Let's be free, You and Me

Weekend?

2012-02-02T20:36:00.003+08:00

Well, technically this is suppose to be my long weekly weekend, but I've make-up class on Saturday to make up for last Tuesday's lesson which was postponed due to Chinese New Year. Means I've got to wake up at 8:30am in the morning on Saturday! Bummer.

School's been getting exhausting. It feels like I've more readings to do this semester. And as much as I try to tell myself to study harder this semester, I feel like I'm not doing enough. Need to get motivated!

……ペ・ル・ソ・ナ……！！

2012-01-31T19:43:00.001+08:00

I finally got Persona 3 and Persona 3: FES to complete my Persona 3 collection! Woots! Didn't manage to get the Persona 4 game (curse you unknown buyer!) but I manage to download the iso, and hope it works! I tried on my PS2 emulator and it seems to run nicely, so here's to hoping for the best!

Now, back to work D:

Save All Data!

2012-01-29T18:55:00.001+08:00

Recently, my external hard disk died. It just did. I'm not sure how, because the previous time I used it, it was fine. Apparently my sister did use it before I discovered that it had a problem, so something must have happened during then. All my music, books, comics, shows, PSP games, PC games, movies, photos were all gone, just like that. Years worth of stuff collected and kept nicely in my hard disk, all gone. I felt like those parent who raised his kid from young, just to see the kid die in some freak accident. It tears your heart and all is lost. What's even better is that sites like Megaupload and Fileserve were disappearing, meaning that obtaining all my stuff would prove difficult.

My biggest worry was my music. My iTunes takes its music from my external HDD directly, as I did not want to store my songs in my computer. The size was too much, and I feared that storing my music in the computer would cause it to lag. Now, with the HDD gone, how was I going to get my songs? All my songs in my iPhone would be gone the next time I synced it with iTunes. Does that mean I should never sync it forever? And then it dawned upon me: my last salvation for my music was my iPhone. Stored inside was another copy of of all my music, and that was my best chance to restore my music library!

So I spent an entire night trying various programs that would export all my stuff from my iPhone to my computer. Took me a lot of tries, but just went I was on the verge of giving up, I found a program that answered my prayers. So I downloaded the program, and wanted to transfer it to my laptop via thumbdrive. But somehow, all external devices were write-protected suddenly and I couldn't! So I slowly transferred from my computer to my laptop via Dropbox, which took really long.

*Apparently, I went to change some setting to make that write-protected nonsense, but I managed to solve that issue today^^*

With that program, I managed to save all my songs, except that some of them needed to be edited in iTunes. That settled the music, next was my shows.

Fortunately for me, my old HDD was still working, and in it was quite a lot of my stash of shows, except for recent ones. This helped to soften the blow of the loss of my HDD.

Then I have another source I could tap on to get back my data: friends. I've been sharing stuff like my shows , books and comics to them, so in a way they have a copy of what I lost. That way, I could get them to send me those stuff and in a way salvage more of my data!

Really, Western Digital just ruined my collection. Plus, they charge $800+ to try to retrieve all my data, which my friend already checked and said that all my data were gone already. No way am I spending so much on all the stuff I got for free!

At least, to some extent, crisis averted.

D-Arts Izanagi Toy Review

2012-01-25T21:40:00.001+08:00

Just bought the new Izanagi from Persona 4 by D-Arts! Being a big fan of Persona 3, I slowly got interested in Persona 4(although my love is still for Persona 3)! My initial plan was to only get D-Arts Thanatos from Persona 3, which is scheduled to be released in April. And then I saw a picture of Thanatos and Izanagi battling it out, and I couldn't resist it.

This baby cost me $55, but not that I'm complaining. Purchasing toys of that price range has become rather a norm for me. Anyway, once I opened the box, all the potential regrets for purchasing this toy was gone immediately. Just from looking at the toy, without removing it from the plastic, I was amazed by the details of the figure. Every part of the persona was sculpted and painted very well, and there were several different hands for you to change.

A base is provided, which is good because I've never seen any persona stand on their feet. Just look at Izanagi's feet! The bottom of his feet were blades!

And just to let us fan boys re-enact cool poses of Izanagi, those "energy" props(sorry can't think of a good name!) are given to give more effect! Let's move on to the toy itself!

I'll start with the bad points. Well, first thing I noticed was that the head joint was rather loose. Especially after attaching the head...tails??? thing to the back of his head, Izanagi's head kinda follows where gravity takes it. But never fear! Because the adjustable... "head-tails" can rest on the stand used to prop Izanagi up, which helps solve that problem. The bigger issue is the sword. Don't worry, the sword looks AWESOME, but the toy's lanky arms are not really able to take the weight of the sword! It took me a few tries to get the sword balancing on Izanagi's wrists to take the slashing pose photo!

Moving on to the GREAT points! I love the detailing. The head itself is so cool that if I lost the whole toy except the head, I'd make it into a keychain and still be happy ^^ Just kidding. I'm really impressed with the detailing of the toy, and the toy can pose quite well too!

Well, the legs are somewhat restricted by the cape thing, but those sexy legs can still come out from underneath! With the various hand shapes, you can make your Izanagi do many memorable poses. I've not played the game(I shall, soon...) but I'm watching the anime and I know a few cool poses to do(actually I followed the box)! The "head-tail" thing is also adjustable, since it uses the ball joint to attach to the head! Plus, the stand lets you do even more poses, along with making your Izanagi look like it's hovering.

This toy is really, really good, and if you're a Persona fan you'll love it! I know I do! Sure, those two bad points may sounds turn-off, but once you hold this baby in your hands, you won't give a damn!

Chinese New Year!

2012-01-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Fa Cai! That's probably the only Chinese phrase I know to say during this festive season. And I think CNY is here a bit too early. It's suppose to be in February, as the holiday I look forward to to take a break from studies! But it's so early, that my December holiday mood is still lingering.

Went to watch my friends' Emix concert yesterday, and it was pretty good! Although I couldn't decide who I was suppose to look at during the performance, and ended up missing some good parts. I also kept looking out for my friends, which kind of made me enjoy the show a bit less. But good work guys! Can't wait to see the next one!

I visited the maid cafe at Funan yesterday too! And I felt a bit weird going there, with all the heart-shape pillows and really weird chairs. The maid serving us asked me if I was a cosplayer. And I found the rules at the back of the menu rather amusing. Apparently, you were not allowed to take photos with the maids, nor ask them out, or ask for their personal information and stuff. Makes me think that those pervs go there to ogle at the maids!

Happy New Year!

2012-01-15T10:07:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm pretty sure this is my first post of the new year(shall check my blog later to confirm this)! And how did I spend the countdown? Relaxing in Bangkok! But honestly, I feel glad to be back in Singapore. If there's one thing I truly missed, it was the Singaporean girls. Singaporean girls look so much better than any other girls! I think the eyebrows of Thailand girls kinda affect their looks. I've seen some with rather thick eyebrows. Even saw a uni-brow.

Well, every new year that comes, there's a resolution right? Well, I haven't really put any thought into it, but I guess mine would be "to get a girlfriend". I know, it sounds stupid, and pathetic, but c'mon. 21 years old, and I never even had a Valentine's date. I told my friends that this year Valentine's we shall all have a date for Valentine's day, and apparently they already have a target they are making progress with. Me? Nothing.

In fact, I kind of feel tired to bother chasing any girl as of now. I'm tired of being the one who makes the first move, just to be turned down and have my spirits crushed. This time, I feel like being on the receiving end.

Moved the desktop out of my room! That has reduced my time spent on gaming by a lot! Which is good, as the new school term has started and I got to focus. I guess my time table is nice this time, since school is from Monday to Wednesday, with my weekend starting early on Thursday!

Oh, and I got an iPhone! Seriously, Singtel is bullshit. All Singtel outlets have their iPhones all sold out. One shop was even more anal; he said there is only stock, but only if you are buying it without contract. So basically, that douchebag just wanna get more money. So in the end I changed my line to an M1 student plan one, and I got a 64GB iPhone 4S! Don't forget my custom-made iPhone cover! Love how the cover turned out!

Because of the new year, many shows were not following their weekly release. So glad that the new anime episodes are coming out! Plus, new series to follow!

Persona 4 The Animation is as entertaining as ever. Now with the murder cases so-called done, the recent episodes focused on daily lives of the characters, which is a good break.

Been dying to see the next Guilty Crown episode, and I was so glad it came out! Finally we learn the past of Shuu and the Lost Christmas, plus a closure(?) to a story arc.

Bakuman season 2 continues! And each episode seems better than the last, and keeps me wanting for more!

Sket Dance is still going strong, and they started the year with my favourite chapter! The one with the fake Super Mario game! Hope this anime will air for a long time to come!

If you've watched Bakemonogatari, you'd want to catch Nisemonogatari! And the first episode was such a laugh! With the unique artwork and interesting characters, this anime has never fail to impress me and this first new episode looks rather promising! But why does Hitagi have short hair!!! D:

My only disappointment of new series Danshi Koukousei no Nichijou is that it's all short stories in an episode. Means there won't be any main storyline to follow. However, that is a rather minor thing because all the short stories are really humorous and entertaining!

Oh and yesterday I got stuck in the circle line. I wanted to take the train down to Dhoby Ghaut, and looking at the map, I assumed that if you wanted to take the train to Marina Bay, you'd need to change train at Promenade. I found it a bit odd that the map did not put a circle at the Promenade station, because they do that to stations like City Hall and Raffles Place where you can change trains. So I ended up at Marina Bay, and I took a train back to Promenade. And you know how the different line tends to be one level higher or lower? I went up the escalator, took the train, and realized only too late that the train was also going Marina Bay. Apparently that one track had alternating trains: one to Marina Bay and the next to Dhoby Ghaut. What kind of stupid joke is SMRT trying to pull??!! And it seems that I was not the only person who got onto the wrong train. A lot of people were in the same boat as me.

The End Of 2011

2011-12-31T20:07:00.001+08:00

Well, we are hours away from 2012, and it's time to look back at what memorable things I have done this year! I need to refer to my Facebook to remember certain stuff!

-ORD!!!
- Start of University life
- Tangled in a triangle
- Met an awesome girl, but somehow things didn't work out
- Dyed my hair blue
- Took my first (and only) puff of cigarette
- Team Fortress 2, Battlefield 3, Blackshot, Dota, so many games...
- Still single for V-day again...
- Chiong-ing anime! Hanasaku Iroha, Sket Dance, Tiger & Bunny, The World God Only Knows 2, Oreimo, AnoHana, X-men, Gosick, etc.
- Learn to DJ!

...and that's all I can think of. And what do I want for 2012? Well, mainly to get a girlfriend, I guess. Oh well...haha

Awesome

2011-12-27T00:19:00.001+08:00

Just had awesome BBQ, today gonna play cards whole day, tomorrow is Bangkok. HELL YEAH!

See This?

2011-12-25T21:43:00.000+08:00

This is what I want. I want that.

Persona Music Live

2011-12-22T20:28:00.003+08:00

Went to download the video of Persona Music Live ~ Velvet Room in Akasaka Blitz, which was a concert held in 2008, and it's damn cool! All the Persona 3,4 and Trinity Soul songs being played live is just amazing! There are favourites like Burn My Dread and Suicides Love Story! Also, I was impressed with Your Affection, where the singer can suddenly go to high pitch during the chorus. And the guitarist is wicked! Man, I wish I could attend it!

The Best Part

2011-12-20T21:02:00.002+08:00

Half the December holiday has passed, and the best part has yet to come! Friday is the BBQ gathering for the usual gang, Sunday is Christmas family gathering, Monday is my accountancy group Christmas gift exchange, Tuesday is dueling, Wednesday is BANGKOK! Woots!

First semester results out? Whatever. Not like seeing it will change anything. Well, except my mood. So why check? Enjoy!

Gonna get iPhone 4S next month, and I'm so going for the black 64GB one! Excited!

The blue of my hair is getting lighter. Noooooooooo!

As for the Weiss Schwarz card game, I'm so loving it! And I realize there are some super rare cards, and ther's one I'm dying to get! Although the chances of finding anyone selling it is rather low...

And what anime am I catching this season? Thought I'd update a bit on that!

1. Persona 4 The Animation
Honestly, the only reason why I decided to watch it was because of the awesome Persona 3 game. And the anime is pretty good. Gonna wait for the PS Vita version of the game to be released!

2. Bakemonogatari
I watched this because my friend uses a Weiss Schwarz deck involving this anime. And I have to admit, it is quite a different anime from the usual, and it's quite interesting! It's pretty old already though.

3. Bakuman season 2

4. Sket Dance

Guess Which One I'm Getting? :D

2011-12-18T23:50:00.001+08:00

iPhone Covers

2011-12-18T02:19:00.000+08:00

I was at a site today which allows you to make your own custom iPhone cover with any image you want, as long as the resolution of the image is acceptable. I made around 20 different covers to decide from, and I feel like getting all! But that would be crazy. So I'll just choose one first. If the quality is good, I'll get more! :D

Funny thing. I don't even have an iPhone, yet I'm looking at covers. Yes, I'm pretty sure I'm getting myself an iPhone 4S next January, but don't count your chicks before they hatch, right?

I realize I've a lot of catching up in my blog to do. Here goes...

Why am I suddenly talking about iPhone? Well, recently the internal screen or whatever of my Nokia phone cracked, and apparently Nokia says that it is stated in the warranty that such damage is not covered. Does exterior kind like chipped off corners are covered, but internal damage and wear and tear of the components are not? Seriously, Nokia is a bloody joke. I am 100% sure I'll never use Nokia phones again. Just go back to Finland.

And it seems my blue hair is starting to get lighter, according to my dad. And I might be noticing it a bit too, specifically the fringe part. Ah well, gonna make it a darker blue once this dye fades away!

So addicted to that Weiss Schwarz card game, even though my deck never won a single time on Friday! I just want to go back for more and make my deck more powerful!

Can't believe I didn't know that The Mentalist season 4 is out! I've got a lot of downloading to do!

Sherlock Holmes: Game of Shadows! Want to watch it!

BBQs are around the corner. Gotta prepare!

Counting down to Bangkok trip!!!

Money's really, really tight. Sian :(

Sayonara Desktop!

2011-12-15T11:09:00.001+08:00

I think I shall move my desktop out of my room! Means less gaming for me!

All About Weiss Schwarz

2011-12-13T19:41:00.001+08:00

It's funny. I saw this card game around since STGCC this year, and I was wondering what was so fascinating of playing a card game involving all the anime girls. Sounds like some... fetish to me. Because all the cards seemed to be just the little girls from anime, posing and being cute and what-not.

