Listen up.

Talk to the hand.
To be more specific,
Talk to the finger.






PS. I'll remove this post after I'm feeling better.

Another one in the list.

Well,looks like case closed.that whole event probably came to an end alr becos i got no reply.not that this really affects me (compared to the past few times).guess i'm learning to not take it too seriously haha

but heck.really wanna meet you,know about you,just socialise.maybe one day? haha i'll continue to find ways to access FB even though the camp doesn't have internet.I'm willing to go that far(in fact i nearly locked out one of the office computers becos of wrong password.) haha

damn this week is boring and busy due to lack of manpower.can't wait for it to end.

recall,please come this sat.get it over with so that i can enjoy my weekends w/o worries.

so,not clubbing this sat?

jamming...need more practice! seem to be losing my touch.haha

ok last week my fren made me buy this box of jelly beans,and it had one heart-shaped bean among the normal bean-shaped ones.so i told my fren, "since valentines is coming,line up a number of gals and give them the jelly beans one at a time.whoever gets the heart-shaped one shall be your fated valentines date!"haha that's one of the many crap stuff we talked about last week.

I saw the battalion cat snoozing in the middle of the grass.wish i could take a pic of that adorable scene.haha


I believe in love.
But then nobody else seems to.
Hopefully you do.



On a side note:
Words no longer mean anything in this f-ed up world.
They're merely used to please the ears.
Shutting up is an easier way, y'know.

Can I shoot me in the head?

Ok...i didn't expect a reply. Wat was I thinking?Gawd...

Was talking with my mom, and she said if kids want to get into relationships they should ask themselves what they want in life first.if they wan to have a family then it's ok to get into relationships.too bad my mom doesn't know i want to just get married and enjoy couple life.wonder what her reaction will be if she knew...

BK's new spicy burger isn't spicy!the chicken taste like McSpicy,except that they left out the spices.haha

once again i talk too much crap that only hurts.wish i could just shut my damn mouth at times.will i ever stop hating myself?

Some things just can't be conveyed through words

Tonite is not book in nite! =)

Monday off!so i can spend one more nite at home!haha

today a bit tired and zoned out,even though i fell into a deep slumber this afternoon.watched HIMYM season 3,and i'm nvr tired of the funny stuff in the show.if i could ever act, i would wanna do this kind of comedies.I'd beg to be in one haha

went for dinner with family at PP.nvr had a meal with them for damn long...and i wore de new top i bought from G2000!!!Love it ttm!and sorry kenny that i didn't see u.haha as i said was kinda zoned out so my awareness level was at all-time low.haha and that was my sis -.- why would i dao u if i was on a date?haha i'd be proud to be dating the girl i'd be dating, or else she wouldn't even be my date XD

I shall cut down on singlish.no more "lah" and "sia"!haha

I still think my neighbour looks really good.haha but wishful thinking.just smile =)

gonna learn the bass for Demi Lovato's Get Back!damn inspired by last nite's band to try out songs i like.really really aspire to be performing like them one day...

I try to use the name jason, but at the end of the day, I'm still jan.becos that is sth my parents gave to me, and it'll be sth to connect them to me even when they're no longer around.I think the name sucks to an extent, but i thank you for giving me a name.(but i will give my kids easier names XD)

And i heard that my sis may be participating in YOG!haha all de best sis!

WHAT DID I JUST DO?AM I CRAZY?CRAP CRAP CRAP

Is there somebody who still believes in love ?

Somebody To Love

Paris, France to Michigan
London town and through Berlin
I can’t believe this place I’m in
Everywhere and back again
Porcelain and China dolls
Give me one and I’ve seen them all
Got my back against the wall
Wonder where I’ll be tomorrow?

But wait, now how long could this take?
It’s hard to find a man,
When you’re gone before he wakes.
They say it’s hard to achieve
But can’t a girl believe?

