! Legs were so tired after that.

Had KFC for lunch with the usual suspects: jeff, ken, Cr. Ole meal is too much for me. Had to force myself to eat the drumstick :/ We did some jamming at CR's place after that. It's not jamming for the band, so I did not mind going. It was...random jamming. And finally did Green Day, especially 21 Guns! Love that song! Also, there was All Time Low's Stella, Dear Maria Count Me In, even About A Girl by The Academy Is...! Cannot wait to try Beat It by Fall Out Boy! Also need to learn the songs for new potential vocal XD

Downloaded MGS Peacewalker! And it works! Hooray!

Loooooong week this week. Book out only on next Monday morning :(

Wierd dream last night. I dreamt I was using a program teaching me how to draw, and the sample pictures I dreamt of were really good and detailed. Don't dreams take images from your memory?why are there really cool pictures in my head? I don't seem to be able to dig out any cool pictures in my memory, or it could help my drawing.

During NDP rehearsal I got bitten by a black ant. I felt a pinching pain on my stomach and I found the bugger. He was still biting when I removed and disposed of him. Yesterday while in the toilet I realised that the bite became what looks like a very ripe pimple O.O I don't understand why...

Got to learn Paramore's That's What You Get, Avril Lavigne's Nobody's Home and Miranda Cosgrove's Kissin' U...

Duty make me miss the upcoming IT fair T_T "IT Fair" and "IT Show"...what's the difference? Both translate to "cheap IT stuff" to me.LOL





She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside

Singing It Out

Have you ever tried singing out just for fun? LOL We did! Kenny, CR, Jeff, Rosh, Jokhie and I sang like crazy yesterday at Katong Shopping Centre! Too bad no 21 Guns though... and I realise, how to release stress if we sing those slow songs? Must be those crazy songs! And 2 hours not enough.

We lan after that, but apart from L4D2, the other games were boring. Red Alert 2 was a "back down memory lane" thing though! But game was screwed up...

Got to learn the bass for those songs today, as I will not have any other time to practise. Better get it done before they contact me. lol


Driving backwards, wasting time.
Young love is ruthless, so learn to fly.
You taught me things I can't forget.
I can't walk away, and I can't shake the taste.

Where's My Own Time?

My duty ended at 7am today. Had to go for NDP rehearsal at 7:30am. Amazing. Army takes 6 days out of my 7-day week. Greedy people.

I mean, there is no need for us to marshal these people! All we are are messenger pigeons that gets f***ed by both ends. Just to get "best unit" we volunteered to do this thing. Sigh... This is not worth burning my weekends.

Too tired for anything... Maybe even karaoke.

Maybe it's time I start my own one...





Hammed-ster.
Haha lame.

Crying Cats

The past few months I've wondered where the 3DA cat went. That cute, playful cat that would come to us with its big, adorable eyes, meow-ing softly for food. Or when it rolls around the ground for attention, or simply enjoy you petting its back. When we do system checks, the cat would wander around the hangar, once even trying to scratch one of the bags.

Today my officer told me that a few days ago some jerk ran over the poor cat's leg, and the poor fellow went to a drain to hide. While doing some training, he heard the cat and went to check out the noise. And he found the poor cat's leg broken, the bone jutting out, with maggots crawling within it. He said the poor cat was crying, its eyes tearing. My officer called SPCA and there goes the cat.

I believe in karma. I really do. One day, that f***er will get banged by some vehicle too.

Everyone got to book out at 3pm today! No fair. I'm stuck at duty until tomorrow morning... And after that straight away is NDP rehearsal. Damn. And Monday's off for NDP rehearsal is eaten away by another duty. At least I got my Sunday free! Appreciate the small things.





See things from a different perspective.

Restart

"Water Balloons". Nice!

Well, today was tiring! Setting up four systems with just four operators. Crazy! But I had loads of fun playing God Eater with them! 4-player co-op ftw! :D

Anyway, yesterday's training was awesome. Imagine sleeping on one of the very high buildings in Singapore. Sleeping at such a height, enjoying the night breeze at a higher level! And we saw a lot of cool stuff in the sky. Despite all the trouble, I'm glad to be able to enjoy the beautiful view!

Duty month. Because of it I probably cannot go shopping with the guys. F***...