Then I saw some card game involving Persona 3 recently, and I just had to buy it. I didn't know what card game it was, nor how to play it. It's just... PERSONA 3. Buy first, ask questions later. And I did. Turns out it was the same Japansese TCG as the one I have seen many people play.

So I went home, tried to understand the 30-page long manual, and search for translations for all the Japanese cards, but I still understood nothing. So yesterday I dropped by the shop at Dhoby Ghaut card shop and asked two guys there to teach me! And wow suddenly the game seemed much simpler! In fact, I'm enjoying the game more than Yu-Gi-Oh!, mostly because this is a balanced game and you get to form your deck around specific characters you like!

I decided to download the PSP game for it, Weiss Schwarz Portable, and give it a whirl even though it was Japanese. Unfortunately, after 5 minutes of trial and error, I still can't seem to play a single card battle. Just loads of talking that made no sense to me.

I started watching Guilty Crown, and I actually enjoy it! I think the main reason why I got hooked to it is the fact that the main character is actually pretty flawed. He is cowardly, lost, and plain noob. But as the main character, and with a wicked cool sword, I'm sure watching him transform into a real hero will be interesting. Been catching up with a lot of anime too! Like Bakuman season 2!

And somehow the screen of my phone is spoiled. It's like, one moment it was fine, next moment it's screwed. I had the phone in my hand the whole time, and I didn't drop it or anything, yet it became like that. Nokia, you disappoint me.

The Sibling You Never Knew

2011-12-12T10:47:00.001+08:00

Yesterday my mom told my sister and I during breakfast that she actually had a miscarriage before conceiving me. Apparently, it was one-month old, and probably due to stress or the roller coaster rides she and my dad took, she had a miscarriage during the 20-hour flight from U.S. to Singapore.

To know that you actually could have an older sibling is just... shocking. I could've been a second child. I could have an older sibling to look after me, who I could look up to. The older brother/sister that I would never know of...

But then, if that child was born, I may not have been born. Which means, in a way, my unknown older sibling died for me to live. I now feel like I'm alive at the cost of another's life.

Or maybe I'm just disturbed by how my mom can tell us about this so casually.

Either way, this news shook me up pretty badly.

Weiss Schwarz?

2011-12-07T22:33:00.001+08:00

Apparently, Weiss Schwarz is the name of the japanese card game I see people playing quite often. I remember seeing at card shops and even this year's STGCC. It's all anime girls, which is kinda like a fetish. Until today. Today, at the new Katong Mall, I was at a game shop and there I saw was a card game with Persona 3 characters. It seems that this Weiss Schwarz card game not only does anime characters, but those from games too. So I went to buy whatever that was left of the Persona 3 booster packs from the shop.

Also, remember the Persona 3 Portable Collector's Edition I bought some time back from a shop at Orchard? Well, the shop I was at is the same shop, and the guy remembers me. Even with my new blue hair! LOL

Oh ya my new hair. It's really nice, and I realize it is REALLY blue under bright light.haha A bit too bright at times, but overall really satisfying! :D

I finished the drawing on Excel! I still trying to perfect the face, though. Excel is so cool!haha

Bummer

2011-12-05T10:18:00.001+08:00

Well, I didn't get into the exco for Stereometa. I have to admit, I'm quite shocked about it. I was looking so forward to being part of the exco and giving my ideas. Plus, exco means I could access the room anytime I wanted. But the results were out yesterday and I didn't get in.

Feeling really bummed out about it right now.

Succeed Or Dye Trying

2011-12-03T22:04:00.001+08:00

Well, my hair got pretty screwed. Yesterday's dye was quite fail, because even under light, the blue was so unnoticeable. As good as not dying. So my mom made another appointment for me today at that same place, and this time I had a photo of the kind of blue I wanted to have for my hair. I wanted the blue to be visible even indoors. And it seems like they actually understood.

And then there's that shitty feeling when, after another round of bleaching and dying, the hair looked the same as before. Barely any change. WTH. And the lady said that she used the same dye, just that she rinsed it off faster or something. Either way, it was a waste of time today. Fortunately the hair salon my mom frequents can dye my hair the way I want it, and I've already made an appointment on Wednesday. Hopefully, third time's the charm.

Forever 21

2011-12-03T03:14:00.001+08:00

Well, my 21st birthday has come and gone, and I must say, it was pretty fun!haha

Thursday I met with some friends to watch Immortals, play L4D and pool, then Hangover 3! Immortals reminded me of 300, and it was not what I expected it to be. The poster showed the 4 gods( Zeus, Athena, Ares, Poseidon), so I thought the movie was about them. Turns out the movie was about some mortal. And the movie is rather gory! 3 movies in 3 consecutive days!

Hangover 3 was better than anticipated! The music and crowd was good! I got chased down the street by my friend, and I heard someone guessing that there was going to be a fight.LOL Anyway the night went well, except for the last part... and the DJ was not that good, I feel. The transition between some songs were abrupt or poorly done, but his choice of songs for the night was pretty good! Got less high after 3am, and finally decided to go home. And I didn't drink any alcohol! So proud of myself! Nearly decided to smoke though D:

Today I went to dye my hair. My mom was making such a big fuss about bleaching that I expected the hair to be really bad after bleaching. Turns out it looked damn nice. In fact, it looks better than my final colour, which is supposedly dark blue but is barely visible unless under bright light. And how does that look Korean? First thing that came to my mind was: Ah Beng! Went to meet my Asoc group mates and they surprised me with a cake! Damn touched! :)

I had another celebration at home with my family before meeting the gang for supper, which turned out to be another surprise for me! Although I kind of suspected after that afternoon incident. Still, it was a really thoughtful gesture and the fact that we got caught in the rain makes the night more memorable! We ate chicken rice and played LAN which was really entertaining!

4 cakes during my 21st birthday. Sure I may not have got what I planned, which was a yacht party, but then I got to spend the day with my family and friends, having loads of fun, so it is still a birthday worth considered special as a 21st birthday!

The Start Of The Holiday

2011-12-01T00:04:00.001+08:00

Well, holiday is here! December is just in a few days and I'm so happy! Really appreciate having a break after a long semester! And imagine, I am going to be like that 7 more times in my 4 years in SMU!

Today is the last paper for quite a lot of my friends, so I can kind of openly talk about enjoying the holiday already! I've been trying to tell myself not to stay home and play computer, considering I bought Battlefield 3 and Batman: Arkham City. I wanted to go out and hang out with my friends rather than rot at home. I'm making sure I'm going out almost every day if I can!

Went to run on Sunday night, which followed by Battlefield 3! Monday I went to school to DJ a bit before meeting my friend to play Yu-Gi-Oh! It's been a long time since I played it, and it feels great to have another friend to play it with me! Tuesday I met Sihua to watch Breaking Dawn: Part 1. And it was quite draggy. Some parts I found ridiculously funny, and I covered my eyes during the part where Bella gave birth. I bought a popcorn combo which gave the Puss In Boots cup, but I left it at Topshop! :( I went to shove it onto a railing while waiting for Sihua to try on some clothes and I totally forgot about it! Only remembered when we boarded the train home D: Sad ttm!

Today was another movie! This time Puss In Boots! Cute cat!!! haha Went Orchard with my friend before that in search of Yu-Gi-Oh! cards but to no avail. Met our LTB group for the movie and dinner and the pub opposite my school.

Tomorrow is going to be another movie!!! And Hangover 3! I shall not drink. I shall not drink. I shall not drink. I shall not drink. I shall not drink. I shall not drink. I shall not drink.

I got quite bored of Battlefield 3 quite fast. And I'm now into drawing on Microsoft Excel, which CR taught me. So cool! But it needs a lot of patience. Drawing a detailed gun took me the whole night! But, I love it!

Today I finally bought something I searched high and low for; and was nearly going to give up looking for it. But today I went to this game shop, which sold a lot of PSP games, including special editions, and I went to try my luck. I couldn't find it at first, and was about to give up, but then I saw another section beside it also displaying PSP games and I finally found it!!!!! Persona 3 Portable Collector's Edition!!!! Even though I've completed the game twice(and playing a 3rd time now) and recently did a very long review about it, I wanted to buy it for collecting sake! Such an awesome game should be bought! So happy! It's like a birthday present to myself! :)

Don't ask me what I want,
Because I know I can never have.

Persona 3 Portable: The Review

2011-11-24T16:05:00.001+08:00

Firstly, all the photos shown here are taken from my gameplay. None of them are taken from websites or anything.

Secondly, this post is merely a review done by me, my honest opinion of the game, and may hold spoilers for those who never played to the end of the game.

Thirdly, this review is done recently after finishing the female main character (FeMC) route.

Enjoy this photo-filled review!

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First Impression

I'm not too sure how I ended up playing this game. As in, the particular reason of why I even put this game into my PSP to try. It was last year, during my second year serving NS. I saw one of my friends playing this game, and I remember the screen being something like that:

I asked him what kind of game that was. He said it was some RPG game, and honestly I was never really a big fan of RPG games, especially on PSP. I played Valkyrie Profile: Lenneth a long time ago, and I did not like it. And that kind of made all RPG games an instant turn-off for me. So there I was, looking at the screen of the classroom, and wondered what kind of lame game that was. I mean, you are not even controlling a character in there. Moving your analog merely moved your cursor around the screen. What kind of stupid game was that? My friend told me there would be fights and stuff, but I didn't stay long enough to even check it out.

And I think I ended up taking the game from him. Or maybe I downloaded it myself. Either way, I put it into my PSP, gave it a try, and I never stopped until I reached the end. Because I realized that this game was really, really awesome(for lack of a better term). It was just...perfection. No flaws I could possibly think of.

The Story

I recall the first cutscene. It showed a girl pointing a gun at her head, probably trying to commit suicide. And the first thing that came across my mind was, this game has a suicidal bitch? What kind of twisted game is this? Is everyone going to start committing suicide? But I persevered. And played on.

The game starts with your character reaching Iwatodai, some town in Japan. The clock strikes midnight, and suddenly the world turns creepy. Then you head to your new dormitory to bump into the suicide girl and the other tenants. Soon, you are thrown into the world of Persona, learning about the Dark Hour and shadows. Basically, there are 25 hours in one day, the Dark Hour being that extra hour after midnight that only you and certain people remain awake in. You go to school, meeting new friends, yet trying to take out the 12 big shadows that appear, one at every full moon. You learn about the origins of the Dark Hour and that tall, weird building called Tartarus that appears only during that time.

I have to admit, the game has a pretty flexible and interesting storyline. While most of the fun tends to lie in the gameplay in games, the story in this game is just as good. You experience romance, friendship, death, school life... and of course there are unexpected plot twists that really impressed me. The story is really rich, and it keeps you going, not wanting to stop. And like all games, this game has a rather happy ending!

Gameplay

It's interesting how this game brings you through almost every single day of your main character for one whole year, which is how many days? That's a lot of days. Which is pretty cool. And since you're a school student, there are exam periods and holidays too. You even get to celebrate Christmas in-game.

This game is kind of divided into two. By day, you are just a student who has to worry about everyday stuff like exams and friends. By night, you are part of the S.E.E.S. team, exploring Tartarus and killing shadows. So, in a way, this game is like a simulation and dungeon-crawling game. Two-in-one, huh?

During the day, you attend school 6 days a week, going for CCA activities and hanging out with people to maximize your social links(I'll cover that later). There is one for each of 22 Arcana. There are days when everyone wants to find you, and a few days when you have nobody to hang out with. By hanging out with people, you get to learn more about them and, in a way, go through a mini-story regarding them. One example is a student who is in love with a teacher in school, and by hanging out with him you kind of see how it all turns out in the end.

Of course, when school's out you actually get to explore Iwatodai. You can choose to head to the police station to claim your rewards for saving people and purchase cool weapons and gear, go to the shrine and pray for good fortune, or simply head down to the karaoke to sing your heart out and boost your confidence.

As you go through your year in Gekkoukan High, you also need to build up your character. Studying helps increase your intelligence, you need to work up your courage in order to do certain stuff, and a certain "someone" needs you to be charming enough to hang out with her.

When the clock strikes midnight, you enter the Dark Hour. The shadows come out and play, and so do you. You will head down to your school, which is now the really tall Tartarus building, and that's where your dungeon-crawling begins. In a team of four, you and your allies explore the building, constantly going higher to reach the top. Along the way you meet small shadows and some bigger ones that are like "mini-bosses". That's where the fighting begins.

Now, you fight shadows with two things: your weapon and your persona. Think of it as Pokemon, just that Ash can choose to use his Pikachu or the weapon he is holding(maybe a Pokedex?) to attack the wild pokemon. Your choice of attack depends on your enemies' weaknesses. Each shadow and ally have their own weakness and strength elements. For instance, some enemies have a weakness for fire attacks which I can exploit, while some actually can absorb your fire attacks and use the damage to heal instead.

Because your character is "special", he has a total of around 170 different personas open to him. But new personas can only be obtained either through shuffle time or fusing multiple personas that you have. This is where your social links actually come in. By progressing in a particular social link, you are able to make more personas of that Arcana. In this game, Arcana is a "category", like Fool, Empress, Strength, Fortune, Hanged Man, etc. As mentioned earlier, there are 22 different types Arcana. Fusing your lower level personas will bring about bigger, stronger ones to do your bidding.

I have to admit, I initially did not like the personas. They didn't really look cool or anything, and some looked quite revolting. One even looks like a giant penis. Like, seriously. But I got used to them eventually... by using those that looked nicer.

You can teach your personas new skills, and make them wield the right skills you want. Each persona can carry 10 skills with them each time, so learning a new one required replacing a current one. Which reminds me of Pokemon... In fact, while you can carry 6 Pokemon with you each time, you can carry up to 10 personas each time in this game. But have some space available in case you pick up some personas while exploring Tartarus.

With you and your allies being able to reach a maximum level of 99, it is up to you whether you want to grind you way to that level, or simply play to the end of the game without caring about that. You don't actually need to be level 99 to complete the game, but at level 99 your health and stamina bar will be 999! Compared to the prior highest of 500(?) at lvl 98.

Oh, and there are really funny costumes you can equip your characters with! Maid outfits, swimwear, tuxedos... equip them to your team and chat with them in Tartarus for some amusement! Heck, even the team you choose has some funny conversations!

While this game can be action-packed and fun, some of the fun lies in the daytime storyline itself. One instance is the hot spring incident, which you players would enjoy. You can also have romance, if you decide on who you want to chase. I ended up chasing Yukari, who was that suicide girl in the beginning. Who would have guessed? But there are at least 3 other romance options I know of in the game, which means it is up to you who you want your character to get into a relationship with.

The End?