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Baby girl, there you at
Looking at me like a putty cat
Wondering where that thing is at
Wondering where your ring is at
Nobody ever did it quite like this
Nobody ever did it quite like you
Do your hair, I bought you shoes
We can hit the town like superstars do
You fall in love? Then let me show you love
Give me the key to your heart
I can give you what you want
When you’re waiting for love
And you’re lookin’ for someone
I’mma turn this gossip girl into a woman

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Je t’adore, Je t’adore (I love you, I love you)
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose
Je t’adore, Je t’adore (I love you, I love you)
Make a move, do the thing
Turn around, strike a pose
Ooh, I like it
Ooh, I need it
Ooh, I want it
Hey Hey

I know it’s hard to achieve
But can’t a girl believe?

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

Is there somebody who still believes in love?
I know you’re out there
There’s got to be somebody
I search around the world
But I can’t seem to find
Somebody to love

You say hello, I say goodbye

You say hello, I say goodbye

Somebody to love

Where Are You Now?

To my favorite teacher
Told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the the guys I miss
And the girls we kissed
Where are you now?
To my ex best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
And sing a longs in my car
To the face I see in my memories
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed up
To the ones I loved
But didn't show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know I won't forget you

To the ones who cared
And who were there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

iSuck

Why? Becos I can't seem to take alcohol.i bought some cocktail which had not much vodka inside, but it got my face flushed within minutes!and i felt a bit...high after that.seriously, i think i'm one of those guys who probably won't touch alcohol...which probably makes me look like some pussy.i mean, if a gal see this guy who doesn't drink, she'll probably rank him lower than an ant.

dinner at timbre was crazy and awesome.de food was good, and we played truth or drink.de drink was some strong shit that made jokhie kinda drunk.we spilled loads of crap today,and de guys finally know that i was crazy over H that time.haha

and the band was awesome!wish we could play as well as them.their singer was amazing.her singing skills are really good,considering she could sing so many kinds of songs including pulling off lady gaga's bad romance very well during the finale.haha

eh lan is still boring to me.and l4d2 still sux, fyi haha

damn i saw so many couples eating at timbre, which makes me wonder when i'll ever be that fortunate to share the wonderful meal under the night sky with such a good view of the night life in singapore.I FRIGGING HATE BEING SINGLE DAMMIT.

Helluva week( and i satisfying shopping)!

weeeeeeell, this week was eventful.monday started with some stupid redundant training which i screwed up and had it rubbed it until i was super depressed. wed was interesting because there was heli training!meaning i sat on a helicopter to de deployment site and set up my equipment!the heli ride was simply awesome!!!and i saw a rainbow!beautiful!the ride back was rather hectic,mainly becos the pilots were rushing to get back.haha and wed nite moved out for outfield...SIAN.i didn't even know i was going until tuesday,which was damn last minute.fortunately it was very slack and i enjoyed myself(listening to iPod and munching gummy worms under the sun)! but it sucks that i got bitten by sandflies,which made my middle finger,thumb and lower lip swell.i couldn't even clench my fist XD thanks to my frens for sms-ing me to save me from dying of boredom.staring at grass all day isn't fun at all ROFL

today had dinner and shopped!talked a lot of crap with joel,and i enjoy sharing my crap with that guy.we talk crap about anything.all you gotta do to start a chat is "I think that girl not bad." and we'll just chat all de way.

shopping!spent $300+!went G2000 first to buy a cool shirt,then went Man Studio and spend like crazy!!!bought a $130 jacket,$70 shirt(which was made of a damn comfortable material),and 2 other shirts.can't decide wat to wear tmr!!!LOLOLOLOL

I see your true colours, and it's not exactly a bright rainbow.

Not all the colours are bright, some being dull & ugly.

Yet because I see the rainbow as a whole and not the individual colours,

I still feel that your rainbow is a nice one I'll cherish and appreciate.