At times, I feel like just leaving this mess of a life here and start anew somewhere else...

Finding the right band...




I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

Where Are You Now?

Where are you,
To hear my thoughts,
To listen to my troubles,
To share my joy,
To share my tears,
To keep loneliness out,
To give me something to think about,
To care for and love,
To know what true happiness truly is?
Where are you now?


Got to start learning those songs: Kissin' U, Brick By Boring Brick, The Only Exception...LOL



Maybe I know somewhere 
deep in my soul that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways 
to make it alone but keep a straight face.

Building Apartments In The Sky

Wow. I found out my dream apartment costs $2 million! And $5.5k to rent. Oh well... Looks like I've nothing to do except save 2 million! :P I really love the apartment, and hopefully I can one day stay in it. Hopefully before I reach 30.

Now still stuck on a high roof...think I just saw a shooting star O.O Either that or a burning plane...though that is a bit unlikely because after it combusted it disappeared in the night sky. Cool.





If I'm a bad person, you don't like me
Well, I guess I'll make my own way
It's a circle, a mean cycle
I can't excite you anymore

The Home Of My Dreams

From where I'm standing right now, I just stare at this particular building right in front of me. It's the perfect house I will dream of staying. It's my ideal home. Shall start finding out more about this awesome apartment. It looks nice, and the view from the balcony is just breath-taking...

For my birthday, I just want to perform 21 Guns. And also donate blood for the first time :D

Got to do some work. Shall blog more later.Lol




House it may be,
But home is where I belong

Taking A Break

I was doing a lot of thinking the past few weeks, and I've decided to, in a way, "quit" the band for a while. Firstly, because I'll be way too busy to jam this whole month. Secondly, so does majority of the band.

The thing is, being a band with a group of close friends does not sound easy to me. Neither does it actually sound good either. Take it as having a relationship within our group. If the relationship turns sour, won't the group be affected? The way I see it, the band is that "relationship" to me. I mean, what good has the band actually done positively to our CR gang?I for one do not actually see one. And I want to take a step back from it all for a while.

Even if I do open up, I still hold back a little. Even that day when we had our little "band discussion". Because, I can spill everything I have to say and it would probably screw up the CR gang. Face it, we cannot exactly be "no holding back". If I really did not hold back things might have gotten ugly. I'll never spill everything. Never. Because I've been doing a lot of thinking.

When I first started, I felt excited to go for jamming. But when I really knew what I wanted, and how the band was, I realised I did not like it. Honestly, I'm not keen on jamming these days as before. I've, to be direct, lost the passion to jam.

Maybe it's because I'm of a different frequency with our band currently. I'm dying to do gigs, but that's just trivial. The more important thing: I want to be enjoying music. I want to have fun with songs like Green Day, All Time Low, Hey Monday, Paramore. Sure I may say "I'm fine with it", whatever "it" may be, but it's because I cannot be bothered anymore.

It's not like we'll be doing any jamming or anything any time soon, plus with my helluva duty schedule. So I want to take a break from our band, not care nor be involve in it in any way for a month or two. It's not that I hate our band; I just don't like it as before. So I'm going to shut out our band from my life for a while because I want to find the passion for jamming I've lost in the way. And maybe some of us should too.





Maybe we were young for too long.

Army Blues

Well, army is officially screwed up. After this weekend, for the next 3 weekends I'll have NDP on Saturdays and duty on Sundays. Means my weekends are gone. Ask me take weekdays off for fuck? My family and friends will not be free. Fuck you NS.

I think losing you memory is kind if like you dying, just that your body is controlled by another you...





Ignorance is your new best friend

Can't Sleep

I just don't feel good. Stupid flu... Suddenly had an urge to eat at 11pm and ate a lot of unnecessary snacks...wth...

I just had a thought. Imagine if I told a girl this:

You're my back up plan,
Not because I fear she won't like me.
It's because I may not like her.

I mean, normally girls will feel like second fiddle if she's some "back up". And guys tend to have "back up" in case things don't work out with his main target ( which is plain A-hole). If the guy calls you a "back up" because he is unsure about his feelings for this girl, and needs someone to fall back on or turn to if it does not work out, would you still feel like a second fiddle?

F***ing flu is screwing me up :(((((




It's a brand new day,
Another story to tell.