When you complete the game, you can choose to start a new game using your completed game, which means your equipment and personas would be brought over. You can choose to tackle the game at a higher difficulty, or try the female main character route. The FeMC is a new feature only for Persona 3 Portable, and there are various changes in the gameplay and storyline itself which makes it worth playing for people who completed the male route and want to experience new characters and possible storylines.

After completing the game the first time, I wanted to play the game again using the FeMC, but I ended up playing another game that came out at that time: Valkyria Chronicles II. And that is another f***ing awesome game that I shall do a long review in future, because it deserves it. It was only this year that I decided to play the FeMC route, probably because of the Persona 4: The Animation and also I missed the game. Played it, got level 99, went to unlock as many new personas as possible, and trained my members to all be level 99 too. Hardcore, yes. So?

If you ever have a PSP, or PS2, do grab this game if you like RPG, dungeon-crawling, or dating simulation games. Or if you simply want a really good game. Play this, and you won't regret it.

Tintin!

2011-11-19T00:12:00.001+08:00

Well, just watched the Tintin movie just now, and I must say that the movie is pretty good! They changed the story quite a bit from the comics, but it all goes down quite smoothly! It's great to hang out with my Thor friends! Never a dull moment! Up next, Puss in Boots!

Captain Haddock: You do know what you're doing, right?

Tintin: Relax. I interviewed a pilot once!

Yu-Gi-Oh!

2011-11-18T15:45:00.001+08:00

YGO has changed a lot since it first started. In fact, I'm quite sick of how drastic the changes are. Now with the new ZEXAL series, there's some new way of summoning monsters. Deck tactics are becoming more about swarming the field and one-turn kills. What happen to the good old days?

"As long as you believe in the heart of the cards!"

www.blahspot.com

2011-11-18T00:07:00.001+08:00

Well, exams are next week! And it's hard for me to feel serious about it. I wonder why...

Honestly, there's nothing much to blog about these few days. I've been at home blasting music and studying. Like, for the first time. Studying at home. Miracles do happen!haha

Ah what the heck. Nobody blogs anymore these days, let alone read one. How many people read my blog? I bet even she stopped reading a long time ago. Funny how she's the only girl I've never been able to fully let go. Other girls come and go, but somehow I can't totally forget her.

This girl is the pink ranger from Power Rangers: Time Force.

And doesn't she look familiar in HIMYM?

This lady here is Erin Cahill, and she is hot!haha She acted as Ted Mosby's sister in HIMYM!

Speaking of which, I found a blog showing the cast of various Power Rangers series in other shows! Cool! http://afterthepower.blogspot.com/

The December List

2011-11-17T00:23:00.001+08:00

I know I know, exams are around the corner(next week, in fact). But I'm already thinking about what to do when holiday starts! So I have a list of things I want to try to get done during this December:

-Dye my hair dark blue
-Figure out how to celebrate my 21st
-donate blood for first time
-get the DJ controller
-DJ at some event or gathering or something
-go crazy in Bangkok
-enter a sleazy massage place in Bangkok
-pierce my ear
-write a long review for Persona 3 Portable

Well, that's all I can think of for now.haha

Had a really weird dream today. Why does she keep popping up in my mind? I ~~don't~~ can't like her.

Life Lessons

2011-11-16T16:09:00.001+08:00

Well, today I learnt two lessons. One at the price of $40, which is quite stupid.

You see, since last Friday, I've been organizing a movie outing for my accounting group for this coming Friday. We were to watch movie and have dinner. I was really pissed off today when 3 of the 6 confirmed going suddenly say they were not going, because of something. I never like this kind of stunts. So, in my really unhappy state, I told everyone that I'd cancel it. One of the remaining friends who was still going commented that she already turned down her other friends to watch with us, and that sentence struck me.

Because of a few people backing out, I gave up entirely on the plan, which included those who were still going. And I realized, in a way, I was giving up. And I told myself never to give up in anything, or anyone, since quite some time ago. There's a story for that, but I shall not talk about it today. Anyway, I realized I should continue the outing, instead of cancelling it on behalf of my frustration. Because that would be unfair to the rest. So I decided to continue the outing. I'm glad my friend's sentence shook me before I did something stupid. Because, no matter what, be it something you're doing, or a friend of yours, you never give up. Never.

Okay, now for the second lesson, which is pretty stupid, if you ask me. I went to book the tickets for the movie for the first time ever, and I unknowingly booked for today, instead of Friday. Which meant I lost $40. GV doesn't allow cancellation after confirmation either. Oh well, lesson learnt. Never be complacent. I should've checked my booking before confirming. Plus, I should not do it when I just wake up from an awesome nap. HAHA

Downloading the Tintin cartoon! And how can the movie trailer look boring? It's so awesome!

Music In My Head

2011-11-15T20:03:00.001+08:00

Okay. I really need to go to school if I am to study. Tomorrow, full throttle! Biz Law, if you are gonna bring me down, I'm pulling you down with me!

Oh ya, and I was at Parkway Parade area to get my hair cut and I saw some Mediacorp filming.

Been downloading a lot of songs, to get the better quality ones. Clubbing music makes my heart beat faster and adrenaline starts to pump. Just love listening to them!hahaha

I've been looking at those DJ controllers and I've my eyes on the Numark Mixtrack Pro, which my senior recommended me to get. Means I will be able to spin at home! ^.^ But I'll wait for Amazon.com to have Christmas sale.

I realize that I'm no longer sure what I want in a girl. I kind of lost my mood to try to find the right girl. And even if I do, am I actually ready to commit my time and energy to her? Feel rather lazy to do that right now XD

Tintin! Dying to watch you!!!!

Maybe I should just quit school and DJ full-time.HAHAHA... no, seriously.

Love Keeps You Waiting

2011-11-15T13:55:00.001+08:00

Everyone is saying I look like I'm attached, or that I look like I can easily find a girl, or that I'm good with girls and relationships. Then, if I may so boldly ask, why am I still single? Everyone says to be patient and wait. But for how long? I'm not growing any younger as the clock ticks!haha

Study break. Study study study. Really can't wait for exams to be over!

And I still don't know how to celebrate my 21st birthday. Damn...

You Are The Apple In My Eye

2011-11-14T10:42:00.001+08:00

If you haven't watched it yet, I highly recommend it to you! Even though I missed the first half hour, I loved whatever left I got to watch. That movie is really, really funny, and the sweet romance in it is just awesome. Trust me, you will enjoy it! And I expected it to have a really screwed ending, like that movie Shinjiku Incident or whatever that starred Jackie Chan. But don't worry! It's an entertaining and heartwarming movie!

I watched it with my project buddies on Saturday, and we had dinner at this awesome chicken rice place! We bought two whole chicken! And the kangkong there was nice! And surprisingly, we ended up playing Left4Dead after that! 4v4! Nice! I'm surprised at how spontaneous the girls were!haha

I'm not sure about the rest, but I'm so looking forward to watching Tintin this Friday! :)))))))))))

Hmmm....

2011-11-14T10:20:00.001+08:00

You know, now that I look back on Friday night, what I did was not cool at all. The first cigarette isn't really the main problem. I guess I always wanted to try at least once. But God, the smell seems to stay on your hands!

What irked me the most was that I went to add some girl from my CCA and just start a chat with her. I'm not sure why I did that. Maybe I was high from the cigarette. Or from the alcohol (which I doubt so since I took so little). Or lack of sleep. Or maybe plain cocky-ness just because I spinned at the event the night before and I was getting a lot of praises for it. The thing is, I'm probably gonna work with this person for quite some time, and what I did is probably the kind of things I tend to despise guys of doing: adding girls they barely met on Facebook just to chat with them.

I always didn't like guys who randomly added girls just because they think the girls are hot and just want to chat with them and try their luck. And then I realize, I'm doing just that. It's like when Batman realized he was this close to using a gun, which he swore never to use.

When you let things get into your head, you tend to do stupid stuff. And look where that got me. I stayed up late, I smoked(but I'm never gonna do that again), I went to add some stranger, I dozed off in my morning class, I missed the anime festival, and I turned up late for the movie outing.

I know this is gonna screw up people's perception of me, but I'm going to apologize to that girl on Facebook for adding her like that out of the blue, and then I'll remove her as friend. If we become friends, then I'll add her back. As of now, I need to make things right.

High On DJ

2011-11-12T07:13:00.001+08:00

Last night was just awesome! I got to DJ at the post-Starry Night event at Colours, and I enjoyed it! Even though I was nervous at first, seeing the crowd get high when I play the music is just so satisfying. Really, there are no words to describe the feeling of being the reason they get high. Love that one hour of DJ-ing!

However, I must admit the night went a bit crazy. I took my first smoke, and played some really long blackjack! And honestly, smoking is not my thing. It's like having some burning sensation in your lungs, and it kept me coughing away. So no, I highly doubt I'll smoke ever again.

And right now, I feel a bit of a douche for randomly adding this girl and chatting her up. I don't know why I did that. In fact, I kinda feel like a Ted after a St. Patrick's day. I need sleep so badly right now...haha

Good morning, world.

DCUO Is Awesome!

2011-11-07T09:21:00.000+08:00

Well, I've been playing DCUO for a while now, and I'm liking this game! It's really fun to do missions with a partner in crime(literally), and there are really hilarious moments like us transformed into rhinoceros. And in one day, we fought Wonder Woman, Batman, Robin, Supergirl, Zatanna... feels good to own the heroes!haha And there's the moments where you see a citizen at the top of a building contemplating to commit suicide and you give them a push...

Had a dream recently about this girl I know, and in the dream she was telling me based on looks, I rated only 5/10. And to make things worse, she said that, if she were to take into consideration everything else about me, it would be even lower. Wow, talk about my dreams beating down on my self-confidence!

And last night, she appeared in my dreams again. What gives???

Exams coming. But I'm focused on Bangkok!haha

Teamwork Without Team Is Just... Work

2011-11-05T14:22:00.002+08:00

I'm not sure what I am about to say is justifiable, because maybe it's just me being unreasonable. Wanted to blog this on that day itself, since I was raging inside. But I've kinda calmed down now. Kinda. Well, here goes...

For my statistics class, we were suppose to do a report as a group and submit it to the professor. That day when the group decided their tasks to do, I was busy at my CCA, DJ-ing. So when I went home and finally see the huge discussion that had occurred in my absence, I realized there was not really much for me to do for the preparation of the report.

Fast forward to a few days later, during the meeting. Feeling bad for still haven't been able to contribute(I
'm the only guy and the oldest in the group), I offered to compile the report together. Least I could do, right?

Well, the day before the submission, which I was going to do the compiling since I had a big presentation to settle that day, my friend SMS-ed me(and along with the whole group) that the report was compiled. And honestly, I ~~was~~ am pretty pissed. I mean, that was my part. My only big contribution to the group, and it gets taken away like that. Might as well not put my name in the report. And everyone's gonna think: Oh this guy is in our group but he didn't do shit for it, aka free rider. If you just trust me to complete the compiling, at least I could've contributed to the report. But as of now, I did zilch. Like, fucking zero. Aren't we suppose to be a team? When I kinda told my friend that the part was suppose to be my task, she replied, "You guilty?" What are you trying to imply? So don't blame me for being anal about it. I wanted to contribute, you decided to jump the gun, and assume I'm guilty. Real nice.

There's a difference being called a team player and actually being one.

I don't bitch in people's face. I bitch here.

DC Universe Online Is Go!

2011-11-05T09:32:00.002+08:00

Well, DCUO is finally F2P! I know, I'm a cheapo for not wanting to pay for the game, but I'll never pay for a game. Except maybe Yu-Gi-Oh!... Anyway, DCUO, like all other MMORPG that suddenly faces a huge wave of new players, suffered from quite a bit of server updates. The past few days, every morning, I'd face the "World Down" message and be unable to play. And I realize that a lot of people are taking the "Hero" path, meaning the heroes server is really packed and laggy. Thank God I followed my friends and go villain style!

The game is pretty good, allowing you to choose your movement(super speed, acrobatics, flight), your weapon(dual wield, dual pistol, one handed weapon, martial arts, rifle,etc), your special power(ice, fire, gadgets, magic, nature,etc) and most importantly your costume. Heck, you can make them look like characters you know! I think you can make Final Fantasy's Cloud if you want. I saw a Magneto and Doctor Doom in-game already! I would like more variety for the tops and bottoms though. Still, I made my character one of my liking, and started the game. I was quite regretful for using acrobatics, because all they could do was run on walls and jump around. Going from one end of the city to another was pure torture. However, turns out there was a skill called "Rocket powered Glide" under my Acrobatics skills that I unlocked, and that was as good as flying. So I got Acrobatics+Flight. Nice.

The game, like any MMORPG, has missions to do, and they are ranked according to level. But don't be fooled. My level 10 babe got thrashed by a level 9 Starfire in one of my missions, and I'm waiting for my friends to help me out in this mission. That leads to my second plus point. This game allows you to party up(even the F2P players) and do missions for each other! I just finished trying that out, and it's a green light.

The DC universe characters you meet is quite cool. I've already beaten up Bane with the help of Killer Croc. I bashed Donna Troy and got BBQ-ed by Starfire. I even teamed up with Catwoman to take down the Huntress. I've only just started, but this game looks promising for DC fans.(Not to be an ass, but I'm waiting for Marvel. Marvel over DC any day, except when it comes to cartoons!)

Knee-d Help

2011-11-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

Wow. My knee is pretty busted today. Not sure why. But it sure hurts like hell. I better consult someone soon. Problem is, I'm not sure who.

Today was the AS quiz, which we had to read 6 articles to prepare for. Turns out it was nothing much. I feel so cheated. I feel punk'd!

And it seems to me that to girls, a guy doing nice things is unbelievable. LOL

Crossroads Of The Heart

2011-11-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

It seems she notices that I've been talking to her less. I mean, I am quite obvious.

But it's because if I don't, I'd fall for her all over again.

Bad Morning, Everyone!

2011-11-01T08:21:00.002+08:00

Got woken up by some SMS. Kinda ticked me off. Had so many days to plan bidding, but you wait until early morning to ask me my bid -.- You may have morning class today, but some people are still sleeping y'know.

And they way you pang seh me in bidding, makes me wonder how much of a friend you respect me as -_- My bid follows yours, since you bidding alone. Then you so happily changed it to join the rest without telling me to change too. If I hadn't checked Facebook this morning, I wouldn't have found out until bidding closed. That's what friends are for?

Fucked-up way to start the day.

Sorry for the bitching. I'm just really not in the mood right now.

Going Cuckoo

2011-10-30T21:33:00.000+08:00

Wow. A 5-min video can take so long to do! But, I'm satisfied with my work, and hopefully the class will like it during the presentation!