Book In=Sianz

Booking in is a total mood killer...tmr is gonna be a busy day.damn why can't i skip this like skipping school?haha

OMG this month's pay has to be the most i've ever got(it hit 4-digits)!$$$$$$$$$

"Young Folks".that's the name of the song i loved but never found till today after watching bandslam.love that song.haha

Believe it or not, when people think about getting a lot of cash, they can't help but to smile.haha go ahead and try for yourself!

btw de pic below?I love it.That is what true love is.Ask yourself, if you really love someone, won't you embrace her/his bad traits along with the good?

If you knew my story word for word

Had all of my history

Would you go along with someone like me?

er...ewwwww?

ok the nite before i had this wierd dream about my frens, and one of them looked SUPER manly that i swear i felt sick, even in my dream.gawd it totally screwed my mind about that person.if only there's a reboot button for my brain...

downloading 2 new psp games!Army of Two and Gundam vs Gundam.damn psp is getting boring but hopefully more cool games will come.maybe i'll just stop playing PSP...

LOL can't believe everyone is making a fuss about no Doreamon Pig at McDonald's...wat a joke.LOL maybe Macs should say "Pig accesories sold separately" or sth.they think muslims are over sensitive ppl...wat idiots.haha too much beef in their brains to think.

If

Hello Kitty=Japan,

And

Japan=Hentai+90% of Asian Porn,

Does

Hello Kitty=Hentai+90% of Asian Porn?

haha

Go figure.

She got that fire in her dance that'll make them fellas run around

Recall...hurry up...

Damn becos of de recall I don't dare to go out or anything, meaning i can't gym or shop or anything.stinks man zzzzzzzz....

at least i rented "the ugly truth"!it's a real nice movie, i give it 5 out of 5 stars!haha too bad there wasn't resident evil:apocalypse though...wanted to rent that too.

i wanna gym...i NEED to gym...need to go slimmer slimmer slimmer!

hmm maybe i won't go shopping this month.maybe i'll get gym equipment or sth.clothes can always wait till next month with all my CNY money plus my sergeant pay =D

got my transition specs!either cool or perverted O.O ur call,ppl.haha

things i'm gonna buy on feb:jackets,hoodies,sports shoes(budget:$300),vests,shirts,t-shirts,slim jeans,belts,and ...black socks -_-

Shall go Ion Orchard!ppl say it's ex, i say they're just unwilling to spend that amount.i know i am =)

long time since i clubbed,not that i feel the urge any more.not that i'll say no to clubbing =) wanna club on ur b-day rosh?haha

Everybody has a dirty little secret,

Nobody is truly innocent =)

time2change

I'm damn exhausted...whole week was full of long trainings and little sleep...well not really long trainings,just that the days end late.haha but i kinda love my vocation becos we get to go to cool rooftops and i swear, s'pore looks simply beautiful at night, from a high place.the lights, the cool air, the sense of calmness...i've set a goal, to share this view with someone special some day, to share with her what i got to see =)

eh dammit tried red bull for the 1st time, and my fren told me to gulp it down.so i downed it in 30 secs, and after that i felt like my brain was hovering above my head...lol not as strong as shots X(

maybe...it's time to change.i should give up chasing something (or someone) i can never have.maybe it's time to finally call it quits...

I just wanna be happy again. Is it too much to ask?

This year, I aim to be the happy, fun-lovin', crazy guy I used to be.

Did God create my Life to be hard,

or simply because he needed entertainment?

Time for a change in me

Looking back...

wow 2010 and i'm looking back at what happened to me in 2009,i have to say a lot has occurred. i'll list some down so that i can read this old post in future...

memorable stuff that happened to me:

1)Broke up with my ex - oooo that was nasty but i feel that i did the right thing for both of us

2)folded 100 hearts for valentines!...and got rejected - yep i did a lot and bought a lot of stuff for some gal who totally rejected me...what hurt the most was that she kinda "reported" to my cell group leader about it...talk about heartbreaker :/

3)Enlisted into NS - NS is something I won't wannna do over again..just wanna get this shit over with haha

4)Posted to Air Force! - wow i was damn happy when i realized i went air force!didn't think i'd land in a slacking place(better than being under the army any day)

5)bought my bass guitar!!! - till today I've not regretted buying that wonderful guitar.jamming distracts me from my aching heart =)

6)My virgin grind - lol this occurred at dbl-O with my NS frens.one fren kinda pushed me to this girl to grind...LOL

7)My virgin hangover - ok this was with kenny and rosh!also at dbl-O.since the drinks were so cheap, we spammed shots and jugs.i had 5-6 shots and shared 2 jugs."fucking great" is all i can say for the night,"greatly fucked" is all i felt in the morning...

