countdown to pre-summex and summex!shit shit shit wan time to fly at mach 3 or sth...haha another great obstacle in life...

...but all these obstacles are nothing to me, 'cause I'll overcome them to meet you at the end

I just received de news from lisa about rosh's loss...it's really a devastating blow.i hope rosh will have de strength in him to stay strong.if you ever need us we'll be there for you man...

guys,rmb what i said last week when you all insisted on me going clubbing?i told u guys that i wanted to spend time with my family becos you never know what happened...

once again i'm sorry rosh for what just happened in your life,and for the rest of you guys,every minute with your family is precious.treasure it instead of letting your pride or "independence" or watever your excuse is to stop you...

Up the (damn big) hill, down the slope

Wow this next 2 weeks are gonna be screwed up.OUTFIELD!another big uphill in life, but this time,i've got a motivation to drive me on.ultimate motivation!haha

actually hell started last week.this week had sunday confinement and today guard duty,so this week i was stuck in camp for 6 and half days.a guy can go nuts in such a situation.and only got a chance to use internet on monday,which means 5 days w/o FB and other wonderful internet sites...and to put a cherry on this wonderful dessert, a missile slammed into my right middle finger during a practical test yest.fortunately for the design of the system,there's a gap between the missile and the cradle,so my finger was merely crushed.if no gap,well,i'd only have one middle finger left.

gotta train my body!gonna hit the gym once my outfield is over!gotta work my shape...and define those 6 buggers XD after all, i don wanna look ugly in the photo shoot =)


It is simple things like this that I want to enjoy in my life...

The other me...

Have you ever feared death so bad that you feel so small and just wanna go one corner and emo?have you ever yearned to love someone so badly?have you ever hoped for someone to be there with you for the rest of your life?

I have. That's why ppl see me in a wrong manner.

"jan is sex-hungry".lol seriously i dunno where this came from.my bunkmates think me that way when I've NEVER ever talked about sex before.haha. And to me,i just wanna have someone important in my life, someone i can love and hold, someone who'd I'd die for and do my best just for her. I'm just the kind of guy who wants to enjoy married life(kids can totally wait,seriously).i mean,when i think of death, i feel like i plummet into this huge,black abyss of emptiness. the cold and loneliness eats into my heart, and my mind can simply steer off a cliff.If only there was someone there...to be the light in my life...and God doesn't count btw XD and why de hell do i look like i have sex b4...

one reason why i stop playing games alr becos i always feel like i wasted a few hours of my life,when all those precious minutes can be spent on sth better.i also hate death movies becos it just brings that death thing into my mind again (That's why i wasn't keen on watching Final Destination,CR gang haha)

Family is important becos nobody lives forever. One day, who knows who might just be taken away from you?Death is the point of no return.

One day i'll smoke,pierce my ear,and donate blood

If life's so boring, why not just end it?

I could have remembered to take back my psp if i followed ernest a bit longer

I could have spent some quality time with my family before my early book in

I could have caught up with some sleep

I could have been able to go online for a while or watch some TV

BUT THE NIGHT WAS FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP FUCKED UP

FUCK EVERYTHING,SERIOUSLY

long time...

Feels like AGES since i last blogged.haha got a short weekend this week becos i failed a test,hence my sunday is gonna be spent in camp.training is getting tougher yet more fun...with such gr8 frens,even de sufferings seem small XD

tmr gonna meet up with de cr gang,gonna dine.maybe club after dat,but i don feel up to it becos of $.haha see how see how.just listening to my iPod makes me wanna move to de beat!!!

Tonight's the night
Let's live it up
I got my money
Let's spend it up

blogging and FB getting dull...

life's so aimless now...

i hate NS life,no motivation at all...

zzz...

Only idiots think they know me inside out

dbl-O round 2.

yest went dbl-O with my course mates!haha awesome music(as usual),but de gals were kinda older than last week.though i admit some were smoking hot with their bloody short,tight skirts.haha we tried to find some girls but all failed.only one fren managed to end up making out on de dancefloor.haha but it's not wasted becos i kinda accomplished sth last nite.next time i should go butter factory or sth, somewhere with younger gals who enjoy dancing with guys(and don bring their own guy frens).only took 1 shot!haha had a massive nosebleed halfway,i had to run all de way to de toilet.there was a trail of blood,and my right hand was totally bloody.think the bouncer got a shock.haha

Move while you’re watching me
Dance with the enemy
Ive got a remedy oh uh oh uh oh

ok i'm gonna try to make my psp(ver 5.50) be able to play a ver 5.55 game.haha all de best to me...

Somebody call 911
Shawty fire burning on the dance floor
Whoa

double-O my gawd

yest went clubbing with kenny and rosh and my ns fren daniel.ken rosh and i ate at Manhattan fish market or sth like that,which was awesome.love the fries.haha then we went to check out rebel and double-O.took us damn long to find double-O and turns out we walked past the freaking place.haha and de girls in de queue were hot!haha den we were deciding where to go,and so we went back to rebel to get daniel.we went double-O again,and turns out min. age is 20 but they let us in.after that we walked all de way to novotel just to draw money.s'pore should really have more atm machines around.haha

de club music was just awesome.love de music,love the dancefloor,love the girls,hate the fact i didn't get to dance with any.nvm next time i'll grow bigger balls,or simply drink more powerful drinks to get more high.we had total of 6 shots each and shared 2 jugs of dunno-wat.after clubbing i was kinda high,talking a lot of shit in the taxi home.and when i got home i had the worst sleep EVER because of my bloody headache.and i felt like puking but when i tried to puke nothing came out.lol i totally hate hangovers...

haha sorry about my previous post i'm just...getting worse...de smile is never 100% genuine,so don be fool my frens.

FRIDAY NIGHT.NO CHANGES SHALL BE MADE UNLESS I KENA CONFINED.haha

Friday night
Baby are you sleeping
Friday night
My heart is still beating
It's alright
Open up your sleepy eyes
Come alive, come alive on Friday night

The other side...

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DeathDeathDeathDeathDeathHelp.DeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeath
DeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeath
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DeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeathDeath


...isn't always very pretty

yest went to celebrate shuyun's birthday with de band!well,almost de entire band,plus rosh.haha then watched Funny People.de jokes were damn good,though de storyline is a bit weak.haha was this close to clubbing last nite,but oh well.this friday,no questions asked.haha

i'm so tired of blogging,need some motivation...

Being single sucks so much.Seriously.

last nite l4d till 2 plus.wth...cr we will NEVER play l4d with you until after A levels alr.ROFL

Thx jeff for de seasons 1 & 2 of How I Met Your Mother!now can finally enjoy more funny shit.haha

Tired..................................................