Had a weird dream of a girl. I dreamed that I held hands with her as we walked around one of the SMU buildings to find our classroom. WTH.

My...fear... is getting worse. It can just hit me at random moments, and the feeling sucks. Maybe I should consult a psychiatrist...

Tried this new pizza place with Danial today! The pizza is rather filling, and they serve it kinda like Subway. Cool!

I decided to scrap my idea of having my birthday on a yacht. I realize that it's damn bad to ask my parents to sponsor my rental, considering how hard my dad is trying to make sure we get savings each month. Plus, I'm asking him to buy me a new phone. Which costs money too. Not to forget the Bangkok trip. And my monthly allowance. Also, the recent expenditure on my suit. I don't feel like egging him about the phone anymore. I feel really, really bad. Trying to find jobs to earn some money for my own, to at least help a bit.

DJ Love

2011-10-29T12:33:00.002+08:00

Paranormal Activity 3 later! I know I'm gonna be a wuss and cover my eyes and ears, but I wanna watch it nonetheless! As a closure.

Been DJ-ing a lot past few days, after being inspired by Raveyard. I wanna DJ one day(night, actually) and make the crowd go wild. I fear that I'd disappoint, so I must practice! Hopefully I can DJ for Starry Night, which is the end-of-semester party!

Gave up on Dissidia. Got beaten up by the first boss, because I know nothing of what's going on in the game. So, give up. Shall play ObsCure with Jokhie instead! Think it'll be fun!haha

Recently started to watch the new season of The Big Bang Theory. Not too bad. HIMYM still the best, though!

And you begin to wonder
Who are your friends,
And who are just faking it.

Halloween Party!

2011-10-27T10:14:00.000+08:00

Taking photo with these two chicks was probably the highlight of my night! HAHA Hey, a guy could be happy about the little things, no? They were so curious about how I look under the mask, and I showed them after taking the photos.haha I wonder if they were disappointed?

Finally, I went for a Halloween party! And I love it!

What can I say? Raveyard II was awesome! Too bad Zouk was having an event that night too. Those people missed out on some awesome music! Can't wait for next year! And hopefully I'll be up there DJ-ing too! Time to prepare my "Sexy and I Know It" outfit ;)

Was bloody broke, unable to use my debit card, yet I managed to take a cab home. Fortunately the uncle let me run up to grab some cash to pay him!

Pizza Love

2011-10-22T21:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I spent most of the day walking around looking for costume shops. Initially wanted to look for a place that sold retro clothes, but couldn't find any. I went Haji Lane, Bugis Junction, Bugis Street... somehow ended up at Takashimaya too.

I realize that Haji Lane is quite cool to walk down, and there are a lot of interesting shops selling clothes there. Maybe I shall go do some shopping there one day.

Had Stereometa briefing for Raveyard yesterday, but I was one of the only two freshmen to turn up. The other, my friend, only went because I pulled her along when I spotted her just ending her lesson! And the meeting was pretty short, which makes me question the CCA.

Today was awesome! Domino's plus Pizza Hut! And we watched Grave Encounters and Insidious. Even watched a few episodes of Gundam Seed! That anime is classic. But it was the first time I actually watched the first few episodes, and I wasn't used to it being in Japanese. That's because I only watched it on television last time, and it was English dubbed.

Persona 3!!!! <3

Costume Worries

2011-10-20T23:41:00.001+08:00

What shall I wear to Raveyard? Dressed like a condom? Like a girl? Retro style? I need to think of something!

Are we allowed to be pissed off, or is it just a sign of weakness within ourselves?

Love Is Blind

2011-10-19T10:41:00.000+08:00

Blink 182 has a new album! Check it out!

Well, school is blah. Like, it's becoming so routine, like a hamster running on the wheel. You keep running, yet you're going nowhere. Studies studies studies. I just wanna sleep sleep sleep.

I don't understand girls. Guys cheat on them, but the girls are willing to forgive them and get cheated on over and over. I was talking to my good friend yesterday, asking why do girls not just dump the guy after the first time he cheats, and she said that, eventually the girl will forgive the guy, and also because she loves him so. The fact that the guy can cheat on her is just disgusting to me. What kind of fucker can have the mind to cheat on his girl? What I don't understand is, why the girl would hold on to the fucker. If he could cheat once, he could cheat again. Love, as they say, is blind.

PSP is back in my life again!

Waiting for Batman: Arkham City to be out for PC! It can't get here any faster :(

2011-10-16T18:47:00.000+08:00

First of all, BIZ LAW IS MURDER! Worst module in the semester ever!

Secondly, I'm totally enjoying Persona 2 Innocent Sin!

Third, the person who wrote the Persona 3 fan fiction is a local! Jaw drop ttm!haha

Lastly, I decided to not bother any more. I'm 21, I'm not that bad looking, and there are many good-looking girls around! So why should I try so hard and chase something I cannot get?

Moving on!

Found so many cool wallpapers and pictures to use for my Facebook cover!

Perspective Difference

2011-10-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

I wanted to talk about this for quite some time, but I've not (or didn't bother to) found the time to do so. Might as well do it now before I sleep.

Recently when I eat meals with my friends, they would take out a packet of tissue and offer me at the end. I don't use tissue to clean my mouth after meals. It's not a habit of mine. But apparently it's a habit of theirs. Then when I reflect, I realize how unhygienic of me it is to not do so. Just saying it already disgusts me: "I don't wipe my mouth after eating." It's like saying, "I don't wash my hands after I pee."

That's another example. I believe there are people who do not wash their hands after using the toilet, and I'm sure a lot of us frown at such habit. To us, washing hands after using the toilet is hygiene. Like, flushing the toilet. But to that person, he'll probably see it as normal to not wash hands.

Basically, different people have different perspective of what is acceptable and what isn't in their lives. Not just in hygiene. Maybe you think that picking your nose in public is inappropriate, and I think it's perfectly fine to sit in the MRT train and dig my nose to my satisfaction(which I don't, actually). Another common one I notice is guys scratching their crotches in public. You could find it... acceptable, but I dislike such behavior. I know that some people like to squat on toilet bowls, as if the toilet seat has a "step here" sign on them.

It's all about the perspectives of different people. Maybe it's their upbringing, or just plain weird. Then again, defining "weird" can be subjective. And when I think about this, it realizes how different each individual is, and how amazing the world, Life, everything is.

Also, I saw this photo on Facebook showing kittens abused to death. What kind of sick assholes would do such a thing? Fuckers.

Right knee is hurting quite bad, for reasons unknown.

Didn't DJ this whole week. Sad :(

Stressful week! And it's not that school is tough. It's not like, the lessons are sooooo hard that we are lost. It's just that, for the amount of work we have, there just isn't enough time!

Is my heart fighting a battle that's already lost?

PSP Games: JAP vs. US

2011-10-10T17:08:00.002+08:00

Now let me clarify one thing: my post title means games originating from Japan versus games created in the US. I'm not talking about games Japanese against those in English.

This post is just for me to show you all games worth playing on PSP, and I'll show you how Japan totally owns the PSP games industry. But let's take a look at US games first!

#1 Pro Evolution Soccer series
Now, I'm not a huge soccer fan, so I do not see the joy of playing the game. But because a lot of guys enjoy soccer and have PSPs, it seems that P.E.S. is the soccer game for fans and e-sports gamers.

#2 Grand Theft Auto series
Freedom. In almost every sense. That's what this game offers you. You can rob, beat up, kill, hijack, pimp, and roam around in this game series. Rockstar definitely brought gaming violence to a whole new level, but we gamers are not complaining! Chinatown got a bit lame though, with that top-down view and cartoon style...

#3 Burnout series
The Burnout series is definitely an adrenaline rush! Speeding through traffic and taking down cars can never be more awesome than this.

#4 Silent Hill: Shattered Memories
This game is just amazing for it's gameplay and storyline. Especially the storyline. And despite the lack of action, the music and surroundings are enough to creep me out and play on! Although, I actually gave up halfway because I hated the part where you were to escape the nightmares.

#5 God of War series
Ah yes... the coolest, bloodiest game I can think of. GoW let's you beat the crap out of monsters and watch blood splatter as you slay them in the most sadistic ways. Plus, mini sex games to show that Kratos IS a god.

#6 Marvel Ultimate Alliance (just the first game. the second one sucked ttm)
All comic book fans rejoiced as this great game united superheroes around the Marvel Universe for the first time to please it's audience.

Well, that's all I can think of for US-originated games. Now to show you how the Japanese do it!

#1 Persona 3 Portable
I'd mention the whole series that has been put into PSP, but I'm playing Persona 2: Innocent Sin and it's not that fantastic. P3P, however, is pure awesome. So loving the game!

#2 Monster Hunter series
To create your own armor, your own weapon, and hunt huge monsters with your friends... need I say more? Oh, and those felyne partners are soooooo cute!

#3 Metal Gear Solid series
Portable Ops was great. I've never really played MGS before this game, and I really enjoyed it. The motion-comic style cinematics were definitely cool too. Peace Walker was just as good, with new weapons and toys to play with.

#4 Patapon series
Admit it. You've heard it. Pata-pata-pata-pon! I only tried the third one though.

#5 DJ Max Portable series
Probably the best music game on PSP, this series had it's fair share of awesomeness(Portable 2) and lameness(Black Square).

#6 Dissidia series
I've not tried this game before, but I've seen the reviews and people playing it. And that's enough to know that it's a popular game.

#7 Valkyria Chronicles 2
I truly enjoyed every minute playing this game. The characters, the story, the gameplay... sigh. Really great game!

#8 Yu-Gi-Oh Tag Force series
Yes, I know, why mention a children's card game? But, I like this game! Considering how few people play this card game in real life, I'm glad I get to still enjoy it in my PSP! And for a card game, it is quite good. Thousands of cards to customize your deck from.

#9 Naruto Shippuden: Ultimate Ninja Impact
I've never watched Naruto in my entire life, nor have I played this game. But friends have been seen addicted to this game.

#10 Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep
This game was highly anticipated and liked by Kingdom Hearts fans. Unfortunately, I'm not one of them.

#11 Tekken series
The fighting game successfully extended to the PSP consoles, even cooler than Street Fighter Alpha 3 MAX, simply because it's 3D.

#12 Final Fantasy: Crisis Core
People were dying to get a PSP just to play this game, and I must say, it was really promising the entire(and only) 5 mins I ever spent playing the game. Sorry, not a FF fan!

And that's all I can think of for now. But come on, you have to admit that JAP games are much better!haha

Okay, time to nap!

Kids' Carnival

2011-10-09T20:49:00.001+08:00

Well, I just came back from my LTB CSP event, which was a kids' carnival, and I am bushed. Like, damn exhausted. I didn't think that the kids could be so hard to control, and it took me all my energy to go through the whole of today!

At first, the kids were really rowdy. Like, seriously. I thought that there would be no way on earth to get through to them. In fact, I thought that they would shoot us down during the feedback session. But as the day went on, things got better. I made friends with them, they were more obedient, and the day went along fine. Yet, still exhausting.

A kid asked if I was from Super Junior. I said no, and she told her friend, "But look a lot like right?"

Another kid asked me, "Why your hair wet since morning?" Because I waxed my hair!

One other kid said, "You got girlfriend right? Confirm one. That blue shirt girl right?" He was referring to my group member.

Another one said, "You giving it to her like giving flowers right?" when I passed my group mate a bottle of water, when her boyfriend was just sitting beside her. WTH.

I remember hearing one saying, "Wah this one know broken English!" when I was explaining stuff to the kids.

But yea, I did have fun. Kind of sad that I'll probably never see those kids ever again.

Screw studying. I'm gonna crash.haha

Persona 4 Anime

2011-10-07T21:35:00.002+08:00

Well, I've just watched the first episode of the long-awaited Persona 4 anime, and I must say, it's not bad. I've never played the game, although I heard that the ratings were really high. I was first introduced to the Persona series when I tried out Persona 3 Portable on PSP, and I fell in love with that game almost immediately. I was hooked to it and... wait. I'm getting off-track. Point is, because of that awesome game, I decided to wait and see how Persona 4 would be like. Unfortunately, Persona 4 was only for PS3 and Xbox(?). In fact, only P3P was released for PSP at that time (there's Persona 2: Innocent Sin now).

Back to the topic. I see the familiar Igor and the Velvet Room, and the music used in the anime reminds me of the ones I hear when I play P3P. Really brings me back to the old times... The episode is rather fast-paced, but it's still okay. And I think the protagonist's persona is kinda cooler looking than the one from Persona 3. This anime looks promising, and I can't wait for episode two! If you know nuts about the Persona series, you may feel a bit lost when watching this first episode. But watch a couple more, and maybe read up a bit, and you'll enjoy this anime!

R.I.P. Steve Jobs

2011-10-06T08:17:00.002+08:00

I guess this is the reason why Steve Jobs abruptly stepped down recently. He probably knew his time was coming, and decided it was best to settle his company's fate before he reaches the end of his life. And, like how Apple kept its secrets very well, so did Steve Jobs. And nobody expected the news this morning that he passed away yesterday. Rest in peace, Steve Jobs :(

"Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose,"

Staying (Late) In School

2011-10-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

Blogging from school! Since I'm waiting for some anime to download finish! :) Been downloading quite a bit using the school internet, but I shall cut down soon. haha

I'm getting very used to staying in school until very late. I think I'll probably be sleeping over by next semester. Not because of the workload, but more of... lazy to go home and come back the next morning. Take today, for instance. I'll go home, bathe and sleep at around 1am, wake up 9am tomorrow to wash up and come down to school again to study. Might as well stay in school! Times like these, I wish I'm staying in a hostel!

Nearly wanted to go clubbing tonight. I mean, it is recess week and ladies night! But nobody to go with. Next time then...haha Not sure if I have enough money anyway!

Team Fortress 2, a good way to take a break! :3

LoLoLoLoL

2011-10-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

Well, today proved to be interesting. I'd talk about my weekend, but I didn't do much except relax. One thing to mention, though, is that yesterday morning CR and Kenny dropped by my place to borrow my keyboard, when I was still asleep! When CR said morning, I though it'd be like, 10am-11am? He came so early, and I admit, I was feeling kinda cranky to be woken up like that. Ah well...

And as I predicted yesterday, I fell sick today. Unfortunately, my sickness is worse than what I foresaw. Means I had to skip my project meeting. Which makes me feel like an ass. Anyway, on the way to the doctor, some joker hit the back of my family's car, and I had to snap photos with my lousy Nokia phone. Heh. The camera isn't too bad, actually. But it wasn't anything serious.