8)A lvls results! - OMG i 4got about that impt shit of the year.haha principal talked A LOT of crap that kept everyone in unnecessary suspense.bitch XD GP getting A was god-like unexpected

9)SMU Accountancy!!! - amazing how i landed there.NTU and NUS offered me engineering, so they can just F*** off. totally didn't expect to get accountancy in SMU, becos i tot i screwed up my interview."Do you know that you got a C for PW?"yes of course I knew you birdbrain -.-

10)Mod my PSP - should've grown de balls to mod earlier...but kinda lucky i had those UMDs...come in handy at times haha

11)iPod Touch!- i rmb i bought it simply becos i wanted to (hopefully) download some camera-recorded Transformers ROTF movie and put it inside so that I could watch in camp.which was ultimate fail.not that i regret my iPod Touch =)

12)Liking so many gals - yeah...I just think singapore gals are awesome.heh.as i said,changing targets like changing clothes

13)Christmas turkey!!! - 1st proper turkey for christmas!!!and maybe my last.haha i preferred the otah =P

14)Feeling damn depressed about being single - ...

15)the thought of death and afterlife screwed me up - ...Let's not talk about this.

16)Photoshoot for portfolio! - the $600 is worth trying out

17)NOT interested in gaming any more - lol the interest just died.maybe it's l4d2's fault.

and looking back,i'm actually grateful for many things in life,mainly my family and frens.without my mom i'd have screwed up a lot of stuf this year...w/o the CR gang i'd be an emo dude rotting at home...the band gave me hope and fun of a band that may eventually go big...a source that stopped me from going for a target i can never win (Y) ...haha

My New year resolution?To finally have someone to hold, share my joys and problems, be my motivation to live on. And most of all, to make me smile again...

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

BORED!!!as usual...

so bored so tot i'd blog about...nothing.haha

hey you,go get FB!!!gogogogogogogogogo!!!haha

gonna get my uber cool glasses soon :)

Countdown!...Missed it!

omg can't believe we were too engrossed with our lan gaming last nite that we didn't realize it was 2010 until rosh called us at 12:10am LOL our countdown was kinda...screwed up becos of last minute backing out by ALL the gals...thanks a lot... -.- but all is forgiven becos we guys tried to make the best out of it (though i was really damn pissed off about the last minute back out thing,big time).we jammed at cr's place,then went for fish and co. which was jeff's treat!haha then we went for lan before gg to kenny's place to watch movies.

omg kenny's place is damn cool!the design is just awesome!it simply oozes class and standard.his kitchen is awesome too!haha no change in the toilet though ROFL same seashell toilet seat XD we watched 3 movies:paranormal activity,my girlfriend is a secret agent,and eagle eye(which i didn't actually watched becos i KOed after de 2nd movie).paranormal was kinda draggy mainly becos wat we wanted to see was wat happened at nite,and all de day events were quite redundant.but i have to admit the last few nites were damn scary,like when the lady suddenly got dragged off de bed.the last entry was the worst...her scream was simply spine-chilling...creepy.and de newspaper guy didn't help by throwing the newspaper over kenny's house gate -.- de korean movie was quite ok,there are some really funny parts but it's like Johnny English...spy crap.haha

today went to meet up with cousins.spammed goddamn table tennis haha gr8 to catch up wif them haha glad we did!can't wait for CNY =)

Who has to know
When we live such fragile lives

.....Dirty Little Secret