Ate McDonald's after consulting the doctor. LOL

There's this weird neighbor, who'll move the dustbin at my estate to his parked car just so he can smoke there. Plus, he just used a dustbin to "reserve" the parking lot as he drove off. What a loony. I'm damn tempted to go tape the dustbin to his car, just for fun.haha

I realize how much of what Ted said in S01E01 of How I Met Your Mother actually hits home to me.

"You know what? I’m done being single. I’m not good at it. Look, obviously you can’t tell a woman you just met that you love her. I’ll tell you something though. Say if a woman -- not you -- just some hypothetical woman, were to bear with me through all this, I think I’d make a damn good husband, cause that’s the stuff I’d be good at, stuff like making her laugh, being a good father, and walking her 5 hypothetical dogs and being a good kisser…"

I mean, I meet this amazing girl, and I don't know why, but I just feel like I like her, a lot. I guess I did a Mosby on her...

Nearly went to dye my hair when I went to cut it just now. I walked in, and just so happens a girl went in before me. The hairdresser asked, "Are you together with her?" Heh. I wish.

Simon Says Chillax

2011-10-01T02:07:00.001+08:00

Went to accompany CR to get his medical report and go for his physiotherapy. We went to play lan after that! 1v1 Counter Strike, where I got owned and we were laughing away, before playing L4D. We were losing at first, but we manage to win in the end! Teamwork ^_^

Today I crashed an Indian birthday dinner, and I felt so out of place! I did went to try all the different Indian food at the buffet though!haha

Celebrated Sara's birthday! Plus, I kept playing with the lighter and lighted up so many stuff! Must keep myself in check! We surprised her with the cake and headed to Clarke Quay to chill! Saw some people getting ready to Bang, Bang, Bangity Bang!

There are times when I really miss her, and wonder what she's doing at the moment.

Tired to the max! Planning events is exhausting!

Nearly spent $60 on Yu-Gi-Oh! cards! Was soooo tempted. I kept holding the box, thinking if I should spend the money. In the end, I decided not to. Heart pain!!!haha

Aching All Over

2011-09-29T23:37:00.001+08:00

Phew! Tired! Went to gym and rock climb again today, while still aching a bit from Tuesday's session! I'm gonna ache all over tomorrow!

Everyone's bitching about mid-terms, and it seems I'm not the only one who feels screwed! Woots!

I wore my Baby Milo T-shirt, the one with Mario and Luigi on it. Somebody wanted to pass me the attendance list in class and called me "Baby Milo"! LOL

Wanna DJ for the Raveyard event! It's an SMU halloween event! Gotta practice my DJ-ing skills!

I admit, there are times where I think about her. Smile my sadness away ;)

Helped a pretty girl today! Should have totally chat her up! Damn! haha

Facebook Timeline

2011-09-29T09:51:00.001+08:00

Some of you may have already heard of it; I have. The new Facebook Timeline, which totally changes your Facebook profile page layout. Really super cool! What I like about it is the fact that it makes your profile feel more... personal. Plus, you can see your activities on Facebook as far back as when you first started using it! This is so awesome! And it means you can stalk people to way back too!

It's officially coming out early next month, but if you want it now just let me know and I'll send you the link! :D

A Rather Quick Update

2011-09-28T23:53:00.002+08:00

Wanted to blog but I'm hooked on Facebook! Basically my friend showed me this cool thing that I could install onto Facebook, which is supposedly coming out in future. But it makes your profile look damn cool now! Here's some screenshots!

Mid-terms were murder. But, life goes on!

Downloaded the whole of Spider-man: The Animated Series, all 5 seasons! Used the school internet to torrent! :D

Looking forward to Anime Festival Asia 2011! And end of year's Bangkok trip! ^.^

New MixPod List!

2011-09-24T10:55:00.002+08:00

Hey all, I've added new songs to my MixPod list on my blog! Here's a list of songs currently in my list! "Saturday" by Basshunter and below are all added only a few minutes ago! Enjoy!

Little Bad Girl by David Guetta
Party Rock Anthem by LMFAO
Shots by LMFAO
Last Friday Night by Katy Perry
You Make Me Feel by Cobra Starship
Top of the World by The Cataracs
Angel by Akon
Dirty Talk by Wynter Gordon
Wet by David Guetta & Snoop Dogg
Sucks To Be You by Clinton Sparks
Champagne Showers by LMFAO
Dirty Dancer by Enrique Iglesias Feat.Usher
Stereo Love by Edward Maya
Welcome To St. Tropez (DJ Antoine vs Mad Mark Radio Edit) by DJ Antoine vs Timat
Take Over Control by Afrojack
Don't Stop The Party by Black Eyed Peas
Don't Wanna Go Home by Jason Derulo
Hello by Martin Solveig
In The Dark(Remix) by Dev ft. Kayne West
Mr. Saxo Beat by Alexandra Stan
Dirty Houe Music by Guiletta
Glad You Came by The Wanted
International Love by Pitbull
Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5
Super Bass by Nicki Minaj
Boomerang by DJ Felli Fel
We No Speak Americano by Yolando Be Cool & DCUP
Saturday by Basshunter
One More Time by Daft Punk
One Night in Bangkok by Vinyl Shakerz
Satisfaction by Benny Benassi
I Like That by Static Revenger
Danza Kuduro by Fast Five
Sweet Dreams by Eurythmics
Party All Night by Sean Kingston
Bring The Noise (Pump-kin Remix) by Benny Benassi & Public Enemy
Superstar by David May
Bomba by Jessy Matador
Remedy by Little Boots
Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger by Daft Punk
Rolling In the Deep by Adele
California Dreaming by Benny Benassi

*Note: some of these are remixes, like Rolling In the Deep!

Be Strong

2011-09-23T00:39:00.001+08:00

Poor Richie. In a way, he is kinda in the same scenario as me. But like I told him, there's always a girl out there who deserves how much effort you put in for her. That's what I feel. I find it ridiculous when a girl tells me, "You're a great guy" or "You're really nice and sweet" but end up saying she doesn't like me. Either you are a liar or you must really want a lousy boyfriend. Save those stupid lines for a sucker who'd believe that.

I mean, sure, I admit, I miss those moments. I miss her smile, I miss those beautiful eyes of hers which I can get lost in, that familiar nice smell of her hair, and that warm feeling when she reaches out and touches my hand. Really, I miss her. But hey! Wake up! Something went wrong along the way, and she probably lost interest in me. So I shall not put in so much effort. If she doesn't want to reply my SMSes, so be it. If she doesn't want to even see my face, so be it. I'm not some dog, always at the beck and call of some girl. At least respect me as a person. I believe that there's a girl who will appreciate all the things I do for her! :)

LTB quiz today! Totally didn't study for it, except for an hour before the lesson. Did the paper in 10mins, slept the rest of the time!

The graduation gig for my DJ workshop is cancelled! Damn sad :(

And what the fuck. You block me on Facebook just because he is my close friend? Bitch!

HAHAHAHA

2011-09-22T00:23:00.002+08:00

Long since I blogged! 2 days? Okay, I'll do a quick one before I go to sleep!

Hmmm can't really remember what I did the past few days, so I'll just type whatever that comes to mind!

HIMYM season 7 is out! So happy! And two episodes! :)

Running low in cash :(

Biz Law mid-terms next Monday. So screwed!!! Bet I'll get lowest in class!

There was presentation today for Management Communications, and each student is suppose to present on the powerpoint slide they are assigned to. I only went to open mine to prepare half an hour before the lesson, so yea... procrastination FTW! haha Managed to smoke my way through!

Wanted to go toilet from the library, and got stopped by this lady. I thought she was a student, but she said "youngsters these days" so I assume she's old? Anyway, she approached me and said she was going to have bible studies in the evening. I thought I heard wrongly and asked her to repeat. I mean, what stranger will suddenly approach you and announce that he or she is going for bible studies? Super random! She repeated herself, and I confirmed that I did hear correctly. And, how am I suppose to reply to such a statement? Simple. "So?"

Then she asked if I could join in, asked if I believe in God and read the bible, saying youngsters these days have so much troubles... all with that crazy eyes gleaming in worship. I swear, my face was showing two different things: 1)I thought that this was seriously ridiculous and 2)I couldn't be bothered. So I was trying to look interested, yet I was grinning at how lame this was. I wonder what my resulting facial expression was. Anyway, I quickly shook her off because I really, really needed to take a dump. Talk about divine intervention.

Stupid 80-year-old man. I can come up with 20 replies to shoot you down. Like, "At least I'll still be around in 20 years".haha

DJ-ing was quite sad, because someone went to take the equipment, so we couldn't practice for our graduation performance. Speaking of which, I better let my friends know!haha

I still think of her, actually. The back of several girls remind me of her, and a small part of me feels sad. But I need to be strong and confident, never falter!

Recently went to catch up with Hanasaku Iroha, and I got to say, I'm enjoying it! And to fall in love... sigh! And Tiger&Bunny has ended! So sad! Waiting for season 2!

Gonna Stand Back Up

2011-09-19T17:17:00.002+08:00

Watched Johnny English yesterday with Eric and YH! I nearly bought the small B&J ice cream, which costs $5, but Eric stopped me. I'm not sure why, but recently I've been craving ice cream and more food. Maybe because of heartache? haha

The movie was funny, definitely. To see Rowan Atkinson's character screw up so badly and in such an embarrassing manner is just hilarious! But they seem to run out of jokes in the second half, which is not too bad. The story was average, but I watch the movie for the humor, so I'm not really bothered by that. Definitely worth watching!

There was this one seat that was meant to be occupied at the end of the row when we went in. And I was wondering who would come watch a movie alone. As slim the chance may be, I hoped that it would be a girl. Just hope for fun. But of course, it's a guy. And I totally see why he has nobody to watch movie with.

That guy's elbow and legs were getting into my personal space. I had to rest my elbow on the armrest to make sure he doesn't come over. And he laughs out loud during the funny parts. Like, seriously LOL until I get irritated. He even talked to himself a couple of times. Kind of spoiled the movie for me a little.

Another reason why I did not totally enjoyed the movie was because she was on my mind. She did not reply my SMSes or answer my calls. So I thought I should apologize properly. Bought quite a bit of stuff to give. Unfortunately, she wasn't home last night, it seems, so I thought I could meet her today. Brought the stuff to school, and thankfully my friend has a locker to spare. But again, she never replied my SMS again, and my friend told me something:

"Don't bother... She hasn't done anything to deserve it."

That kind of woke me up a bit. She and I are suppose to be "just friends", and I'm going the extra mile for her. Yet, she isn't responsive. Literally. That made me realize that I should definitely not do so much for her. Not anytime soon. Only guys in a relationship should go so far for the girl. Heck, I'm not sure she even feels anything for me at all.

So I get back on my feet, enjoy the company of my friends, enjoy my hobbies and interests, and regardless of whether she wants to reply my messages, I'm going to get on with life. Because nobody is worth spending my time emo-ing and dwelling about. I've suffered long enough. It's time to think about myself a little. A little more me, a little less you. I'm my own man, I've a life ahead of me, I'm going to be a better person :)

Nap time! haha

Transformers War For Cybertron (PC) Review

2011-09-19T16:59:00.000+08:00

I recently got into the game again when I bought the novel that was related to the game, and thought I'd give a review of it! Mine is the PC version, so I'm not sure how much the consoles version deviates. I only know that DLC packs are only available for console versions T.T No Shockwave for PC version...

Graphics-wise, this game impresses. The detailing is really good, be it the characters or the environment. The cinematics look so good, you actually wished that these were the movie rather than Micheal Bay's films. Don't get me wrong! His films are nice, but this game is definitely a good competitor. I love Soundwave the most, well, second to Optimus Prime. In fact he looks so cool, yet maintaining his G1 look, that I decided to purchase the toy! If you look closely at the back of Megatron and Optimus Prime (not sure about the others), you'll see their respective factions' logos on their backs, which shifts once in a while. That's pretty cool, if you ask me. My only issue is the lip sync of the cinematics. But, small issue.

The plot is not new to Transformers fans. Optimus Prime rises up as leader of the Autobots, while Megatron decides to reign over Cybertron. The story is really good and easy for people new to the Transformers world to digest, making it rather appealing. Another thing is that the story tries to bring in as many known characters as it can, from Optimus Prime to Skywarp and even the huge Omega Supreme! All it needs is a Unicron to make Transformers fans die in heaven.

Since I'm talking about characters, I'll go a bit further about this point. You can to play a wide range of characters, such as Bumblebee, Ratchet, Jetfire, Starscream, etc. I'm pretty sure Devastator was not in the game (sorry I played the game quite some time back), although that would be cool. He's the bad-ass gestalt that I want to use or battle with. For every character you can customize what two weapons to carry, and every character has their own buffs. Like a Transformer, you can transform. And I enjoyed using the aerial bots the most. Imagine running towards a cliff, jumping off it, and transforming into a jet before blasting off. Wicked.

Gameplay is quite okay. I wouldn't say it is fantastic. You have a melee attack which is actually quite pathetic. I'd rather keep my distance and blast the guy. It's not like the melee is very damaging. So why bother? And the enemy units get rather repetitive. They are either the small, easy-to-own kind, or the big irritating buggers that only serves to waste your time and health. Your AI allies are for decoration, honestly. They hardly do much damage, and enemies seldom focus their attention on your allies. It's frustrating to have Trypticon blasting at me all the way while my AI allies pathetically try to help me assault him. Or at least, I think they were shooting him. The only use I found for them was for me to melee them while stoning in the elevators, or generally anywhere.

Was there soundtracks in the game? Er.. not that I know of, so let's skip that.

I've not tried the multiplayer modes, but I plan to try them once I re-install this game! When I do, I'll update this review.

I'm not sure what else I should add about the game. But as a whole, this game pleases both hardcore Transformers fans and newcomers alike. Good story, awesome graphics, nice gameplay... go get the game if you haven't gotten it! Or borrow from a friend! Or download. Don't worry, I bought mine :)

Only Hear The Good Stuff

2011-09-18T22:07:00.001+08:00

I honestly think my mom has reached that stage in life. 45-50? That's when women get reeeeeeally cranky and all. Now, some of you may see me as a jerk for talking about my mom like that, but I'm merely saying it as I see it.

I go to school to study. I stay in school after lessons to study. Because I know that I cannot study at home. But no, she insists that I'm going to school just to hang out. Firstly, I study. Secondly, I tend to study alone. Thirdly, just because I like a girl, doesn't mean I'm in school just because I'm hanging out with her. Please. I haven't met her for a whole week.

So go ahead. Unplug my computer. Throw my bag. Threaten to stop paying for my education. Smash my phone. Take away my house keys and expect me to come back 10pm every night.

I've learned how to tune her voice out.

Anyone got place I can crash? Gotta get out of here.

I know I seem really screwed up these days, but seriously, right now I've some family issues to settle. I'll blog again when Life gets better.

Haha. FML.

Feeling Bad

2011-09-18T11:13:00.001+08:00

When I see the photos of her out with her friends last night(I wasn't stalking, FYI -.- It's called news feed), and seeing her nice smile in the photos, I realized what a jerk I am. My blog probably spoiled her mood last night, when she should be having fun with her friends. Because of me, her night was ruined. She's only 19, she has friends, a life, and she should be happy. All I did was make her life so complicated for her, and if not for me she'd be a happier person right now. I feel so bad and selfish, to be affecting her life. All I want is to make her happy, to be there when she needs someone, to hear her problems, to share mine, to make sure nobody will break her heart ever again.

But all I did was make her sad. All I did was make her feel so complicated. I read her Facebook posts. I know. Gut instinct.

All I did was be the villain in the story :(

Whenever people ask me things like "How many pretty girls in your school?" or "Any hot girls in your class", the first thing that comes to mind is her. I'd always give them the answer, "There's only one." I honestly never really bothered to look around at the girls in SMU, no matter how pretty they are said to be. I just... don't feel like looking. I only want to look at her. Her flawless beauty... Beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder, readers, so zip it.haha

2011-09-18T03:55:00.001+08:00

All I can say is: sorry for spoiling your day, and for screwing up :(

2011-09-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

I don't blame her for being pissed. In fact, I pretty much hate myself for it right now.

I actually got half the mind to just remove this entire blog. All I do is hurt people and sabo myself.

FML, really. Don't need to sleep tonight.

Eh Eh

2011-09-18T00:18:00.000+08:00

Guys, I typed wrongly. She did NOT play with my feelings. I typed it wrongly. So if anyone wants to judge her, you gotta go through me first.

And, I feel so fucked up right now for that typo :(

Bad Phrasing

2011-09-18T00:09:00.001+08:00

I need to write down my thoughts properly. I FUCKING FAIL :(

A simple SMS from her makes me happy. How can I bear to just forget about her?

Yet, my spirits get shot down fast.

Talk to me. Because I've been trying to. So hard.

Don't Get It Wrong!

2011-09-17T21:11:00.001+08:00

For those who read the post "Turning Up A Smile", which is 2 posts ago, please don't misunderstand! She didn't play with my feelings or anything. She simply decided that I'm not her kind of guy, it seems. It's just that I never met a girl as good as her, so I'm taking this pretty hard.

Saw her at school just now. And honestly, she didn't seem too happy to see me :( What did I do wrong?

Note: Update the Mixpod on my blog soon!haha

Updating

2011-09-17T17:27:00.001+08:00

Note to self: Add a tag "emo" for my emo posts! haha

Another note to self:

Met with the guys yesterday for supper. Ate $5 char siew rice! Awesome! Dropped Jeff off before going to buy ice cream. Somehow it was meant for me to drown my sorrows, even though I don't usually do that. You tend to only see such scenarios on television. But then it was nice to go East Coast Park, eat ice cream and just let out all my thoughts. All my worries and thoughts about and of the one that (most probably) got away.

Went home, suppose to sleep because I was feeling exhausted, but I went to on my computer and ended up sleeping at 4 plus in the morning. Woke up at 11 plus this morning! When I should be leaving house for school at 10am! haha

Went to Plaza Singapura to check out the toy shops at the top floor, which kind of made me happier, and went to buy a Transformers novel, which is related to the War For Cybertron game! Happy splurge :)

Went to look through my view counts for my blog just now, and I saw 2 posts that hit up to 300 plus views! That may be considered little, but compared to my usual 3-4 views per post, that is such a big number! So of course I'm happy! Cheap thrills.haha

I want to buy CR's iPad if and when he decides to buy an iPad 2/3!hahaha I just need an alternative for my laptop on days that I don't really need laptop. Also, because I'm saving up for iPhone 5, I don't want to spend money on a brand new, latest iPad!

The DC reboot is better than anticipated!haha

Counting down to the new season of HIMYM! 2 more days! :))))

Turning Up A Smile

2011-09-17T15:19:00.001+08:00

Hey everyone! I know it's been long since I last blogged, and I know it's going to be quite shitty to read this new post, because instead of talking about what's been going on in life since the last post, I'm going to rant and emo here.haha As much as I don't want to, I feel like I should just ~~pen~~ type it down, to share with everyone but most importantly, as a reminder of this when I look back in future.

The Start
This story is about a girl. A girl who most of you (kinda) know through my blog, or because I shared with you personally. She is, to me, the most amazing girl I've ever met, and while it took me some courage and recklessness to make the first move, we hit off pretty well. And for a short time, life was great. Like, seriously.

"I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me"
~ Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul

Turning Point
Soon after, everything went downhill. I have to admit, it was kinda my fault. I was too... proactive, in a sense I was pressuring her and she felt that she couldn't reciprocate those feelings I have for her. So we decided to be just friends first and see how things go.

"Last night I knew what to say but you weren't there to hear it
These lines so well rehearsed, tongue-tied and overloaded
You never notice..."
~ The Academy Is... - About A Girl

Insecurity
It's not easy for me, at least. I'm not sure about her. In fact, right now I don't know anything with what's going on with her right now. She rarely replies my messages, she always seem so busy to study together, and I almost never get a chance to go back home with her. And she recently went out with a guy. He asked her out and she agreed. Why should I be bothered? We two are, after all, just friends. Maybe she's hanging out with another guy right now. I just don't know.

"And I just can't look it's killing me
And taking control."
~ The Killers - Mr. Brightside

Torment
But I can't. I still like her a lot. I don't know if she knows it. Maybe that little amount of "like" she has for me is already gone. When she was troubled recently, which my gut instinct told me it had to do with her ex (plus him posting a "<3" on her Facebook wall), I had problem sleeping that night. You know how you see in shows where a person's mind gets so distorted and screwed up that his mind is muddled? I felt the same way. Kind of between my mind being flushed in a toilet bowl, and unable to think properly after taking too much alcohol. I couldn't think properly, only about the possibility that she and the ex end up getting back together. I had problem sleeping that night, and when I did, all I dreamed of was about her and her ex patching up. Woke up feeling fucked up.

"What am I suppose to do
When the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say
When I'm all choked up and you're okay"
~The Script - Breakeven

Sucker Punch
Last night I had another dream about her, but this one was better. A nicer one. One where she was standing beside me, a smile across her face. This wasn't the first one. A few nights back there was another one, where we went out for Korean BBQ. And the thing about nice dreams is that when you wake up, you not only realize it's all not real, but also that in reality fate would do the total opposite. Like my gut instinct, my particular belief about dreams has always been true. Have a good dream about getting something, and in reality, it will never be within your grasp. So I wake up with that crappy realization hitting me hard.

"I am in misery
There ain't nobody who can comfort me, oh yeah
Why won't you answer me?
The silence is slowly killing me, oh yeah"
~ Maroon 5 - Misery

Depressed
To sum up all that stuff I just said, this is actually killing me from the inside. It sucks, and my friends have been telling me to just move on, to find other girls. Casual dating was a suggestion. If she can go date other people, so can you. Thing is, she is the only girl in my mind, so even if I do go out with another girl, my heart will always be with her. Sure, I can try to move on and totally forget about her, but it'll take a very, very long time. I want to just wait and see how things go, but doing so is making me emo. I feel so lost, so helpless, not sure where to go at this juncture.

"I pictured I could bring you back
I pictured I could turn back time
'cause I can’t let go
I just can’t find my way"
~ Simple Plan - Perfect World

Waking Up
Which brings me to the main reason why I'm blogging this, actually. Because I'm feeling so emo, I've been less cheerful and all around my friends and others. I shut out everyone and simply dwell about this. In a way, I was being a mood killer. Then, today at a Times bookstore, I went to purchase a book. The cashier, like how all cashiers are trained, served me with a smile. She settled my purchase with a warm smile. She asked if I was a member, and, in my emo state, I merely gave a shake of my head. If I was feeling okay, I'd say "No, thanks." with a smile. I mean, if someone was being nice and polite to me, I'd do the same. But I didn't, and all because I was feeling emo. That's when I realized I needed to wake up.

Growing Up
I'm not going to simply just forget about her and move on. She's too perfect to me to just give up on. I want to keep trying until I'm really face-down in the dirt, then do I admit defeat. I'm still feeling lost, frustrated and emo about it. But at the same time, I'm not going to dwell and be emo about it too much, because the people around me don't deserve this. I'm going to get up on my feet and continue my life, because I've got a future and great people around me.

I'm going to be a better person.

Ink

2011-09-14T12:50:00.002+08:00

Feel like getting a tattoo on my back. Like, seriously! :D

The Start Of Stress

2011-09-13T23:36:00.001+08:00

Wow. Today's lessons were... demoralising. It's like they planned to suddenly bomb us this week by taking things up a notch! The modules are getting tougher, like it isn't tough enough. Looks like I got to really hit the books!

Been downloading remixes from Youtube! Can't wait to try them out at DJ 101 tomorrow! :)

Not sure if I mentioned before, but I lost $20 bucks when I drew it from the OCBC ATM machine recently. I suspect I somehow left it at the machine. Fail. Anyway, I think the bank "returned" it to me because today I got a letter saying $20 has been put into my account!LOL

Life's a roller coaster ride
Full of ups and downs

Tuition!

2011-09-11T21:12:00.003+08:00

Just registered to teach tuition. I need money! hahaha

Crappy Day

2011-09-11T17:25:00.001+08:00

Basically, my entire day is spoiled because my mom just had to piss me off. "Where you going?" "Doing what?" "With who?" "One person or a group?" "Until what time?" Maybe you guys can take this kind of thing, but I seriously can't.

And because of that, I had no mood to jam or study. And that resulted in jamming being rather... dull today. Sorry guys :(

I didn't want to go home so early, so I went to cut my hair(although there isn't much change), and went Teo Heng alone to just sing for 2 hours. I just wanted to sing out my frustration and sian-ness. Unfortunately there were no free rooms D: Bummer.

In a nutshell, today was definitely not my day.

Still got Biz Law stuff to read up, but I'm going to take a nap first! :D

Friday Fun

2011-09-10T09:00:00.000+08:00

I was suppose to go for this workshop that I signed up for yesterday evening. 2 sessions for $30, to learn how to use a program for making your own music. I decided to back out because I was kind of lazy to go for it, and for that price... I think I'll stick to DJ-ing first.

DJ-ing has been pretty fun! I'm trying to come up with a list, and that involves finding out where to drop the songs onto each other to make the mix flow smoothly!

I've never heard anyone sing so well before :) Of course, that just makes mine look even more pathetic :(

Went to Sashti's house to meet up! Sorry for being late! And it was quite sad that only 4 of us could make it, but we had fun nonetheless! His spicy popcorn chicken was awesome! Beats the one sold in school!

Going to school later to study the whole day. Biz Law, I shall not admit defeat! Rawr!

When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing, just the way you are
And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while
Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are

~ Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

Crazy Old Man

2011-09-08T08:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I was on the way to school, and I was waiting at this traffic light to cross. Across the street was this old man on his bicycle, with some cardboard boxes strapped to his bicycle. He was one of those guys who strapped a lot of weird nonsense to their bicycles, like soft toys, etc. So there I was, waiting, when I noticed the old man doing some action. He kept using his hand to comb down his fringe, and I realized he was signalling to me. Probably because of the style of my hair. Now, my body is facing across the street, so I'm looking in front, and I don't have much option but to look at him. And when I looked at him, he'd show me the finger. And he kept on doing that. I pretended I didn't notice, and continued to ignore him. When it was finally green man, we crossed our respective sides. But he stopped his bicycle in the middle of the road and kept pointing the middle finger at me. I chose to ignore and walk off. At that point of time I was wondering if he would come and attack me. Some friends said that they would beat the crap out of that old geezer, but I choose to just ignore. He's probably just... crazy. And if the police sees me beating up an old man, surely I'll be the one in more trouble. But, if that guy did lay a hand on me, I would have definitely raged all over him. "Self defense" + "Offense makes the best defense" ;)

Went to McDonalds to buy lunch during the break yesterday! Only problem was that I forgot to ask for ketchup or chilli, hence the fries tasted so... plain. Forced most of the fries down, but gave up and threw away the rest :(

Also, I found out that school library had these solo study cubicles at the quiet area to study! Now I can go there whenever I've no friends to study with! I feel a bit slow for only realizing it in week 4.

I've never knew eating bread crumb chicken with spaghetti could be so filling D: Nearly died finishing it yesterday.

Feeling The Pressure

2011-09-07T10:15:00.000+08:00

It's week 4 and I'm starting to feel the pressure of school! And I think I'm somehow ,slowly but surely, becoming a mugger. Look at my mentality! If I've nothing to do -> Go school and study. Die die I should go join more CCAs or something to reduce studying time! Just kidding.

My mods are more or less okay, I guess, with the only major thing so far being the community service project for my LTB. But Business Law is my main worry. So... Law-sy T.T And the professor enjoying rushing through quickly just to ensure everything is covered within his allocated time.

And I realize my 12pm-3:15pm are quite bad because they are smacked right in the middle of lunchtime. So I've to have either late or early lunch, which is quite a bummer.

Went to sign up for another DJ workshop! Really want to practice my DJ-ing skills...

Life's Funny

2011-09-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

How easily I went from :( to :)

Nice Guys Finish Last

2011-09-04T12:43:00.000+08:00

*****Warning: I'm depressed when I wrote this, so pardon the emo post*****

If I'm such a great guy as they say, why do they reject me? Obviously something is wrong with me.

I always give 100%, and it's all failure.

How do I find someone else when the perfect one turns me down? Any other would just be sub-standard to me.

Of course, I don't plan to let this sadness affect my life. I'm gonna try to be my happy self outside. Sadness like this, is best to keep within.

Don't get me wrong. It's not her fault. She didn't toy with me. It's just, I'm not of her "type". I don't know what it is I'm lacking, but it seems I do lack something. I'm not angry at her or anyone. Maybe I am, to myself.

I always treat girls' hearts with such care for fear of hurting them, at the cost of mine. I get mine hurt time and time, but I tell myself it's okay. I tell myself to get up and try again. I tell myself never give up. But I think I've no heart left to break, for any more girls.

I think I'm done chasing. I'm done hurting myself like that. I'm done with that familiar gut instinct that tells me that bad news is coming.

I'm done for.

I want to just scream in frustration. I want to just cry of sadness. I want to just try to move on.

If only you weren't so perfect in my eyes
Then maybe the pain would be less

All Time Low

2011-09-03T22:15:00.001+08:00

I hate my gut instincts. They are always right, and when they are, it is always bad :(

Dying To DJ

2011-09-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

Today turned out better than I anticipated!

Sure, I went to school facing the fact that I won't be seeing her the entire day, but fate had other plans! :)

Of course, it meant I didn't go climbing, but it was okay :D

Her friend went to purchase the iPhone without her even getting to see the phone itself. I was rather pissed off by that. Fucking stupid. And to think he's older than me -.-

I'm finally having some proper homework to do! Like, about time. Saturday = Make-up class. Sian. But, she's in my class! :)

I <3 DJ-ing. Cannot wait to practice tomorrow, even if it's for a while! Half-hour is still better than nothing!

DJ!!!

2011-08-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

I wanna be a DJ! The workshop was great!

But she is even greater! :)

I'm really tired. Tomorrow is gonna be a dull day, kinda because of the lesson, but mostly because it's the only day I don't see her at all. I guess I'll rock climb tomorrow!

Just A Quick Post

2011-08-31T00:37:00.000+08:00

Went for lunch and study with her today! Actually she studied mostly, while I was stoning. Because I didn't think that she'd be studying in school! Total change of plans! But it's ok :) Saw the CR gang, and they saw us. Well well! And she got to read my very old blog posts and see how I was last time! There was this post about me thinking of my neighbor that she read...oh shit! :P

Went to meet Thor group for dinner! It was quite hilarious and great to just sit around and chit chat! Felt like a while since we all talked! And we tried to help Richie with his letter! Hope all will work out well for that guy!

Apologies for this short post. Gotta sleep for school tomorrow!haha

So F***ing Pissed

2011-08-30T01:08:00.001+08:00

Her iPhone is lost! Wish I could do something about it :(

I am so f***ing pissed off with my mom right now.

Sleepy Boy

2011-08-29T19:45:00.001+08:00

Biz Law is so hard! Am I really cut out to be studying in university? It's time to really read those notes properly. But the professor keeps rushing through his stuff due to time constraint. Today is the second time he did that.

Went to meet her for lunch and studied until it was time for my LTB meeting! We went to do up our posters, and as much as I tried, I somehow felt super tired during the discussion! But I eventually felt more energized(could be due to my Coke?) and stopped feeling sleepy!

Now studying in the school library, and shall study until she's done with CCA! This time I'm ready for 3 hours of waiting! Long-sleeved T-shirt and jeans, my laptop, music... I'm ready!

Managed to conenct my iPod Touch to the school internet! Awesome! That means I can be surfing Facebook during my AS class! :D

I had a load of bad CCA news yesterday. First was the Sound Foundry audition. I applied for the 7pm slot, because I had the DJ 101 workshop from 7.30pm to 9.30pm on Wednesday, but they put me at 7.40pm. So I informed them of my situation, and they decided to put me at the 9.40pm slot. That is too late for me, so I decided to tell them forget it.

The second thing is the DJ workshop itself. I received a mail from someone attending the Wednesday slot too, saying that he/she and 3 other friends want to join the same day slot, and apaprently in our class of 4, there's 3 of them plus me. So he/she requested if I can change to another day's slot, so that their last friend can join. I remember seeing the timing for those other slots, and either they were clashing with my school schedule or is on Saturdays. I don't plan to go for CCA on Saturdays. So I decided to turn him/her down. Yet, I feel like a bastard for doing that. Am I in the wrong?

You snooze,
you lose.

Well I Guess This Is Growing Up

2011-08-29T00:23:00.000+08:00

We communicate, we learn, we become better :)

Today, or yesterday actually, I learnt quite a bit!

Life's good the way it is right now! :) But...

SIAN BIZ LAW TMR. FML.

Good things last forever

:D

2011-08-24T21:08:00.001+08:00

Happy :)

Please just don't let it be too good to be true!

The Start Of Stress

2011-08-24T16:18:00.001+08:00

Okay, I know I'm a bit slow but only this week then do I start to feel the stress of school. I mean, statistics class was so... confusing. My mind was blank the entire lesson. Couldn't make head or tail of whatever he was saying @.@ Shall go read through everything again!

I realized SMU has a lot of good-looking girls! Sorry, I don't look at guys, so I don't know how are the guys here. But the girls... there was this girl at subway, and she's ang moh, but she looked really pretty! All of us thought so. Even a girl can think so too. That's how good she looked!

But then, there's this other girl who I think is better! She's in one of my classes, and yesterday I just decided to add her on FB. I mean, she just looks so nice! Like, seriously! Drop. Dead. Gorgeous. Looks like I cannot focus anymore in class! XD But I shall not say anymore, in case she somehow ends up checking out my blog.

Now waiting for the Stereomata info. session which is at 7pm, so I'm stoning in school for the time being. Oh crap I forgot that I need to go and buy the popcorn! Shall get it after blogging this post!

Do I dare?
Should I dare?

LOL

2011-08-21T00:39:00.001+08:00

1. How old will you turn in 2010?
I turned 20 in 2010. Thanks for reminding me that I'm getting old.

2. Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
One. One and only one.

3. Would you date someone eight years older then you?

If there's a connection, and she looks hot for her age, then yea.

4. When was the last time you laughed?
After dinner, when I made fun about those slutty women at the row of bars.

5. What were you doing at 4am this morning?
Sleeping. Like, what else?

6. What's your relationship with the person you last texted?

Friend.

7. What did you do today?
Study.

8. Who do you really want to see now?
I don't know. Spider-man?

9. Will your next kiss be a mistake?
Hope not!

10. Who's your last missed call?
Sashti.

11. What's something you really want now?
Get a girlfriend!wahahaha

12. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
I want to sleep a little more. I don't want to study!

13. Would you go back in time if you had the chance?
Yep. Definitely.

14. What is something you need to go shopping for?
Converse shoes. My trusty ones' dying :(

15. Do you want kids?
Of course!

16. Are you in love with anyone?
Nope. I haven't like anyone, how can there be love yet?

17. How's your heart lately?
Excited by the many pretty girls in school??

18. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
iConserve camp.

19. Is your phone close to you?
On my right, just beside my mouse. Tilted clockwise by a bit, facing upwards.

20. What is bothering you right now?
Business Law.haha

21. What does your last received text message say?
That's why telling you to go on sat!

22. Where are you right now?
In my room!

23. Are you listening to music right now?
Nope. Forgot to play music.

24. Do you like country music?
So-so. Give me pop rock anyday.

25. Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste?
Yep.

26. How is your hair styled right now?
The best style: No style.
27. Do you like your first name?
NO. But because my parents gave it to me, I'll cherish it.

28. Last thing you drank?
Water.

29.Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
Nope. I sleep in the car.

30.What did you do 15 mins ago?
Facebook! Change the time to any number and the answer is still the same!hahaha

31. Do you think you are a good person? Not good enough.

32. The first contact in your hp?
Aaa. Which is my number.

33. The sweetest person in your life?
I dunno. Me??

34. The closest male to you now? First name to come to mind? CR.

35. The person you are chatting with now?
Nobody actually. I was chatting to a few people just now, but not now.

36. The languages you are able to speak?
English, a bit of Japanese, swear words in malay and some dialect.

37. The last person whom you screwed?
I'm a good boy :)

38. One word about your life now?
Happening.

39. Where do you wish to work?
A toy store.

40. What are you specially good at?
Talking cock!

41. Would you date someone younger than you?
I'm a guy, so sure. And it's not like I have much choice, in SMU.HAHA

42. Who are you to yourself?
A guy who sometimes dunno when to draw the line, and always screws up even though he tries so hard to change and be a better person.

43. Do you forgive people easily?
Yes. Maybe too easily

44. Which girl is precious to you now?
The ones in my ASOC group.

45. Your dressing style?
LEPAK~

46. How different are you from other boys? (I changed the gender for rather obvious reasons)
I trust people I just meet way too easily, and seldom pick out people's flaws and despise them for it. Unless they piss the crap out of me.

47. The bad point in yourself?
I sometimes unintentionally do things that hurt others.

48. The last contact in your hp?
Zi Rong

49. Your favourite song?
Currently? Hello by Martin Solveig

50. The two hated contacts in your hp?
If I hate the person, his contact wouldn't be inside my phone.

51. Learn one language in 10 days?
Nah. 10 years of chinese and I still suck at it. Go figure.

52. One gorgeous girl you came across?
A girl from ASOC booth!

53. Who's your biggest enemy?
So far? The bell curve.

54. Which gang do you support?
CR gang!

55. What do you think of gangsters?
Bo liao.

56. Proper age to join gang?
Any age.

57. Do you have a blogspot?
Check the link for this site please.

58. Do you like people who smoke? No. I'm not a big fan of smoking or smokers.

59. What do you think about modelling?
I want! Maybe I should do another portfolio...

60. Given a chance, would you want to be a model?
YES X10000000000000000000000000!

61. Whose approval do you usually seek first?
Mine.

62. What do you wish to be in the future?

A happily married man with a stable job, 2 kids, and a really nice apartment.

Is Love In The Air?

2011-08-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

Vivace yesterday! Somehow, everyone felt tired after such an eventful day of performances and signing up of CCAs! I signed up for the DJ one, sound foundry and rock climbing! I think Eileen signed me up for wushu, but don't expect me to show up! X) The performances were impressive, although the Ardiente was, as Shu Ying said, like "karmasutra". Can't imagine her doing that kind of dance either. A lot of people signed up for EYE investment, and I would if I had money. It seems you need $15 to sign up, but all I had left in my account was $14. So yea... no EYE investment for me. Totally broke! Damn sad! And I can't remember if I'm suppose to pay for Stereomata! I hope they don't cancel my name because of that!

Had dinner with Sin Ren, Shu Ying and Sashti at the Popeyes at Cathay, and we started to talk about some... R-rated jokes that was not really good to talk in public! I have a feeling the couple sitting beside us could hear our dirty discussion! But it was so hilarious!

Stoned for 2 hours at Bugis Junction to kill time before jamming. Should've followed Shu Ying onto the bus -.- Jamming was rather good! Loved our Neon Trees - Animal! At least it was the proper song! :D I hate changing it to acoustic or something. But our Paramore - Ignorance was quite fail because our parts were all rather hard and we needed more time to practice. Cheney was kind enough to give us a lift! And once I get my Sound Foundry membership in SMU(I already paid the $5) we can jam there! Awesome ttm!

Today was study day. What more to say? Just study study study! The business law textbook is so... confusing! But what choice do I have? Just read.

STGCC tomorrow! Fortunately my parents gave me $200 to cover the textbooks I bought the past week, meaning I have money to spend at the convention! Woohoo! Can't wait! Wish my costume was completed though... I'd want to wear it there. Sigh...

Everyone seems to be chasing targets! And I'm not. Should I start chasing again? I'm still taking a break, you know? Ah well, maybe break time's over!

"What makes me any different from them?"

"Because there's something you have that they don't."
"And what might that be?"
"My heart."

I Wanna Be A DJ

2011-08-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

Funny thing happened today. I went to class, which I kind of dreaded because this was the only module that I did not have anyone I know in it. And I thought I was to go to seminar room 2.1, which I did. And there I saw my year 2 friend, who was as stunned to see me there as I was with her. And I was quite sure I was in the right class, because one of the two girls in front of me had the course textbook with her. Turns out all 3 of us were in the wrong place! We were suppose to go classroom 2.1! But just like that, I made 2 friends out of the blue! And I must say, I met some funny and great people at the lesson! Great!

Helped Sin Ren do her Academic Writing homework while she camwhore with Shu Ying just now -.-

Lessons have been good so far! I wonder why everyone seems to have homework, while I don't seem to have any! I shall study on Saturday! Gonna be busy tomorrow with Vivace! CCAs I'm considering: Stereomata, rock climbing, sound foundry, photography, kendo... The first one is most important for me!!! Die die want to get in! And I plan to take two CCAs if I can, but I need to check for conflicting schedules!

Sunday is STGCC! So hyped!!!

Don't stop the party

Some Things Should Be Said

2011-08-17T09:52:00.000+08:00

Well, two days of the new school term and I think I'm liking it so far! Maybe because I have my Asoc group friends with me! Really, I think classes would suck if you didn't know anyone(like the LTB class I'm having tomorrow...). And all my professors are nice and/or funny so far! Wonder if the last two are good too!

I think I'm really not used to the school being this crowded, as I kind of settled into the peaceful and empty environment of the special term. To see so many students, foreign ones especially, is quite... new for me. But it's quite cool to see students from other countries coming to my school to study!

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The more I think about it, the more it truly pisses me off. You turn him down thrice. Thrice. Yet you play with him and lead him on for so many months. And he was either blinded by love or really loyal(I think it's the latter), but he stayed there throughout, always there for you, never asking for more than your acceptance. You used him, you used my friend, you f***ing bitch.

You say guys are not trustworthy, how they make use of girls, how you feared of giving your heart to a guy. I remember those words from when we first knew each other. You look for good guys, yet you don't deserve them. I heard everything from him, and before you say one word to deny what he says or say he's lying, I want you to know I know him long enough to know that he won't lie or twist words or take advantage of situations. Unlike some people. I'm, honestly, disgusted by you.

I always believe that girls should be treated well. Guys tend to treat them as an item for their lust, or some entertainment to enjoy before moving on to another girl. Guys never seem to take a girl's feelings into consideration, and treat them like dirt. I hate guys like that. Like, really. I don't like how guys mistreat girls.

But it is girls like you who don't deserve such kindness. You abuse the kindness of a guy, and when things turn sour, you try to turn even his loved ones on him. I hate this kind of behavior -> I hate this kind of people -> I hate you. Really, I've got no more respect for you, and the only words I can use to describe you are just too vulgar for me to blog. I hope you'll somehow survive your life, being the person you are. If you haven't noticed, I've blocked you from Facebook.

Maybe I'm just guilty for ever letting him meet you. I thought that two good people could probably find some connection. I made him go through months of hell and emo-ing for you, and for what? For you to constantly rub another boyfriend in his face? For you to lead him on, and reject him every time? For you to enjoy him coming back to you, no matter how much you "push" him away? I'm angry at myself for ever putting him in such a situation, but I'm more furious at you for mistreating my friend.

I don't know what you take him for. He has feelings, and maybe you're being selfish. Or you maybe know, but are more cunning than we know. Manipulative is a better word. You want to play around, but keeping him close until you find a guy with money. Honestly, when I compare the guys you get together with and my friend, I don't see how they can be better people at heart than him. So why them? My guess? Money. Bet you can't give me a more justifiable reason. Even if you can, then why keep him in your palm for so long? You like seeing guys being hurt?

I'd scold and swear a few other things at you, but that would be more of personal attack than giving reasons for my argument. Honestly, I'm damn tempted to to just say those mean stuff at you. Don't expect me to even say hi if I ever see you in the streets again.

I thought he may not have been good enough for you. Obviously, it is you who was not good enough for him.

First Day

2011-08-16T09:40:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday was the first day of my official school life, since I've already done special term. I had Business Law (Bizlaw for short) yesterday, and it's quite ridiculous for me to wake up so early just for one lesson in school. And I hate the journey to school! The MRT train is so packed, and people still insist on squeezing in. Really gets on my nerves sometimes. One day I'll just give up at take taxi to school on Mondays for this semester.

Bizlaw was alright, I guess. I saw a couple of familiar faces, I've Sin Ren in the same class as me, and the professor is funny! Unfortunately, there seems to be a lot of knowledgeable students in class, so I feel quite... stupid(?) in class. And Bizlaw is rather hard to digest, so I need some time to look through the day's stuff and try to understand better.

I'm not sure why but I suddenly felt really hungry in class yesterday. My stomach growled and it was so loud! Even Sin Ren can hear it! Went to the Oh My Fruits shop just downstairs and grabbed a ham & cheese sandwich! Delicious!

Went for lunch with Sin Ren then went to a group seminar room to study a bit, since she had another lesson at 3.30pm and I felt bad if I were to pang seh her and go home. And I spoiled my laptop charging cable when I unknowingly had my chair rest on the wire, which was on the floor. But looks like it still can be used! Just need to tape it up!

Maybe the school internet was less tapped on during the special term. Because yesterday the internet was acting rather screwy. Half the time I'm trying to get a connection, and even when I did my pages had problem loading! Probably because there are so many students tapping the school's internet. I'll bring my mobile broadband just in case!

At least I only need to wake up so early on Mondays. All my lessons for every other day starts at 12 noon! And Fridays no school! :D

It now looks like I'm the bad guy.

And So It Begins...

2011-08-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

...school, that is. Tomorrow is the start of my first year in university! From year 0 to a year 1 student! I guess I'm too used to the crammed courses in special term, so I'm expecting the courses to shift into full throttle within the first week. I hope I get a shock and realize that mods in the usual term is at a slower pace!

A lot of my friends are already mugging, but I guess they've got the SMUgger thing in them. Either that or kiasu-ism. I heard that my batch of students overbid on the mods, which kind of indicates that for my batch, there are a lot of really hardcore muggers. The bell curve is now the least of my worries; the biggest problem is being surrounded by crazy geeks!

I also need to mentally prepare myself for a crowded school. During my special term, the school was relatively empty and peaceful, but from what I've been hearing, all hell breaks loose during the school terms. The library will no longer be the best place to study :(

Totally not prepared for tomorrow's lesson, but at least I'll see a familiar face there! :)

Caught up with some anime I've been watching but halted due to camps and friends. Sket Dance is as random and funny as usual, and Usagi Drop is one that I want to see to the end. I'm waiting for Persona 4 anime to come out!

Dragon Age 2 just keeps getting better! Unfortunately, I get really pissed when the big spiders fall down from the ceiling. They always scare me. Disgusting freaks. And what's worse is the big boss spider drops down on my team... yucks.

I tried The Witcher, and I honestly do not like the combat. All I need is to left-click my mouse to kill the enemy. Maybe it is because the game is quite old, and they grew wiser for Witcher 2. But I don't plan to really play that game.

STGCC is this weekend! I can't wait!!!

I wonder what CCA I should join. I feel like joining photography, or rock climbing, or fencing, or the band one. Maybe the lifeguard one. Damn! What should I choose?!

Went to download a lot of new clubbing songs, and nearly changed my entire blog design. Unfortunately, the picture I wanted to use as background was too big in terms of size, so I decided to forget about it. But I added the songs to my Mixpod on the blog!

BBQ, Chats, Suit Up!

2011-08-13T10:06:00.001+08:00

I'll start with my recount of Thursday before I talk about yesterday's convocation! Thursday was iConserve BBQ!But before that my group Popeyes decided to meet up to go cycling first. Stupad woke up late; no surprise there. So I ended up being at East Coast Park on time, and had to kill time before the rest arrived. Stupad still can ask me buy for her McValue lunch!

The girls rented bicycles while Jeff and I brought our own. I was using my sister's old road bike, and it's not very good. I think I'd prefer the rental bikes, honestly. We cycled quite far down, until some joker did some failed stunt at this steep uphill path. So we took a break, snap some shots, then headed back to Lagoon food center for drinks. We saw that Mediacorp guy! Julian something... he was walking his 3 dogs! I was starting to feel the aching on my butt and my legs had the feeling of going to cramp on the cycle back to the BBQ pit, but fortunately I made it that far.

The BBQ was smaller than I expected, people-wise. But it was still fun nonetheless! And hearing about the ghostly encounters from one of the camp's fright night... scary but interesting! XD My group went to Subway to play cards and eat cookies after the BBQ, and I had to cycle home from there... at least it beats taking the bus down and walking!

Friday started with me selling my management science textbook, before meeting Eric and Ying Hao for...snacking? Eric had lunch while we two had snacks at KFC. Anyway, we shared stories and Eric's one is so shocking! Every time I think of that thing he said my jaw still drops!

Convocation! Had to buy white shirt and black pants just for it! But after yesterday, I think it's totally worth attending convocation! Not because convocation was awesome(it was OK only), but because of my FTB group! Seriously, Charmander brings out the crazy side of me. I went to buy the birthday cake for Jeremy and Rachel, which was meant to be a surprise. But Yong Kit accidentally blurted it out to Jeremy over the phone! LOL

Jeremy and I spent convocation "initiating" the clapping at times, and tried to do wolf whistles and stuff. Our group escaped during toilet break to grab a bite! Which was good, because then we skipped two talks. And I think I group is really damn camwhore-ish! We can take photos even in the lift at the MRT station!

We went to Bras Basah McDonalds' after the convocation, which was my idea. I chose that place because I expected it to be relatively empty as compared to the outlets at Raffles City and Suntec City. However, there were a lot of students studying there, which is quite irritating. I mean, I want to go there to eat, but you students selfishly just study there without even buying anything to eat. So we bought our food and went back to school to eat at a group seminar room!

The birthday cake had so many candles! 3 big and 12 small ones! Plus, we got a slice of cake smashed to Jeremy's face! I think all this face-smash thing is going to be a trend in the group! Overall, it was definitely a fun time last night!

Oh and I hate wearing that smart casual outfit. Or at least, the pants. So baggy! People will probably think I've fat, meaty legs or something. Give me a pair of jeans any day!

Now, to prepare for school! Bummer...

And I'm so sick of Dragon Age 2 having me fight those huge spiders. I. HATE. IT. Suddenly this BIG spider drops from the ceiling to engage my team. Scared the shit out of me.

We are young, we run green,
Keep our teeth, nice and clean,
See our friends, see the sights, feel alright

~ Supergrass - We Are Young

PS. Convocation photos courtesy of Wei Jia!!!

Hottest Chick In Town

2011-08-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

Emma Frost. Any time. It doesn't get any hotter than this.

Picture by J. Scott Campbell, who draws really sexy characters.

Dragon Age II

2011-08-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

I spent almost the entire day engrossed with this game, which I took from Deren the night before. And boy do I love this game! Dragon Age 2 is a Role-Playing game(RPG) that reminds me of those online games like Cabal Online and World of Warcraft, but this game is offline/single-player.

The storyline is pretty nice, but it takes a while to get the idea of what is going on in the game since it is a follow up to the first Dragon Age game. There will be a lot of new terms and races that makes new players like me feel lost, but you should understand everything more or less as you play on.

The gameplay, I feel, resembles that of WoW. Your team of 4 will fight random swarms of enemies, and you have your number keys on your keyboard denoting abilities you can wield and use. The enemies are not so simple that you can just spam the attack button on them. You need to position your team for minimum damage taken and maximum efficiency. Too many times have I got my team slaughtered due to no planning. The gameplay is not hard to pick up, but it will take a bit of time to get use to carrying out your strategies in the middle of fights. It kind of reminds me of the game Brother In Arms, where you will pause halfway to plan your strategy.

Another big reason why I love this game is character customization. This game allows you to customize your character's gender, looks, and class(mage,warrior,rogue). I nearly chose the warrior class, because I felt lazy to cast spells. A warrior is all about high health and high damage. But then I didn't want my character running around in some huge armor, so I decided to play as rogue class.

One good thing about this RPG is the interactions you make with the other characters in-game. What you say will affect your relationship with your teammates, or may even determine the future plots further down in the game. I've only started today, so I wouldn't know much. I like the "freedom of speech" where you don't just keep pressing one button and see this fixed conversation go on. The conversations are rather interesting and you tend to learn what's going on in the world there through these chats.

You can choose to change the difficulty while in-game if you think that the enemies are too hard. I did change my difficulty once from "normal" to "casual", because at that time I did not realize the importance of tactics and simply sent my team to it's death.

Customizing the skills that your character learns is rather diversified too. There is no specific skills you must learn, no fixed order to learn them, nothing. It's your character, it's your say.

There are a lot of quests to do, that are secondary or sub plots. Really helps to make sure the game doesn't get completed too fast.

The graphics are rather good. Not fantastic, but good. The environments are rather detailed...well, the natural environment doesn't have much detailing to do, right? But the town itself is just remarkable.I've no complaints in that department.

And yes, there is blood. And sex. Well, the latter if you can develop romance between your character and that other character. That's what I've heard. I've not actually done any flirting yet to other characters.

If there was anything I would complain about, is the fact that there are spiders as enemies. I really, really hate spiders, and the ones in the game are so realistic looking I try not to look at the screen when I engage those critters. Another thing is potions. You usually can afford to buy a whole load of potions before you head out on missions in other games, but in here, you have to use your potions wisely. Or, get a healer.

So this is how I feel of the game after playing it for one whole day. And I doubt I'm even halfway through game completion. I like how you have the freedom to do things your way, and where the storyline is not fixed but rather fluid and dependent on the choices you make and the things you say. You can even customize the little thumbnail size portrait of your character which appears at the side of your screen. This game is definitely a good way to kill time!

Happy Birthday Singapore!

2011-08-09T10:43:00.000+08:00

Well, today is National Day and Singapore is 46 years old! Happy birthday Singapore! I'm quite glad I'm Singaporean. The government is not corrupted, the education system is somewhat good, and it's a good country to be in. Of course, there are things to complain about like the price of cars and the fate of taxpayers' money. But overall, Singapore is a rather good country to be in!

Going for family lunch then meeting my friends for the evening! Life's a busy schedule that I plan to enjoy before school starts! :D

Ice-cream Frenzy!

2011-08-09T08:49:00.002+08:00

Went to SMU gym for the first time yesterday! And the gym is quite huge! So many treadmills to run on. And the people there have such fit bodies that it's intimidating!haha Now my arms are aching from all the training! Well, at least the shower has warm water!... until some guy went to use the first cubicle and my hot water was gone...

Had dinner with my FTB group after that! First we met at Vivo City, where everyone was late except me! Then we take away food and walked all the way to Keppel Bay for it's "magical grass", which was basically the fake grass! I think the place is a rather nice romantic spot, despite it's rather secluded location. And the condominiums there look so nice! Probably costs a bomb! We had a good time chatting under the night sky, stirring shit, asking which was the most memorable camps, asking how I turned from ember to green, and listening about stories from other camps!

We went back to Vivo City to get ice-cream at a supermarket. And from this day on I shall never buy those cheap tubs. Ben and Jeremy were "testing" the ice cream by opening the tubs and putting their thumbs in to see if the ice cream is melted! Damn hilarious! Oh and Ben showed me this video he took in can't-remember-which-country of a rat the size of a cat! I bought a pack of Tim Tams to share too!

We sat at the open area of Vivo City, and there were quite a few groups of teenagers like us hanging out there. But while most of them were having HTHT time, we were playing the MRT game! We were so loud from all the whacking, and some people were looking at us, but we didn't care! It was just too fun! My right thigh now has some small blue-black spots! After our game, we realized that we had too much ice cream left, and they were all melted. So we decided to play the game where you say a multiple of 5 and everyone shows a number(0 or 5). Can't recall the name of this game. So if you guess correctly, you get to feed a scoop of the melted ice cream to the person, and in the scoop includes one Tim Tam! It started with a scoop, then it escalated to spamming scoops of ice cream, then my face got dunked into the tub of ice cream, then we poured the tub into Xiang Rui's mouth(which he choked and I got some on my hoodie XD), then Jeremy poured the whole tub on Ben's face(I meant everything in the tub into his mouth when I said "everything", not pour the ice cream onto all over his face! Really epic moment!), and Jeremy was sporting and told Ben he'd let him pour into his mouth. Ben simply overturned the tub onto his face! LMAO!

Saw the two jokers lying at the water later rinsing off the ice cream. So for those parents to who bring their kids to swim up there today despite the rather obvious saying "No Swimming", I hope your kids like Neapolitan flavored ice cream! There was this awesome moment where Jeremy was lying backwards with his head dipped in the water, and Ben was not supporting his body. So when Jeremy tried to get back up, he ended up losing his balance and flipping backwards into the water! I don't know how he manage to get out of the water so fast though. Really in a blink of an eye!

Seriously, my FTB is just wild and fun! I love my Asoc group, but we are not as wild as my FTB group. We Charmanders seriously do a lot of stupid stuff! But who knows? My Asoc group are most definitely clubbing tomorrow night, so maybe we'll have some wild side too!

I'm gonna break your little heart
Watch you take the fall
Laughing all the way to the hospital
'Cause there's nothing surgery can do
When I break your little heart in two

~ All Time Low - Break A Little Heart

Stone Days

2011-08-07T22:11:00.000+08:00

Well, today I spent another day stoning at home, either in front of my computer, or on my bed, or both. This is like... the third post I'm blogging for the day?haha

My sister said she dreamt that I died, so as kind of a precaution I decided to stay at home the whole day. Not that I'm complaining about that. One week left to laze around before school starts! Plus, I'm going to be quite busy this week!

Mon-Gym, Dinner with Charmander group
Tues-Family outing, Dinner with CR gang(can't believe I'm calling us that)
Wed-Cubbing(?)
Fri-Convocation(?), Clubbing(?)
Sat-Jamming(?)

Maybe I'll slot in a squash-playing session in my schedule. It's been some time since I did any sport or exercise!

I suddenly feel like watching Disturbia again! Love that movie!

I think I should start styling my hair, to try to undo the damage I've done from my recent haircut...

Please let me recover by tomorrow! Shall sleep earlier tonight! Slept at 3 plus this morning =.=

Just watched another episode of Tiger&Bunny, and I'm liking how the plot thickens!